Bob Loblaw
Bluelight Crew
Thanks for the birthday wishes 
Shot some meth, now suboxone
Shot some meth, now suboxone
How High Are You? v. Still high from Bob Loblaw's and leftwing's birthday bash!
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Mystery Brew
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Thanks for the birthday wishes
Shot some meth, now suboxone
You would. :D no wonder your up. Get ready for clash landing?
P.S. Now I understand what your saying about meph and the rig
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Bob Loblaw
Bluelight Crew
lolz 
Hell yeah, bro. Trying to soften it a bit.
Yeah, man, it's just not worth it IMO :/
Hell yeah, bro. Trying to soften it a bit.
Yeah, man, it's just not worth it IMO :/
Tryptamine*Dreamer
Ex-Bluelighter
My trip is starting to wind down, but I still feel wonderful.
I've decided to go back to being a vegetarian. I just think it is wrong to kill other animals for food. They have emotions and a will to live and be free just as we do. I guess I stopped giving a fuck when the depression got bad. I think many of you would go vegetarian or at least feel guilty if you knew the horrific conditions the animals in those factory farms are forced to endure. They are unable to do most of their natural behaviors. And the chickens you get your eggs from live their entire lives in a cage so small that they can't even stretch their wings, unless you choose to buy free range eggs. The only eggs I will use are from the chickens I/my mom raise. They have an area bigger than our house to live in and have an enriched environment to live in. I don't have to feel any guilt using their eggs because they are given a good life.
I hope someday that I can let my macaw fly. I know people with parrots that are allowed to fly and they always come back to their human friend, I don't know if I'll ever be able to do this as my macaw is 17 years old and doesn't know how to fly. It was kept in a cage too small for a macaw for the first 13 years of its life. I leave it out of the cage, (which is much bigger than the one it came with) nearly all the time with it only going in when it wants to. It's free to go from its room to my room, climbing curtains, playing in the floor with its toys and paper, and when I'm not too busy, playing with me or getting its head rubbed by me. It has a much better life than it used to have, but I want it to be able to fly. I am eventually going to have the bird's entire room filled with things for it to climb on and play with and make sure it is a completely safe environment for a macaw,
I don't know why I am talking about becoming vegetarian and my ideas for my bird. Maybe because it was the psychedelic experience that caused it.
I've been off of my SSRI for 3 days. In 3 or 4 days I am going to trip on 1.2g of DXM. I'll probably take 2mg of clonidine with it to ensure that my blood pressure doesn't rise. On my last DXM trip my blood pressure rose to 174/102 from its normal of 135-145/85-95, and it could have been higher at other times. I checked it 3 times and that was the highest reading. It wasn't easy to do on the 3rd plateau. 174/102 is getting close to the danger level. systolic over 180 is a hypertensive crisis. Hard to believe that my blood pressure was running 190-200/110-120 for who knows how long before I got put on meds. It was only discovered when I mixed 1.8g DXM and lots of ephedra(a terrible idea to mix it with any stimulant) and my blood pressure shot up to 300/200 and blood vessels in my retina started to bleed and I was having trouble breathing. They gave me a fast acting med to bring it down, about 60 points. I don't remember much of what was really happening, I was tripping my ass off in a completely different world. When I regained my ability to comprehend what was happening, right about when they asked me questions about end of life and if I wanted a priest to give me last rights or something like that, I noticed my blood pressure 220 over something but I thought the 220 was my heart rate. It was down to like 205/114 when I realized what those numbers meant. I was freaked out both times. Afraid I'd have a stroke or heart attack. They never got my BP below 175 over something. That was a very memorable trip, something I could never forget. I'm sure the extreme BP elevation was more from the large dose of ephedra+caffeine pills than the DXM, but I still worry about what DXM will do to my blood pressure. It shouldn't be an issue as I have clonidine pills to bring it down if needed.
I'm worried about my niece. She has been having bad panic attacks like I do, only more often. She looks sad and depressed. And this was before something very bad was done to her. I think she is probably moderately or severely depressed. She has dropped half of her college classes and quit her job. She has crying spells that just come out of the blue. Her mother doesn't want to believe that she has problems and is against the use of any antidepressants, viewing them as drugs of abuse. Maybe I am wrong. Even if she is not seriously depressed, she needs to seek treatment for her panic attacks. She has recently had multiple extremely painful surgeries in her mouth and throat and the meds(I guess sedatives and high doses of morphine) had her hallucinating aliens and thinking the aliens were out to get her. Maybe she could have developed something like PTSD from all the bad experiences she has had over the last year. I can't mention the worst because of the possibility that my identity is found out and then it would be exposed. I and my mom think she should see a psychiatrist but her mom is dead set against it. She is 18 so she could make the choice herself but she still lives with her mom and could be kicked out of the house if she goes against her mother's wishes. And it's really hard to open up about mental issues due to the stigmatization of people with mental illnesses. I hope I am worrying for nothing.
My brother gets out of prison in a few months. I hope he will come and stay with my mom and I for a while and try to go to college. He is an intelligent person even though he doesn't think so. I'm kind of the same way. At school I was given an IQ test and they said they had never seen a score that high, though I don't know what it was. I still feel unintelligent most of the time. I just don't want to see my brother going back to prison after just a few weeks or months out like he has done 3 times now. He has spent nearly all of his adult life in prison, I really want to see him again and apologize for some of the mean things I did (he has a lot to apologize for to, probably more than I do). I'll never get to see him if he stays behind bars far away from me. We used to be so close and we cared deeply for each other, though he did a couple of dangerous things to me when I was little like trying to get me to rinse my mouth with drain cleaner he put in a cup and told me it was mouthwash, which I did not fall for. He was in big trouble over that. He tried to get me to drink his urine "apple juice" and brush my teeth with bar soap and dish cleaning soap, but I didn't fall for it.
I still feel totally at peace. I added 20mg of hydrocodone + 1g of naproxen as I was getting a bad headache. That cleared it up.
I wish I could feel this peacefulness and inner calmness when sober.
I've decided to go back to being a vegetarian. I just think it is wrong to kill other animals for food. They have emotions and a will to live and be free just as we do. I guess I stopped giving a fuck when the depression got bad. I think many of you would go vegetarian or at least feel guilty if you knew the horrific conditions the animals in those factory farms are forced to endure. They are unable to do most of their natural behaviors. And the chickens you get your eggs from live their entire lives in a cage so small that they can't even stretch their wings, unless you choose to buy free range eggs. The only eggs I will use are from the chickens I/my mom raise. They have an area bigger than our house to live in and have an enriched environment to live in. I don't have to feel any guilt using their eggs because they are given a good life.
I hope someday that I can let my macaw fly. I know people with parrots that are allowed to fly and they always come back to their human friend, I don't know if I'll ever be able to do this as my macaw is 17 years old and doesn't know how to fly. It was kept in a cage too small for a macaw for the first 13 years of its life. I leave it out of the cage, (which is much bigger than the one it came with) nearly all the time with it only going in when it wants to. It's free to go from its room to my room, climbing curtains, playing in the floor with its toys and paper, and when I'm not too busy, playing with me or getting its head rubbed by me. It has a much better life than it used to have, but I want it to be able to fly. I am eventually going to have the bird's entire room filled with things for it to climb on and play with and make sure it is a completely safe environment for a macaw,
I don't know why I am talking about becoming vegetarian and my ideas for my bird. Maybe because it was the psychedelic experience that caused it.
I've been off of my SSRI for 3 days. In 3 or 4 days I am going to trip on 1.2g of DXM. I'll probably take 2mg of clonidine with it to ensure that my blood pressure doesn't rise. On my last DXM trip my blood pressure rose to 174/102 from its normal of 135-145/85-95, and it could have been higher at other times. I checked it 3 times and that was the highest reading. It wasn't easy to do on the 3rd plateau. 174/102 is getting close to the danger level. systolic over 180 is a hypertensive crisis. Hard to believe that my blood pressure was running 190-200/110-120 for who knows how long before I got put on meds. It was only discovered when I mixed 1.8g DXM and lots of ephedra(a terrible idea to mix it with any stimulant) and my blood pressure shot up to 300/200 and blood vessels in my retina started to bleed and I was having trouble breathing. They gave me a fast acting med to bring it down, about 60 points. I don't remember much of what was really happening, I was tripping my ass off in a completely different world. When I regained my ability to comprehend what was happening, right about when they asked me questions about end of life and if I wanted a priest to give me last rights or something like that, I noticed my blood pressure 220 over something but I thought the 220 was my heart rate. It was down to like 205/114 when I realized what those numbers meant. I was freaked out both times. Afraid I'd have a stroke or heart attack. They never got my BP below 175 over something. That was a very memorable trip, something I could never forget. I'm sure the extreme BP elevation was more from the large dose of ephedra+caffeine pills than the DXM, but I still worry about what DXM will do to my blood pressure. It shouldn't be an issue as I have clonidine pills to bring it down if needed.
I'm worried about my niece. She has been having bad panic attacks like I do, only more often. She looks sad and depressed. And this was before something very bad was done to her. I think she is probably moderately or severely depressed. She has dropped half of her college classes and quit her job. She has crying spells that just come out of the blue. Her mother doesn't want to believe that she has problems and is against the use of any antidepressants, viewing them as drugs of abuse. Maybe I am wrong. Even if she is not seriously depressed, she needs to seek treatment for her panic attacks. She has recently had multiple extremely painful surgeries in her mouth and throat and the meds(I guess sedatives and high doses of morphine) had her hallucinating aliens and thinking the aliens were out to get her. Maybe she could have developed something like PTSD from all the bad experiences she has had over the last year. I can't mention the worst because of the possibility that my identity is found out and then it would be exposed. I and my mom think she should see a psychiatrist but her mom is dead set against it. She is 18 so she could make the choice herself but she still lives with her mom and could be kicked out of the house if she goes against her mother's wishes. And it's really hard to open up about mental issues due to the stigmatization of people with mental illnesses. I hope I am worrying for nothing.
My brother gets out of prison in a few months. I hope he will come and stay with my mom and I for a while and try to go to college. He is an intelligent person even though he doesn't think so. I'm kind of the same way. At school I was given an IQ test and they said they had never seen a score that high, though I don't know what it was. I still feel unintelligent most of the time. I just don't want to see my brother going back to prison after just a few weeks or months out like he has done 3 times now. He has spent nearly all of his adult life in prison, I really want to see him again and apologize for some of the mean things I did (he has a lot to apologize for to, probably more than I do). I'll never get to see him if he stays behind bars far away from me. We used to be so close and we cared deeply for each other, though he did a couple of dangerous things to me when I was little like trying to get me to rinse my mouth with drain cleaner he put in a cup and told me it was mouthwash, which I did not fall for. He was in big trouble over that. He tried to get me to drink his urine "apple juice" and brush my teeth with bar soap and dish cleaning soap, but I didn't fall for it.
I still feel totally at peace. I added 20mg of hydrocodone + 1g of naproxen as I was getting a bad headache. That cleared it up.
I wish I could feel this peacefulness and inner calmness when sober.
Mystery Brew
Bluelighter
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lolz
Hell yeah, bro. Trying to soften it a bit.
Yeah, man, it's just not worth it IMO :/
Welcome to my 20 minute zing.
Trying to soften it with suboxone even helping for you? A bless in disguise of a orange lemon-lime flavored hexagon. Brings relief even when on daily suprisingly. Even though now I got invisible force field from getting dope to tickle my brain
Thank god meph crash is not that bad. Not to keen on stims.
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yucatanboy2
Bluelighter
Now I'm good. More drinks, a few bowls, and some kava.
Sleep soon
Sleep soon
dr-ripple
Bluelighter
Ahhh the beauty of the green . . dancing
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Thanks for the birthday wishes
Shot some meth, now suboxone
found that's quite a nice combo:D, especially the bupe timed right on the come down period
i'm stoned as a mofo.
needing it from wd's after this birthday bash bender i've been having, now getting back to stability. didn't wake up in a good way this morning with those dreadd hot/cold flushes and breakdancing in bed
emingos
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(09:41 am) wake & bake 0.3g hash joint.
(09:45 am) 1mg clonazepam.
(11:00 am) 0.3g hash joint.
(02:31 pm) 1mg clonazepam and a joint with some friends.
(03:59 pm) 7.5mg oxazepam and 0.5mg alprazolam.
(03:59 pm) 0.4g mixed hash joint.
(05:14 pm) 7.5mg oxazepam.
(05:20 pm) 0.3g nice bubble hash joint.
- and more to come i bet! *edit*
Good morning to you all
(09:45 am) 1mg clonazepam.
(11:00 am) 0.3g hash joint.
(02:31 pm) 1mg clonazepam and a joint with some friends.
(03:59 pm) 7.5mg oxazepam and 0.5mg alprazolam.
(03:59 pm) 0.4g mixed hash joint.
(05:14 pm) 7.5mg oxazepam.
(05:20 pm) 0.3g nice bubble hash joint.
- and more to come i bet! *edit*
Good morning to you all
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Morning emingos
Am getting there, slowly but surely.
Am getting there, slowly but surely.
phatass
Bluelighter
nodddding, bupe and hydroxyzine and valium
After two nice j's I feel so warm and comfy with a great head high.
Rexeh
Bluelighter
Coming down from 600 mg DXM HBr (a certain brand which is very popular here for some reason... LOL ).
those were 8 very intense hours at 3rd plateau... listening to the song: Stratovarius - Dreamspace -- describes my experience the best way
Time to do some thinking... aaahhhh metaphysics
-- Peace o/
).those were 8 very intense hours at 3rd plateau... listening to the song: Stratovarius - Dreamspace -- describes my experience the best way
Time to do some thinking... aaahhhh metaphysics
-- Peace o/
20mg Zolpidem in 5mg tabs (prescribed) just wish they were stronger. Only received 14 as well, which will prob be all gone tonight anyway.
Had two j's before the Zolp's so should be an interesting night...
**Swallowed another four 5mg's** 19.06
Had two j's before the Zolp's so should be an interesting night...
**Swallowed another four 5mg's** 19.06
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Thought so leiphos just be at a mate's house so i'll hide my phone haha.
Ahh mellowing out now.
Ahh mellowing out now.
jackie jones
Bluelight Crew
300mg Tramadol and a joint.
Would love to get more Trams in.
Have a nice cup of Twinnings Early Breakfast and ahhhhhh tastes so nice.
Have a nice cup of Twinnings Early Breakfast and ahhhhhh tastes so nice.
i've railed 4 or 5 of the 12.5mg Ambien CRs over the last 1 1/2 hours. time for another half, then some adderall to wake up & party with some girl i never met. should be interesting anyway
wish i had some fucking weed instead of booze
wish i had some fucking weed instead of booze
