Lost Ego
Bluelighter
K um, ever since i um became a man or w/e--- lost weight and had a muscular physique, my mom and sister, the only 2 ppl that live with me, will often check me out and im really uncomftorable with it. Like just this morning i woke up, went to the bathroom and i came out and my mom was looking at my dick through my boxers and then she says good morning like nothing had just happened, wtf! ok like... she does this every day and its just stealing glances at it but its like wtf. she'll touch me inappropriately like sit next to me and place her hand on my inner thigh when she is talking to me and i move her hand and she'll be like "whats ur problem". my sister must know i jack off, w/e, but last week i guess she heard me and came into my room without even fucking knocking and then i quickly put it away in the knick of time and she was like fuckin lookin at my hard dick through my shorts for 10 seconds b4 she started talking to me. wtf! im not cool with any of this shit and i really dno wtf to do since this is my family and the only 2 ppl i live with. they always fucking steal glances at my cock, every fucking day, idk what to do. is this common? i know the Oedipus complex is supposed to be son -> mom, not the other way around. ugh, 1 time i was tying my shoe facing the um couch (i was about 12) and my mom walks up wearing a skirt and she sat right in front of my face with no panties on, i still cant get this horrible image of my mom's vagina outa my head and i think she did it on purpose. i mean she had to of known! i haven't had the courage to talk to my psychiatrist about it. is there any mental illness that can cause your eyes to wander uncontrollably even though you dont wanna, like my eyes sometimes wander to male bodys and i dont like men but they just do and i can't not look sometimes. maybe its the same with my mom, maybe it's a hereditary neurological disease. all i know is it all started around when i read a introductory book about sigmund freud called "basic freud". anyways, any input would be helpful. i think im going crazy