One thing that has always been important to me is keeping an open mind.
As a person who attended a Catholic school for all of my life, I can remember a time in my life when Catholicism was a very real, and rational part of my life. I took a class my senior year, and it was about Philosphy and Theology, and it literally used Philosophy as a means to prove Theology. I was a person who had the rare chance of a very thorough and rational look at the Catholic lifestyle. The teacher used many analogies, statistics, and actual facts of life to strengthen his arguments.
Seeing Catholicism form the inside, I can see how rational people in that faith can be.
I have had a very recent spiritual chance, pursuing other ideas of faith and possibilities of explanation for the universe. It ALSO makes sense to me that God, knowing that God could do anything it wanted, created all of this into different personalities and facets of its being. What better way to KNOW all this stuff than to experience it? And when we die, we could re experience the revelation of God. What's better than remembering that you have everything, that you ARE everything?
Now I am very confused. I have always been one to keep an open mind, and I just don't know where I stand. I have seen how what you believe can define your reality, and how sometimes what can seem very rational at the time is NOT necessarily the truth. So HOW do I know what to believe? What can I trust, if I cannot trust my own logic?
Part of me says that it is entirely possible that a Satanic being is leading me astray from God. And that losing my faith keeps me from being saved.
Part of me shows how irrational theology is, that an all powerful all loving God would never create a universe in which, in order for his children to be saved, he had to torture and kill his only Son. He would never let his children suffer for eternity because their logic led them to a different belief of reality, because they didn't believe he existed. I am afraid that God is just like us, and if we reject him, he will reject us too.
Part of me says subjectivism DEFINES reality, and that if you believe in God, he DOES objectively exist, but if you don't believe in God he doesn't exist.
My open mind had caused me to lose myself, and I don't know where to turn.
If I can't trust myself, who CAN I trust
As a person who attended a Catholic school for all of my life, I can remember a time in my life when Catholicism was a very real, and rational part of my life. I took a class my senior year, and it was about Philosphy and Theology, and it literally used Philosophy as a means to prove Theology. I was a person who had the rare chance of a very thorough and rational look at the Catholic lifestyle. The teacher used many analogies, statistics, and actual facts of life to strengthen his arguments.
Seeing Catholicism form the inside, I can see how rational people in that faith can be.
I have had a very recent spiritual chance, pursuing other ideas of faith and possibilities of explanation for the universe. It ALSO makes sense to me that God, knowing that God could do anything it wanted, created all of this into different personalities and facets of its being. What better way to KNOW all this stuff than to experience it? And when we die, we could re experience the revelation of God. What's better than remembering that you have everything, that you ARE everything?
Now I am very confused. I have always been one to keep an open mind, and I just don't know where I stand. I have seen how what you believe can define your reality, and how sometimes what can seem very rational at the time is NOT necessarily the truth. So HOW do I know what to believe? What can I trust, if I cannot trust my own logic?
Part of me says that it is entirely possible that a Satanic being is leading me astray from God. And that losing my faith keeps me from being saved.
Part of me shows how irrational theology is, that an all powerful all loving God would never create a universe in which, in order for his children to be saved, he had to torture and kill his only Son. He would never let his children suffer for eternity because their logic led them to a different belief of reality, because they didn't believe he existed. I am afraid that God is just like us, and if we reject him, he will reject us too.
Part of me says subjectivism DEFINES reality, and that if you believe in God, he DOES objectively exist, but if you don't believe in God he doesn't exist.
My open mind had caused me to lose myself, and I don't know where to turn.
If I can't trust myself, who CAN I trust