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Why are you here now??

S.M.F.G

S.M.F.G

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Hi all:) .Thought this an interesting thread
sorry if its been done b4 mods pls feel free to move to the apprporiate place.

My question to you all being as i came to think of this just now is.....

Why are you here?(im mainly refering to TDS) I'm here mainly to log my bullshit problems, but also to try and offer some kind words and advice to others who feel deep in a hole also.

So how bout the rest of yall? It's interesting to me and would love feedbck on this so i can not only understand things a little better, but also to get to know some of you, I know the introduce yourself thread exists, I feel though this is a little different.... so why are all you here?

Part of my answer ive given you already, id like to hear from some fellow bluelighters.
Peace.... S.M.F.G :)
 
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I've had my share of mental/substance/whatever issues and I like TDS because I know how some of our other posters feel, some of us have been through similar things, and can trade tips on coping/getting through things. It kinda makes ya not feel so alone in your life problems.
 
Cool thread.

I've been here since March 2009. When things get bad, I check in for a few weeks/months and communicate with people who are going through the same troubles as I am. When I'm struggling too much, I tend to become reclusive from those who are physically around me, and I drink and/or take too many drugs. This is a good place for people who understand how bad shit can get. That's what I need when I'm desperate.
 
To vent when I'm pissed, share my drug addled ramblings and frustrations, then when I come out of all of it alive....prove that it's possible to be beaten down and still survive.
 
why? because i am a massive drug addict. Here I can at least kinda relate to some people. I have been on bluelight since 2000'ish and well I have this strange habitual habit where I love to hear about ppl trying to kick and everything that goes along with it. Twisted? yeah probably. but I am not sticking my self with needles and feeling some half ass rush. Instead I am sober, yet not happy fully but totally happy compared to my sci-fi dope daze. What I need is a g/f and the thing is I can have one with the flick of my fingers but I hesitate and tell myself she isn't worth it. Sometimes I wish someone would punch me in the face. Except I rarely hang out with any of my old friends that would do it if I said, punch me. They are all way out there, probably on there 3rd 8 ball tweaked. I hate that shit. I loved opiates, all my good friends that shared my love are dead or in jail. I should buy a bag of weed yet I dont because it has been fucking up my head, and school with all that memorization shit sucks. Truthfully I love reefer, always have. Instead lately I go out and drink beer and hate myself in the morning. When I pick up weed, which man the green buds around here are always 1-2 hits quitter for me. I smoke daily inside and out stoned and draggin. I cant just puff at 4am when I cant sleep, if I have it I am smoking. That is what bugs me. What I need is to get some confidence. :) Man I wish I wouldnt have fucked up my life.

I do miss the lifestyle SOOOOOOOO fucking much and somedays I really dont know. I had MASSIVE urges today to shoot some coke. Yet I didnt it is fucking hard to shake those thoughts so instead I go get drunk. Than I am drunk thinking and grabbing young little girls probably 10 yrs younger [or rather gettin grabbed] and I dont know how to deal with it. It sucks, I suck I am beyond normalcy, but that is ok.

peace.
seedless
 
prayersfor.rain said:
I've had my share of mental/substance/whatever issues and I like TDS because I know how some of our other posters feel, some of us have been through similar things, and can trade tips on coping/getting through things. It kinda makes ya not feel so alone in your life problems.
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prayersfor.rain ur statement rings true to my heart!!:)
its nice to have a place like this.

ZAP!!! im so glad to see ur post and that u r still with us! im still on MSN hit me up when ur on as i normaly hide offline.

Bagochina You are one strong individual, not sick not twisted, just doin ur thing which is admirable!!

Very glad 4 the feedback from everyone, i feel kinda giulty as i dump all my shit here in my thread but my user cp usualy guides me exept when i surf TDS.
im fucked but still here to listin, advise and offer kind words to those who need it, just liek me, just like everyone. It's a community im proud to be a part of and i hope the majority of you fell the same.

I look foward to hearing some others tell of why they r here :\
 
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I come to the darkside for support wether it be from other peoples threads or my own and it usually helps to and extent.

This place chills me' out when I find myself in a dark hole.
 
zombiesarepeaceful said:
S.M.F.G - I don't go on MSN anymore, or even remember my password. I have yahoo though, if you do.
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ZAP i donot have that but will obtain and send u a msg so u know its me.

Havokk: can totaly dig that.... It seems we all have something in common.
Which is a positive, We as humans generaly but also as more to the point members of this community need to focus on what makes us the same, Rather than our differences. Makes for better chi all over here, and can help us help each other.
Just another reason i <3 this place, Can be somewhat of a haeven for the troubled no matter what the problem may be.

Bluelighters help other bluelighters/greenlighters.
I bielieve once one comes here they can always find what they are seeking, Even if it takes time:\
 
This thread kinda died in tha ass a few months back.... givin it one bump as im still interested and theres a bunch of new blue/greenlighters out there right now:\

So again folks why r u here? have you lurked? if you have been and left what was ur motivation to come back? If you have always been here whats kept you?

and go!
 
I've been lurking around BL for awhile and recently registered. Used to abuse speed a lot till it gave me a seizure and then I quit cold turkey. It just doesn't hold that much appeal for me anymore. I used to use so I would have more energy and my entire day would just be better, but if it's gonna do shit like give me seizures it's clearly not gonna make my life any better, so I made a resolve not to touch it anymore and I've been clean for a little over 8 weeks now.

During the time I was going through withdrawal I'd lurk around TDS to see how others coped and I guess even a little bit of schadenfreude because most people had it way worse than me when it came to addiction. For me, kicking speed was only somewhat harder than quitting smoking, which is still pretty hard but hardly the hell that Heroin and Meth addicts go through when they try to quit.

I now try to give a little back now and then by hanging around TDS and posting words of encouragement to others.
 
^ thats gr8 nibblez, thanks 4 ur imput....
speed sure is a demon i been there b4, it was my daughter that had me make the decision to quit. habitualy neyway. Still cant quit the smokes funny enough theys the hardest 4 me, It's gr8 of u to be hangin here doin what u are hey, among others thats exactly what i fel TDS shuld be about.
 
there is great advice in TDS......had n clue about the loperamide deal. helped tremendously. it also feels good to see people succeeding in their sobriety, which gives the newly sover individual hope.
 
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