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Addicted to owning weed?

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I am 29, been smoking heavily for 15 years although the last few years it has slowed down a lot

However if i don't have weed in the house it drives me crazy and i will go to all kinds of lengths to get it, then once i have obtained it my desire to smoke no longer exists

It's as though the idea of not being able to get stoned freaks me out, though the desire to be actually stoned all the time is not that great.

I have a quarter ounce sitting in my draw that i havt not touched in 3 days, if it wasn't there, well i would be an anxious mess, its my security blanket

I know it's called dependence but curious as to whether anyone else suffers a similar relationship with weed
 
That sounds doesn't really sound like a 'dependence' as most people would describe one. Yours isn't from the the use of weed, but from the presence of it. Maybe after fifteen years you've just gotten so used to always having it, that to not have it is weird. I getcha. After I stopped smoking daily, it felt really weird to not have any bud. And that was only after a year and a half of daily use. I can imagine that feeling is magnified in someone who's been doing it for longer.
 
"Dependence" shows in many ways. I would say some people even are "dependent" on psychedelics because they're so obsessed with them, even if they don't use them often.

Although I don't entirely do the same thing you do, I definitely understand the feeling.
 
I can totally relate...I remedied my dilemma by not running out. I don't think i've run out of any drugs for seriously 1 1/2 years.
 
I guess we understand the feeling but what is the question here lol?
 
I'm exactly the same but with opiates as my poison. I have a stash that I hardly ever touch (1-2 yr old opiates) on top of my regular stash. Lately I have slowly been digging into my reserve stash and now I feel the need to replace what I have used.

I think it's just an addiction to freedom and power. The knowledge that I can dose myself for a little while (to taper off maybe) even if all went to shit and I couldn't score for awhile humbles me.
 
Dunno if it's the same, but i cannot stand smoking marijuana but love growing it.
 
Yeh, ive been the same in the past. Not so much now, but I dont smoke all my weed at once, I make it last. The thing that keeps me smoking is my weed dealer gets my heroin for me when I very rarely use and she loves me so I dont want to taint the relationship by only going there so she can get me H, going there for weed gives me the chance to talk to her most days so yeh. Im sure ill stop somday though. Im not addicted to having weed tho.
 
from what i understand, they've recently come up with the concept of "process addiction," which may or may not explain your situation - i know it does mine.
 
its part of the addiction. i know for myself whenever i get stressed out or angry or depressed i smoke weed. the first thought going through my head when something displeases me is smoking weed. for the past 2 or 3 years its been the way i've dealt with my problems. got high and forgot about it. when i'm sober i can't do this, and it scares me. i imagine the worst happening then i picture myself freaking out because i have no weed. its silly, but its a hard anxiety to shake when smoking weed is your primary source of stress relief.
 
I love some good reef. I like having it, but I typically only purchase $20-40 worth to pace myself, not from lack of more money.....Not really related...

And Mafioso, by and large, I think people alter their consciousness for some sort of an escape, so I imagine your situation is fairly common here.
 
I really dislike smoking weed -however I feel comfortable knowing I have it. I've got some LSD (zee good stuff), Blue Cheese, Blue Dream, Purple Passion, AND Northern Lights. :| It's good as a back up I feel (if I EVER find myself royally screwed and w/o opiates for more than 24 hours ... I will smoke it ALL!). Also, it's a social glue, and a potential cash money ride.

Ka BOOM. But seriously - I also relate in that I have a ginormous stash of methadone (even tramadol - which is nearly useless to me) that I MUST keep at all times at a nice level/amount. Just a safety. A comfort - like you and your weed.
 
I know how that is in a way, weed is not my #1 drug of choice anymore, but I like to keep an Ounce or more of some high grade bud around, mainly in case I need some cash ,I can sell it,or trade it for something else..
 
sounds like a psychologist would say its probably some sort of control issue.

the idea of not being able to get high if you wanted to freaks you out so you have to have it to be calm even though you dont even really want it.

i wouldve never made a connection like that until my sister had an eating disorder and the psychologist explained how its root is in control, with being able to say what your body does and doesnt do.
 
i hoard drugs. even drugs that i'm not and have never been addicted to. i just hate the idea of wanting to get _____ and not being able to.
 
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