i've been pretty down and out lately, suicide has crossed my mind but it's never something i would act on. my buddy and i were havin a pretty deep conversation and he looked me square in the eyes and said, "dude, life is for livin".....and that is so fucking true. since then, i've been trying to get back to the things that make me happy. i'm taking a trip to the mountains this weekend, gonna spend some time trout fishing and playing in the river. next weekend i've got a couple of shows to see and i'm paying much closer attention to the people i love.
yup, life is for living man. typically when we get depressed we want to lock oursevles up and become distant from all of the things that can make us happy. the world is full of bullshit....hell, i try not to even watch the news anymore. BUT, there are wonderful things out there, try to immerse yourself in those things. shit, i found myself watching 2 squirells play last night for about 15 minutes and it made me feel really peaceful and happy.
so whether it's squirells, a sunset, a great song, a trout stream, a random stranger or an ice cold beer there are plenty of things out there that make me want to ride this storm to the bitter end. you never can tell, something positive might happen to you in the next 5 minutes that will make you realize "life really is for living". BUT, you have to drag your ass up and live before or you'll just fizzle out.