Is it really impossible for me to be still tripping even if I got some kind of liver damage? I mean I've just read liver damage can prolong by more than 10 times the half life of some chemicals. My last blood test showed high liver enzymes. It makes sense for me. First because of the duration of the trip, as after 15 hours I was still seeing some visuals. In social cannabis uses I was always the last one to come out of the trip. And though I'm not seeing kaleidoscopes I still see strong lights which was the first effect I noticed and all the apathy problem can be explained if I'm thinking a bit slowly like I was during the trip...
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Post LSD apathy
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But if some small amount of LSD is still cycling though my body without being metabolized then it'd set those brain reactions non-stop, wouldn't it?
It's almost 20 times the original half-life. If it can happen with caffeine why it can't happen with LSD?
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It's almost 20 times the original half-life. If it can happen with caffeine why it can't happen with LSD?
nearjat
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Yeah you're just anxiously diagnosing yourself with very little reason, for your own good, CUT IT OUT! 
It'll go away. For real.
It'll go away. For real.
pofacedhoe
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this!
lsd is gone within a short space of time (and even if it wasn't you would be tolerant to it in a short space of time), what you have is a lingering depressive edge (apathy is a huge part of depression). try forgeting about the trip and let it go
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If you start looking for medical conditions that could be causing your apathy, you will most likely stress yourself out. Psychedelics can help you see things in a way that you never saw them before. Perhaps through tripping you began to question cultural norms and no longer find them rewarding like they were before. This doesn't mean that once the trip is over you will necessarily forget everything you experienced and not carry it into your life.
So many people assume that when they notice a change in themselves there is some sort of damage or problem. Change can be good, I would say that most individuals could use a good amount of it. Just ride it out and see where it takes you...experiencing some discomfort and questioning yourself isn't necessarily a bad thing, it can often be helpful in the long-term.
So many people assume that when they notice a change in themselves there is some sort of damage or problem. Change can be good, I would say that most individuals could use a good amount of it. Just ride it out and see where it takes you...experiencing some discomfort and questioning yourself isn't necessarily a bad thing, it can often be helpful in the long-term.
No it's not good at all not being able to buy a damn ticket in the metro station or suddenly becoming confused inside a store or anywhere where more than 2 events happens at the same time. Not being able to recognize yourself in the mirror like your central vision suddenly became as effective as your peripheral. Being numb in a damn sport you used to be really good, not feeling pleasure in eating, talking, in FUCKIN' FUCKIN YOUR GIRL, having difficult to read text and signs and having trouble with strong lights. There IS something going on, I AM fucked, NOBODY can help me and I AM desperate. This place was my hope but I just give up. I had a perfect life 1 week ago and now I'm totally fucked and will find somewhere to cry like a kid until I get used to that idea. This thread can be locked.
But please, if you are reading this and haven't used LSD, please...
DON'T.
Thanks.
But please, if you are reading this and haven't used LSD, please...
DON'T.
Thanks.
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I understand that what you are going through is difficult. I'm just saying that experiences which we consider mistakes or problems are often opportunities to learn a lot about ourselves. Don't assume that you are fucked for life, it has been 1 week. Give yourself some time to work through this before giving up.
DwayneHoover
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^I was thinking the same thing... cant buy a ticket, read text, feel pleasure, fuck, see light without pain, or, and this is the clincher, recognize himself in the mirror.
Hmmmm.... <Spock eyebrow raise / heat tilt>
Apparently he is devolving like William Hurt in Altered States. Soon he'll be running around chasing animals at the zoo, dragging newly hairy knuckles.
I can confidently say that in the entire history of LSD it has never created this curious, perplexing (and evolving!) cluster of adverse symptoms. He is clearly suffering from, obviously, Mrdocat's Syndrome in its first and only appearance.
The only viable explanation is LSD-induced psychosis. It happens.
It would seem his doctor had the right idea with the anti-psychotic. You know, seriously, who the fuck are we to tell him not to take it? We are not doctors. He was examined and was prescribed an anti-psychotic by a professional member of the healing arts. No doubt, Dr. thought "I've seen post drug blues, but this guy's gone off the deep end." It was prescribed. I say take it.
Either that or it's some elaborate anti-drug propaganda troll... notice how the grand finale (just prior to him wishing the thread closed) was intended to be "If you are thinking of trying LSD: Dont!"
Hmmmm.... <Spock eyebrow raise / heat tilt>
Apparently he is devolving like William Hurt in Altered States. Soon he'll be running around chasing animals at the zoo, dragging newly hairy knuckles.
I can confidently say that in the entire history of LSD it has never created this curious, perplexing (and evolving!) cluster of adverse symptoms. He is clearly suffering from, obviously, Mrdocat's Syndrome in its first and only appearance.
The only viable explanation is LSD-induced psychosis. It happens.
It would seem his doctor had the right idea with the anti-psychotic. You know, seriously, who the fuck are we to tell him not to take it? We are not doctors. He was examined and was prescribed an anti-psychotic by a professional member of the healing arts. No doubt, Dr. thought "I've seen post drug blues, but this guy's gone off the deep end." It was prescribed. I say take it.
Either that or it's some elaborate anti-drug propaganda troll... notice how the grand finale (just prior to him wishing the thread closed) was intended to be "If you are thinking of trying LSD: Dont!"
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That's the part that made me raise an eyebrow.
DwayneHoover
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That sealed it for me too. But the part about not recognizing himself in the mirror, I mean come ON! How flagrantly preposterous. Either a pile of steaming BS, or the LSD made him go balls-to-the-wall looney, as in stars-n-birds circling his skull certified. I mean, like, SQUIRRELS recognize themselves in the mirror... VERY basic function.
You don't understand what I mean with not recognizing, you don't understand what I mean with anything I say. When I look on the mirror, I know that's me there, but still it seems like something is wrong, like I can see less details, like I'm behind a fog though there's no visible fog. It's hard to explain, but it's also wrong with my though. My mind feels foggy though I don't know exactly what's wrong. Today I had to do some basic things like paying a bill on the bank, get the certificate of military enlistment and I had lots of trouble with them. For instance when I was on the bank I went to the 'attendance' and asked "is it here where I pay this?". She answered: "no, it's there" and pointed to the right place (I don't know what's the name of that place in english, but there are some desks where you get attendance and anothe place with a queue, cash registers etc). I mean OF COURSE you pay there, not in an fucking attendance desk! In my whole life I never have done such stupid thing. And that stupidity goes with me wherever I go. I thought I became retarded so I picked a math book and it seems like I can still do some hard math problems. So I'm probably not stupid, and I don't really feel like I'm unable to learn or to perform well academically. When I'm focused on something I do well. But I'm dumb for simple things. Yesterday I forgot the key in my home (I've NEVER forgot it before) and also the address of where I was going so I had to go to a lan house look out for it on the internet and had to stay the rest of the day in a friend's house waiting for my parents to arrive from work to open the door. *facepalm*
I think the problem is that I can't focus on things. For instance, I was on the bank, but my mind was in another place so that's why I asked such a stupid thing. But I WAS trying to focus on the bank. So maybe that's why I look stupid and apathetic.
My day is like that:
1. I wake up with my mind heavy and start thinking about the fact my mind is heavy. So I look dumb socially and have trouble doing easy things. I have no will to eat, to have sex, I fell deep and stupid.
2. I go out do daily things, see some friends, go to the gym, maybe play some soccer, all that trying hard to look normal. People report I'm 'almost normal just a bit slow and 'depressed' (not necessarily a diagnosis) even though I feel I'm completely retarded.
3. After 2/3 of the day has past I'm usually home and slowly I start to feel better. My desire to eat, to eat, to talk, to have sex is 95% back, that heaviness thing on my mind slowly fades away, I'm happy, everything is just OK. Then I sleep thinking I'll wake up fine but I wake up again with that noticeably deepness foggy heaviness on my mind so everything starts again.
I just want to know what's going on. Maybe I've got some problem on my vision or on my mind (depression, anxiety, don't know), and that's why my mind is so heavy. A vision problem can explain why I'm better at night - but doesn't explain my lack of desire to eat, to have sex, etc., though the day. A mental problem doesn't explain why I'm better at night. Maybe I've just became retarded, and I just don't notice it at night because I'm alone at home and that's what makes me think I'm better, but why can I do things harder than going to a bank withuot problem? ...
Sigh... gotta go I'll meet my girlfriend today.
Never had libido problems before, but today my libido is 0. Let's see how I do.
I think the problem is that I can't focus on things. For instance, I was on the bank, but my mind was in another place so that's why I asked such a stupid thing. But I WAS trying to focus on the bank. So maybe that's why I look stupid and apathetic.
My day is like that:
1. I wake up with my mind heavy and start thinking about the fact my mind is heavy. So I look dumb socially and have trouble doing easy things. I have no will to eat, to have sex, I fell deep and stupid.
2. I go out do daily things, see some friends, go to the gym, maybe play some soccer, all that trying hard to look normal. People report I'm 'almost normal just a bit slow and 'depressed' (not necessarily a diagnosis) even though I feel I'm completely retarded.
3. After 2/3 of the day has past I'm usually home and slowly I start to feel better. My desire to eat, to eat, to talk, to have sex is 95% back, that heaviness thing on my mind slowly fades away, I'm happy, everything is just OK. Then I sleep thinking I'll wake up fine but I wake up again with that noticeably deepness foggy heaviness on my mind so everything starts again.
I just want to know what's going on. Maybe I've got some problem on my vision or on my mind (depression, anxiety, don't know), and that's why my mind is so heavy. A vision problem can explain why I'm better at night - but doesn't explain my lack of desire to eat, to have sex, etc., though the day. A mental problem doesn't explain why I'm better at night. Maybe I've just became retarded, and I just don't notice it at night because I'm alone at home and that's what makes me think I'm better, but why can I do things harder than going to a bank withuot problem? ...
Sigh... gotta go I'll meet my girlfriend today.
Never had libido problems before, but today my libido is 0. Let's see how I do.
abore
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Are you still taking Risperdal? Have you looked into what it does? You're assuming this is all because you took LSD, but what you're ignoring is that you're on a mind-altering drug right now called Risperdal. Risperdal is known for making people feel like they're in a fog. Risperdal is known for completely killing sex drive. Risperdal is known for fucking with people appetite by increasing it or decreasing it. The fact is LSD may have effected you, but if you're taking Risperdal it is currently affecting you. You say you're better at night. Are you taking Risperdal in the morning and it's effects are wearing off throughout the day making you feel closer to normal at night?
Have you read anything anyone says or do you just come on here to talk to yourself?
Have you read anything anyone says or do you just come on here to talk to yourself?
abore
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http://www.askapatient.com/viewrating.asp?drug=20272&name=RISPERDAL
Here is a link to a bunch of people reporting on the side effects of Risperdal. I will copy and paste a few that stuck out to me for you and put them in bold type-face.
Do any of these seem familiar to you?
Here is a link to a bunch of people reporting on the side effects of Risperdal. I will copy and paste a few that stuck out to me for you and put them in bold type-face.
Do any of these seem familiar to you?
I would suggest searching for the reasons of these symptoms psychologically. My vision gets a little crazy every once in a while (usually when I'm really bored) and I have attributed this as something to do to keep my brain busy. I feel like after tripping, my brain tries to latch on to certain aspects of the trip that it enjoys the most (usually vision and dialectic thinking.) What could be happening here, is that your brain, your mind, and your body are in discord. Your body's good, like it almost always is, but your brain is searching for new things to entertain itself with, while your mind is constantly trying to limit your "psychosis" so that you can "look normal" to other people. As long as your body is doing well, the mind games you play with yourself are just for shits and gigs.
DwayneHoover
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So maybe he should start, as it was prescribed.
Man, the effects of risperdal may or may not help your situation. The only way you will know is if you try it out. You might be interested in paying attention to the actual effects of this drug and filtering them from the placebo effects that may occur (if I take x amount of risperdal, I am supposed to feel better, therefore I feel better about potentially feeling better.)
Whether or not you're still feeling off, it would be cool to see what your reaction to this exercise is. Any object will do (yes, even yourself) but I like to use trees to simplify things. Go out and look at a tree while monitoring what's going on in your mind. Now look at the tree, and refrain from thinking about the word "tree" or "leaves" or "green" or any other word or symbol that you relate to the tree with. Try to sustain this blank slate of thinking, while studying the tree, for 5-10 minutes and then attempt to describe how your concept of the tree changes.
Whether or not you're still feeling off, it would be cool to see what your reaction to this exercise is. Any object will do (yes, even yourself) but I like to use trees to simplify things. Go out and look at a tree while monitoring what's going on in your mind. Now look at the tree, and refrain from thinking about the word "tree" or "leaves" or "green" or any other word or symbol that you relate to the tree with. Try to sustain this blank slate of thinking, while studying the tree, for 5-10 minutes and then attempt to describe how your concept of the tree changes.