☮ Social ☮ PD Social: swirling into homeostasis

[Roger&Me]

The adderall just won't quit and let me sleep, and I have class in like 7 hours.

Sucks...

But I'm actually feelin' pretty good. :D

 

[Xorkoth]

I just hit some JWH-108 and I think I'm going to have some valerian tea so I may feel tired at a reasonably unreasonable hour.

 

[Xorkoth]

Which is to say, a while from now

 

[alantis360]

man I was jammin this cd for the first time the other night. Was gone off a bunch of really really dank L, total ego loss. But man when this shit came on it sent me into another level. I felt so tribal, like infinite on some level or frequency that people have tapped into thousands of years ago.

Man high dose L is so much different than a high dose mushroom trip, in my younger inexperienced days I use to think they were so similar.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXULecvImpw&feature=related

 

[helium-4]

Nothing like a few Dogfish head 90s and White Rascals, with the new South Park, to give a wonderful evening. Gonna load up a bong.

 

[yucatanboy2]

What's going on PD?

Xorkoth, do you find Valerian tea pretty effective? I ordered some for my insomnia, haven't gotten it yet (also ordered some kava, which I am familiar with)

 

[TheAppleCore]

Hello!

I'm floating on a magic carpet...

Just smoked a little bowl of weed, and I'm soaking up some music. Every once in awhile the music will reach a climax of some sort and I'll start grinning really big and my vision will get blurry for a second, and then my eyes will dry up. %)


Man, seriously, how cool is Bluelight in general?

 

[swilow]

^Its blue.

Mine's a lot smaller too.

Hmm, your wife been saying stuff?

 

[Solipsis]

OK well today's the day

I am probably going to get fired or come to an agreement to break this work relation but will do my very best to handle it well, like sacked formally not by my own fault or by getting into a law for chronic illness, I don't know what it is called in English.

Basically I just need to retreat, go live with my parents for a while and get my peace of mind back. I will speak first and it's my plan whether they want to fire me or not. I am very sensitive to stimuli and chronically overcharged and what in English is apparently called emotional exhaustion. I've rarely ever been so stressed out and fucked up as this week, barely ate a decent meal.
It's fucking over, I can't handle this dead-end situation anymore so I am gonna reboot. Get some peace, rest and energy... and then fight for the life I want which means getting a career together in what I mentioned earlier, something along the lines of exotic psychochemical expert (weakly lol).
Talk about emotional exhaustion, my thoughts have been overruling my emotions for very very long now, save from the occasions now and then. If I go to the south, where my parents live I need to start learning to feel again for real. I have almost spontaneously started picking up yoga recently and will be combining that with meditation.

I just need to do this. Otherwise it will tear me apart, everything coming at me while I try to make one thing work ten other things mess everything up etc. I was not that conscious about it but I see more clearly now how I have been on the brink of depression for a long time, and the brink is about to flip and break.

Shame that this job ends, it's an extraordinary company for an ICT business. But very good things can come out of this. It should be like a sort of rehabilitation, I can start over and spend new found energy (which will surely come) searching for a home that I desperately need - in the center of the country - and for that job that makes me happy because I love doing that kind of thing anyway.

I just have to make it for another few hours until I have this appointment/meeting about the situation here and hope I don't crash from exhaustion, but rather pull out the sharpness to leave things right.

Last time I posted I tested out a fairly novel stimulant - absurd how I just do that in the middle of all this... it's crazy

 

[swilow]

^Making big decisions is always extremely life affirming....sometimes losing a job (or another such hurdle) really propels you to examine what you really want, and then you go and get it.

Keep meditating and relaxing; god knows, I understand the emotional exhaustion bit...

Be well my friend

 

[Ben So Furry]

Yo yo yo,
Just watched some fucking thing yeah, had this dumb cunt mouse in it who wanted to be a wizard or some shit, he was all like bizooow and bizaap and shit, anyway he made this stupid stick into a fucking robot or some shit the music was all like 'bum da bum da bum da' or some shit and then the real wizard came in and he was like mega fuckin pissed, like real big time yeah, I would have kicked the mouses ass big style yeah but the wizard was all like zaaap and shit then it was ok

the morul: never trust mice with your fucking wizards hat ya heRd?

bazipnap, me out....

 

[Vader]

I have a fledgling theory that the reason 4-alkyl 2C-x (eg. 2C-D, 2C-E, 2C-P) are more potent and psychedelic than 4-halogenated 2C-x (eg. 2C-C, 2C-B, 2C-I), has something to do with rotation around single-bonds at the 4-position.

And look at mescaline, it has three methoxy groups hanging out there off the the 3,4,5-positions, each with five single bonds. That's probably a VERY dynamic region of the mescaline molecule.

But mescaline's weak as hell compared to any other psychedelic, if your theory was true wouldn't you expect it to be a lot more potent?

 

[swilow]

Yo yo yo,
Just watched some fucking thing yeah, had this dumb cunt mouse in it who wanted to be a wizard or some shit, he was all like bizooow and bizaap and shit, anyway he made this stupid stick into a fucking robot or some shit the music was all like 'bum da bum da bum da' or some shit and then the real wizard came in and he was like mega fuckin pissed, like real big time yeah, I would have kicked the mouses ass big style yeah but the wizard was all like zaaap and shit then it was ok

the morul: never trust mice with your fucking wizards hat ya heRd?

bazipnap, me out....

I like anything in which sticks are made into robots by mice.

 

[Ben So Furry]

I like anything in which sticks are made into robots by mice.

I hear that Bro...sheesh,

the rest was like some guy dressed as a fuckin penguin waving a little shitty stick at peeps blowing on and fingering their instruments...

...and shit

 

[MagickalKat777]

19.2mg? How can you manage to afford a scale that reads into µg? They're like $15k haha.


Interesting sounding experience however, although the stopping breathing doesn't sound healthy.

Nah they're not even 15k - brand new the one I got would be about 2800... I got it on eBay for 126 bucks from a local lab that closed... If you look for analytical balances on eBay and then look at auction only items, you can find Mettler, Denver Instruments, and OCCASIONALLY a Sartorius for under 250 easily. In fact, I was bidding on a Mettler that was accurate to 10µg - my max bid was 200 and it sold for 212.50 because I didn't check my email on my phone.

The breathing thing... There could be a number of factors in that. I'm currently switching from 2mg of Klonopin a day to 40mg of Valium a day so my breathing may have been suppressed though I haven't noticed it when sober.

I highly doubt you stopped breathing. You may have been suppressing your breathing slightly, but your body is handling it fine with out any conscious effort. I've heard stories many a time from people consuming DMT, or really any drug that can send you close or too egoloss, that needed to "make" themselves breath. Think about it, your ego is being destroyed, to comprehend what is physically going on in your body (especially when you watch it flying away from yourself) seems very unlikely especially since breathing is an involuntary action. You can "control" your breathing by preventing certain muscles from contracting, like your diaphragm, but the moment you stop your body is in control. Basically I wouldn't be worried about not breathing on a traditional 5ht2a psychedelic.

Generally I would agree however I came out of it multiple times gasping for air. This isn't the first time I stopped breathing on a psych though - my second time on shrooms, I stopped breathing. My friends literally noticed me changing colors and smacked me and I was fine.

 

[CatfishRivers]

You should write a psychedelic nuerochemistry/psychopharmacological primer for dummies and publish it. I'd buy it!

I have a fledgling theory that the reason 4-alkyl 2C-x (eg. 2C-D, 2C-E, 2C-P) are more potent and psychedelic than 4-halogenated 2C-x (eg. 2C-C, 2C-B, 2C-I), has something to do with rotation around single-bonds at the 4-position.

Halogenated 2C-x compounds contain only 1 atom at the 4-position, while 4-alkyl 2C's have many carbons and hydrogens hanging out there rotating around single bonds like maniacs.

I remember reading that the kinetics of the methylenedioxy ring in MDMA is partially responsible for its interaction with a certain receptor site (which one escapes me at the moment).

And look at mescaline, it has three methoxy groups hanging out there off the the 3,4,5-positions, each with five single bonds. That's probably a VERY dynamic region of the mescaline molecule.

It seems like the more dynamic the region opposite the ethylamine, the more psychedelic the phenethylamine.

I dunno, just making some observations.

 

[CatfishRivers]

Requesting photo's of dogs n cats, preferably your own ones too

Introducing, the world famous, puppymaster of disaster, dr. puppy bones, the chancellor of chow, the goofdoof , the one and only DINGO!

 

[swilow]

^Another beautiful creature. I love how simply a dog can change their expressions, just by raising an ear or doing that cute head between paws thing My fellers favorite way of expressing himself is with the roll-onto-the-back-kick-feet-in-air position; which means "scratch my belly pweaze"...

Give him a scratch for me....

 

[Delsyd]

Requesting photo's of dogs n cats, preferably your own ones too

Hi Henry
This is Ollie

 

[Delsyd]

NSFW:

KittyPuppyPony and Ollie