☮ Social ☮ PD Social: swirling into homeostasis

[nearjat]

I decided to skip the Furthur show because I'm trying to distance myself from the lifestyle ... the whole thing is just one big trigger lol. But I still love the music, I will listen to it at some point. But as for the show itself, just too many sketchy memories and people that I don't want to run into ... I've had a lot of great times in that scene but ultimately it just feels tiresome these days. I am sure I will be able to enjoy a show in the future but someting about not going to this one in my background felt very liberating, if that makes sense ... well, it does to me ... that's just where I'm at now.

Good shit man, as many of us know, the drugs themselves are a very small part of the issue.

 

[SKL]

When I'm really high on opiates, I can't sleep ... i can nod, but not sleep as in lie down and get my rest.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

one of the main things i like about amps is the whole ritual of getting spun and doing shit all night
i still be quitting though

 

[SKL]

I used to love that shit, too. in college primarily. I staeyd up all night doing schoolwork &c. on amps 2 or 3 nights a week. It was crazybeautiful sometimes ..... ideas lighting up the sky like lines of force ... did some brilliant work too .... but it's in no way a sustainable lifestyle and tends to end in an ugly ugly way. These days I use amphetamines not infrequently, but never to stay up all night anymore. I'm too old for that shit. And I'm not even that old Sometimes it feels that way though. I've sure packed a lot of druggery into the past quarter century.

 

[yucatanboy2]

Yeah, it turns out that a sustainable lifestyle is a good thing. I find that to be a pretty good question when it comes to many things ("could I do this for the rest of my life?")

 

[nearjat]

Posting this again. I'm that passionate about this song.

 

[phenethylo J]

hay theezy.
wut up diggity
yea im thinking 20 will be pretty strong.
as in "nodding" or whatever.
they should be 5/325s so i aint know.
worst case i can CWE.

No point in cweing if your only takeing four pills.

 

[*Love*Lite*]

I am sure I will be able to enjoy a show in the future but someting about not going to this one in my background felt very liberating, if that makes sense ... well, it does to me ... that's just where I'm at now.

mmmmhhhhmmm brother I miss me some Somekindalove like crazy. we had some good times together and I feel you on the quarter century of drug use... I can fuck with anything like I used too.

Howdie PD'rs.


*wishes psychedelics were legal so that I could administer massage legally to people under int influence of 2c-b an MDMA and anything else cuddly*

Do you all touch the people you love enough? skin to skin contact is a powerful remedy for many things

 

[tBirdee]

Man Tommy Chong is such a cool old guy lol

haha yes

and nearjat both those songs are so good

k just one more but this is hilarious imo

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

I think next time I get some money I'll buy some cigars rather than 4-FA. I'm doing GBL and JWH every day and I think indulging in sober hobbies to cut back on use would be good for me. Haven't had any good cigars since like early summer or something.

 

[General Patton]

So I threw a gram of white sage leaves in a shot of rum and drank is last night. Today's gutrot underscored the fact that if you have a sensitive stomache you may never, EVER, want to injest a 5-HT3 agonist and GABA-A antagonist like thujone. I felt some slight absinthe-like effects which was potentiated by cannabis, but I mean the fallout was BRUTAL. Dunno why that was, other than maybe the 30min "soak in rum" extraction was TOO efficient and brought out alot of plant terpenes and shit along with the thujone. Whatever it was, I'm NEVER taking a gram of this material in a shot extraction ever again, now in a green-dragon concoction with a hefty dose of shake along with it... That's another story and worth another shot

 

[swilow]

LOL my gf just woke me up and told me I was yelling "I'm friends with the monkeys!", in my sleep. :D

Thats fucking gold

As I always say, drugs attract broken people; ideally, we use the drugs to fix ourselves, or, alternatively, we use them to shatter ourselves more

Aye, I don't think I'll ever recover from being entrenched in the psychedelic scene around Victoria/Australia...In fact, I don't ever want to.


Thats true; its very rare that you encounter a person who seems complete (I guess I'm using doofs as my comparison)...Its either people getting lost, or people trying to lose themselves.

I do believe that shattering of the self is beneficial; but it needs to be done gently. And you need both eyes wide open, always. I think that (if I can use a labroious analogy) that psychedelics melt a person; all the parts remain, but are fundamentally altered; but like ice/water, you can either compltely dissolve, or remould yourself into the same structure you had initially. The breaking isn't permanent.

What has changed me in the deepest possible sense is spirituality sepereate from psychedelics; a lot of what would be called occult practise has truly altered nearly every part of me, and in a way that has been basically uncontrollable. Its been frightenting at times, but helplessness is quickly overcome.

I guess I identify with chaos and emptiness more then the grey areas.

/rant/rant



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[Thorns Have Roses]

Gotta stay up all night to buy tickets at 6am. So I thought to myself 15 minutes ago, hey why aren't you on 4-MeO-PCP? So I took some. Oh yeah.

Here's a vid for you all by Spanish band The Pinker Tones.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iUEqQ3_Dbv8

 

[TheAppleCore]

LOL my gf just woke me up and told me I was yelling "I'm friends with the monkeys!", in my sleep. :D

Perfect!

wow, fuck... I had the most intense LSD-experience last night... feel free to read or comment.

Thanks for the report -- left a comment.

So, we've been swirling into homeostasis for well over 100 pages now. How's everyone's homeostasis doin?

I was feeling pretty fabulously homeostatic earlier today, actually, but now that I've been awake for a little longer than would be healthy, homeostasis has probably been disrupted to a degree. How are you?

Posting this again. I'm that passionate about this song.

Hey, my sister was just talking to me about Bon Iver today! Been listening to that song while writing this reply -- it's a very floaty sound...

 

[solistus]

one of the main things i like about amps is the whole ritual of getting spun and doing shit all night
i still be quitting though

Take my approach and become a chronic insomniac. I don't need no stims to be wired all fucking night with no hope of sleep. I got up at a reasonable hour yesterday (10-ish), it's now 6am, and I'm way too wired to get any sleep right now. If I took any amps, I think my head would literally explode, Scanners style.

 

[TheAppleCore]

^ I'm with you there.

I think my brain hates itself.

It's got my circadian rhythms totally working against my sleep schedule. Right around the time that I should be going to bed, if I want to get a full night's rest before school, I'm totally amped up and I'm literally at my peak of stimulation throughout the 24-hour cycle. And then, come 'round about that time when my alarm goes off in the morning, I'm pretty much half-dead.

 

[nearjat]

Know what's great? I seem to have so much more spice for life when I tell college to fuck off.... College makes me unhappy. Is it worth it?

 

[Roger&Me]

^I think it's basically designed to be a pain in the ass, for no other reason than to be a right of passage... or something lame like that.

I think college is worth it, but not if you have to sacrifice your mental health & well-being in the process (and I've seen college decimate a number of my friends mentally, so its definitely not uncommon). I think we put too much emphasis on earning credentials in our society, and not enough emphasis on just becoming a person of value.

Good luck, man. It's worth the work, but not the worry-- remember that.

 

[nearjat]

Thanks dude that's pretty much exactly what I needed to hear... fuck man. I know I CAN do the work but I just don't have the balance to do it AND be happy. Like I can either do my thing where I go to work, do my best, come home- and then enjoy my hobbies. Or with college, I can come home- go through huge amounts of strain just to focus on the task at hand and have no social life whatsoever and then... YAY DEGREE! I have no balance, this I can admit. The only thing that's ever made me succeed in school was my prescription to adderall, but it just made me ok with selling my soul so to speak...

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Bah, uni can go bite it. Irreconcilable diffrences with the academic system I have. Though, sometimes I feel like this is all just dreaming and I'll wake up back there...