I used to do psychedelics a lot, sometimes once a month but usually more than that for a period of a couple years. Just last week I had my first trip in ten months, a small dose of 4acodmt, and instantly I remembered why I don't trip anymore. The mindset was just so familiar and dry. Perhaps my pessimistic life outlook contributed, however I believe it was more of a malaise relating to the whole paradigm of psychedelics elucidating what changes I have to make in my life.
The whole show seemed redundant to me because being an introvert means that I think about these things all day, most days. Tripping just makes these feelings stronger for me. In the past, tripping was about the lulz. It was about seeing visuals, or listening to the same music in a different way, or maybe just going for a walk and seeing what kind of crazy synchronicities might pop up. Regardless, I slowly saw more and more repetition in my trips and less and less excitement, or reason to return.
Psychedelics were valuable to me. I especially enjoyed the camraderie aspect of learning, trying, and reflecting on all the different chemicals with some of my best friends. They gave me access to a different part of culture and scenes that I never would've been involved with otherwise. Psy/goa trance is still one of my favorite musical genres.
Eventually, as tripping became less trippy, sober life became more trippy. Looking back on the experiences now, I recognize that a lot of the fun was in the novelty & various body highs that tripping imparted. And to be honest, I began to see more ways that tripping could become a burden or a hindrance. No sleeping, driving or desire to eat for hours on end? Aural hallucinations, chance of paranoia/anxiety or even complete dysfunction? I mean really, I have problems operating my cell phone when I'm high on pot. While tripping it might as well be off the whole time--yeah yeah I know it should be.
I could never say that I regret the time I spent exploring psychedelics. I feel like it's more important that I did them and know that I no longer want to do them as opposed to never doing them in the first place. I've already relinquished my small stash of 4acodmt and have no plans to acquire any more psychs for a long while. Honestly, as I think I said earlier in this palaverous post, they've just gotten tiresome for me.