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What do you hate the most about depression?

Jabberwocky

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For me it would be:

1) It makes me slip into a self destructive state

2) Makes me lose focus of what I am able to achieve

3) Makes me not care about what I am capable of doing or achieving

4) Although wanting to have things etc the comprehension is not there to go off and achieve it even though I am possibly capable of it.

5) Makes me lie to family and myself
 
^ All of the above are the same for me when I'm in a depressive episode, the other thing I hate is when people who don't know about my illness or sometimes even those who do think that I'm just lazy because I can't do anything because I'm crippled by the pain and just wanting to kill myself... and another thing I can't stand is when people just say to 'get over it' or 'think positively' or 'be happy'... fuck that annoys me and sometimes I just can't keep talking about it, don't want to talk about because it hurts too much.
 
^^ Word...

Just like today at work a fellow workmate tells me: "think positively". And im like (talking to myself) "DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW YOU JOLLY MUTHAFUCKER"...

Well anyways, breakfast...
 
My most-hated aspect of depression is the insidious lack of self-confidence and self-belief that it brings, and the self-loathing that follows as a result.
 
I'd say probably how it goes hand-in-hand with anxiety for me. Always seems to be like a chicken/egg thing when it hits hard, and bad anxiety is truly horrible. Not saying that depression isn't horrible as well, but it's the anxiety, or escaping such through any means, that makes me make the most destructive choices (drug use, etc.).
 
You guys pretty much covered it for me, I hate how it makes me lazy, self destructive, lose sight of my goals and makes me feel like they're worthless. Then when I come out of it I feel almost guilty for wasting all that time, missing opportunities that may have come up when I was too depressed to leave the house or pick up the phone. Depression runs in my family so I usually can be pretty up front with my family when I'm going through a bad episode, even when it comes to drugs. I'm lucky in that sense.

One of the things I hate the most about depression is when you're depressed, like clinically depressed, and people who don't understand just tell you to "cheer up" or "snap out of it", I swear those people have no idea what it feels like to be that far down, I guess they're lucky and I should be more understanding towards them but it's hard sometimes. I'm not a violent person but sometimes I just want to punch those people in the face.
 
wow reading all the responses makes me go all teary eyed :(. No one should have to live like this, I wouldnt even wish this on my worse enemy

I pretty much experience what everone has already said although it mightnt be all at the same time.

I'd like to add lack of energy/motivation really bugs me feeling like a zombie all the time
 
The constant want to isolate myself from everyone just to who gives enough of a shit to try to contact me.
 
Waking up in the morning and wishing you would drop dead when you lay back down.
Extreme antisocial and guilty behavior.
Total lack of motivation, cant even leave the house.
Crying for no good reason at all.
Going into depressive episodes, sometimes at the drop of a hat.
Extreme self destructive thinking, smoking to "try and get cancer".
Cutting, when you feel like nothing will ever get better.
Shy behavior, to the point where I cannot talk to a girl, and I avoid my close friends...

God theres so many others I could go on all day:\
 
Romie1092 said:
wow reading all the responses makes me go all teary eyed :(. No one should have to live like this, I wouldnt even wish this on my worse enemy
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I agree wholeheartedly mate. It's so awful isn't it :(

Much love and strength to all who experience depression <3
 
I would say the thing I hated the most when I used to have depression was that I never knew why I was depressed. I had nothing to be depressed about! I hated the hopeless feeling that I felt, that I couldn't figure it out, and was a prisoner to this disease.
 
I hate crying, being self destructive, hating people for no reason, hating myself for no reason, hating the things I do, just in general looking down on myself. I've cried for the first time in awhile today at least 3 or 4 times. The pain.:\
 
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