runmercirun
Bluelighter
This happened about 6 months ago when I was completely inexperienced with drugs, first hit out of a bong actually. I go to this small party my friend's having, and there’s a good amount of people drinking and chilling to music. My friend C asks if I wanted to try salvia, I didn't really want to but I didn't think I'd ever get the opportunity again...dumb idea on my part, I was literally asking for a bad trip.
C gets all excited because he knew I was a newbie at everything, he thought it would be the right thing to announce to everyone that it was my first time...and naturally everyone was interested in watching how I would react. I got so unbelievably nervous while all these randoms watched C show me how to use a bong. He gets it ready for me and tells me to inhale and hold it for as long as I can. I do so and I don't even remember exhaling.
Everything went black, sort of like when you get up too fast and you get that head rush thing, and the black slowly faded away.. I got really confused because I thought that was it.. Oh boy was I wrong; I was in the same room with the same people but none of them looked familiar, they weren't moving or blinking but I could hear laughing all around me. Something wasn't right, like it felt like there was a strobe light on, my vision was really choppy and fast and everything was really vibrant and edgy, like a cartoon. I looked at C (who I've known for years) and he was looking at me and I felt like I knew him from somewhere but I couldn't recall from where. I was trying to ask for help but my mouth wouldn't move. I felt paralyzed. There were tons of posters on the walls but there was no pictures on them, they were all just plain white squares. I was really confused, like I didn't understand why the posters were blank. The floor was suddenly at a sharp angle but nothing was moving in the direction of the slant, nothing was making sense.
I felt something beside me touch me or hug me or something and that’s when I spun into a completely different world. Whenever that person touched me I felt like a page had flipped and the world was a pop-up book. Like every person had their own page but I didn't like that page, I wanted back on my own page in my own world. I could see this whole persons past and had a whole new collection of memories I never experienced but they were there and something was telling me that this page was now mine and the one I was on before didn't even matter. It was telling me that my whole life was a lie and I was just a hopeless speck in the world that wouldn't ever make a difference. And I was trying to think back to my life, I was trying flip the page back, but I couldn't remember anything about my life. I didn't remember my family or friends or favorite things to do and to flip backward you had to remember, but I couldn‘t.
Then all of a sudden somebody touched the person that had touched me and I had become that persons page. I was two pages away from mine, I felt so lonely and disoriented. I kept thinking that I was gunna be stuck like that forever and that my life never existed and everything that I had ever experienced never happened because I didn't have any proof. I felt my trip had consumed me and that it was actual life...like my trip was REAL life and whatever life was like before it was all a dream. And as more people touched me or the person or whatever, the pages kept flipping. I just decided to give up and let the pages flow, I put my hand to my face and felt that it was soaked with something, and as soon as I felt the wetness I slammed hard on the ground..I completely ate shit, idk if I fell out of the book or what but I know I fell and as soon I hit the ground it turned into the sky and I kept falling, the ground was getting close but I wasn't scared. I actually wanted to die because I didn't want life to be like that forever. But when I landed it was a soft landing, nothing that I had expected. I was laying on cement but it felt soft and it sunk it. Then I saw my phone blinking beside me and FREAKED out with happiness. I was just so happy to see something familiar, something I knew. Then I went to reach for it and when I had it everything unfamiliar started fading away. I was laying in a bed, still feeling weird but I was crying and C was laying next to me and he kept saying it was going to be over soon. And the first understandable thing I managed to get out of my mouth was “What the fuck was that?!” The afterglow was nice though. Gave me time to just calm down and think about what had just happened.
Some dickhead ended up recording a couple minutes of it, and I looked like a total retard I was just sitting there mumbling random things, then I started throwing a fit and crying and he stopped recording. C said when I started crying I kept saying floor. I apparently tried to stand up but ended up falling flat on my face and he tried to pick me up to go lay down but I kept resisting and screaming floor. He had to get someone else to help him get me to lay down in someones bedroom.
The scariest part was this all happened in a matter of like 10 minutes. Most terrifying moment ever, made me look at life in a new way though. Like before I was really selfish and close minded and ever since then I’ve been really open and have come to realize that there’s billions of people out there that have their own stories to tell. They have their own pages.
Let me just say though, that was my last time dealing with salvia. Lol, got my ass kicked. 8)
C gets all excited because he knew I was a newbie at everything, he thought it would be the right thing to announce to everyone that it was my first time...and naturally everyone was interested in watching how I would react. I got so unbelievably nervous while all these randoms watched C show me how to use a bong. He gets it ready for me and tells me to inhale and hold it for as long as I can. I do so and I don't even remember exhaling.
Everything went black, sort of like when you get up too fast and you get that head rush thing, and the black slowly faded away.. I got really confused because I thought that was it.. Oh boy was I wrong; I was in the same room with the same people but none of them looked familiar, they weren't moving or blinking but I could hear laughing all around me. Something wasn't right, like it felt like there was a strobe light on, my vision was really choppy and fast and everything was really vibrant and edgy, like a cartoon. I looked at C (who I've known for years) and he was looking at me and I felt like I knew him from somewhere but I couldn't recall from where. I was trying to ask for help but my mouth wouldn't move. I felt paralyzed. There were tons of posters on the walls but there was no pictures on them, they were all just plain white squares. I was really confused, like I didn't understand why the posters were blank. The floor was suddenly at a sharp angle but nothing was moving in the direction of the slant, nothing was making sense.
I felt something beside me touch me or hug me or something and that’s when I spun into a completely different world. Whenever that person touched me I felt like a page had flipped and the world was a pop-up book. Like every person had their own page but I didn't like that page, I wanted back on my own page in my own world. I could see this whole persons past and had a whole new collection of memories I never experienced but they were there and something was telling me that this page was now mine and the one I was on before didn't even matter. It was telling me that my whole life was a lie and I was just a hopeless speck in the world that wouldn't ever make a difference. And I was trying to think back to my life, I was trying flip the page back, but I couldn't remember anything about my life. I didn't remember my family or friends or favorite things to do and to flip backward you had to remember, but I couldn‘t.
Then all of a sudden somebody touched the person that had touched me and I had become that persons page. I was two pages away from mine, I felt so lonely and disoriented. I kept thinking that I was gunna be stuck like that forever and that my life never existed and everything that I had ever experienced never happened because I didn't have any proof. I felt my trip had consumed me and that it was actual life...like my trip was REAL life and whatever life was like before it was all a dream. And as more people touched me or the person or whatever, the pages kept flipping. I just decided to give up and let the pages flow, I put my hand to my face and felt that it was soaked with something, and as soon as I felt the wetness I slammed hard on the ground..I completely ate shit, idk if I fell out of the book or what but I know I fell and as soon I hit the ground it turned into the sky and I kept falling, the ground was getting close but I wasn't scared. I actually wanted to die because I didn't want life to be like that forever. But when I landed it was a soft landing, nothing that I had expected. I was laying on cement but it felt soft and it sunk it. Then I saw my phone blinking beside me and FREAKED out with happiness. I was just so happy to see something familiar, something I knew. Then I went to reach for it and when I had it everything unfamiliar started fading away. I was laying in a bed, still feeling weird but I was crying and C was laying next to me and he kept saying it was going to be over soon. And the first understandable thing I managed to get out of my mouth was “What the fuck was that?!” The afterglow was nice though. Gave me time to just calm down and think about what had just happened.
Some dickhead ended up recording a couple minutes of it, and I looked like a total retard I was just sitting there mumbling random things, then I started throwing a fit and crying and he stopped recording. C said when I started crying I kept saying floor. I apparently tried to stand up but ended up falling flat on my face and he tried to pick me up to go lay down but I kept resisting and screaming floor. He had to get someone else to help him get me to lay down in someones bedroom.
The scariest part was this all happened in a matter of like 10 minutes. Most terrifying moment ever, made me look at life in a new way though. Like before I was really selfish and close minded and ever since then I’ve been really open and have come to realize that there’s billions of people out there that have their own stories to tell. They have their own pages.
Let me just say though, that was my last time dealing with salvia. Lol, got my ass kicked. 8)
