Haven't seen a new compound hyped this much in a long time.
Quite excited to try this one. Had a taste of ketamine recently after a few year break which had me wondering about potential analogues. Now I find this stuff.
In spite of my excitement I plan to proceed cautiously with this one for a few reasons.
A bit of background:
I've never been a big dissociative user, did DXM a handful of times as a kid, had 3 grams of K over a few months at one point, then 5 grams over a few months with about a year off in between. Hadn't had any for about 3 years before the recent 500mg.
Shortly after the first 3 grams I developed some of the urinary/gall bladder/kidney/whatever issues others have described. Was fairly disconcerting and lasted about a year after I stopped using, though I feel there may still be some lingering damage. Took me a while to pin it on the K use, but as more information on this has emerged, it seems most probable.
After reading some reports of similar things with MXE, I'm wondering if people who have had issues with K in this regard are more likely to report similar experiences from MXE?
My other concern is the addictive potential. While my use never got excessive with K, I did end up using it daily (~100mg/day) near the end of my 5gr stash. How would users with experience with both K and MXE compare the addictive potential?
I feel MXE would be less because of the longer duration/after effects, whereas with K, it's so short-acting there was always enough time to squeeze a small trip in.
I always enjoyed low dose K (~100mg spaced over an hour, listening to music etc) and never k-holed, but did have a few fairly profound experiences.
On 3 occasions when I would re-dose I would get to a state which I can only describe as the feeling of waking up in a lucid dream, but while already awake/conscious. This felt borderline mystical/'enlightening' but I was also fearful of losing my grip (what happens when you awaken, while already awake?) so I would distract myself rather than let myself go into the experience.
Maybe this is the 'almost there'/on the verge of great revelation feeling that makes dissociatives so seductive?

I'm curious if others have had that 'awakening while awake' feeling on K or MXE, and what happens when you fully give in to it?
7 years ago I had a very profound/life-changing
'kundalini awakening' (non drug-related) and while it did have VERY distinct differences from schizophrenia/bi-polar disorder/mania there were also similarities.
Much of my life since has been chasing that state of grace. While I'd give almost anything to get back there, I realize how fine the line between mysticism and mental illness can be, and dissociatives seem more likely to push one to the wrong side of that line...
I'd love for this material to be a new ally (fascinated by the therapeutic potential of low dose NMDA antagonists) but experience shows that when things (drugs especially) sound too good to be true, they usually are.
