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The Big & Dandy Ego Death Thread

True, I've NEVER taken a psychedelic drug and not known who I was. That's one of the fundamental properties of psychedelics. You ALWAYS know who you are not matter how intense the trip is. That's why drugs like LSD and Psilocybin could be used in a medical context whereas deleriants such as Datura can't.

And if people are saying it's a state where they don't know who they are then I'm calling bullshit on that for sure - psychedelics simply don't have that effect. That's why Hoffman thought LSD could be so valuable - because you always know who you are when under it's influence.

ALWAYS knowing who you are no matter how intense the trip is, is definitely not a fundamental property of psychedelics. In fact, the more intense the trip, the more the sense of self begins to disintegrate. LSD and psylocibin are generally used therapeutically in doses lower than ones where you experience full ego dissolution. LSD can be valuable in doses where you always know who you are, but many people can attest that it is also very valuable in doses where you experience full ego-loss. If a therapist wants to be able to communicate with their patient while they are under the influence of LSD, they will give them a lower dose. For personal insight, and spiritual/philosophical purposes, doses high enough to experience ego-loss can be very valuable and therapeutic as well.

Ego-death is not an isolated incident. The Psychedelic Experience by Timothy Leary is a re-written version of the Tibetan Book of the Dead which goes into detail about ego-death. I believe Leary was the one who coined the term "ego-death". Many people experience this phenomena, so call bullshit all you want. If you actually research the phenomena you will realize that many people experience it, and then if you still choose to believe that it's not true, faced with countless evidence of hundreds of accounts of people saying they experienced it, then that's your prerogative.
 
My ego melted and it never came back

I am a new person

Oh, who's speaking then?

I'd like to address some potential semantic problems. When ego dies, and individuated 'I' is no more, one rests as pure being beyond the restrictions of space and time. Even in that state, I AM. True Self is a formless unmanifest non-thing. This can be known and experienced directly by being IT. So even there I AM. When self dies one comes to know Self.
 
ALWAYS knowing who you are no matter how intense the trip is, is definitely not a fundamental property of psychedelics. In fact, the more intense the trip, the more the sense of self begins to disintegrate.

No, I've taken some staggering doses of LSD and Psilocybin. At no time did I now know who I was. Sure, I wouldn't like to try driving a car on the motorway while I was peaking on LSD but I've certainly never "forgotten" who I am. If I saw a fire starting then I'd be perfectly aware enough to realise it needed to be put out. Are you saying you're completely helpless when you are tripping?

The Psychedelic Experience by Timothy Leary is a re-written version of the Tibetan Book of the Dead which goes into detail about ego-death. I believe Leary was the one who coined the term "ego-death". Many people experience this phenomena, so call bullshit all you want. If you actually research the phenomena you will realize that many people experience it, and then if you still choose to believe that it's not true, faced with countless evidence of hundreds of accounts of people saying they experienced it, then that's your prerogative.

For a start the psychedelic experience isn't a re-written version of the Tibetan Book of the dead. Get both books - they have very little in common. Certain bits of Leary's book are influenced by ideas in the Tibetan book of the dead. Nothing more than that.

Secondly the term "ego" itself is an idea of Freuds that is now utterly discredited. So you're talking about the "death" of something that doesn't actually exist.

Thirdly, the number of people who claim "ego-death" - do you have any idea what they actually mean? I think most people just use the term to describe an intense trip.
 
DelsydIn that state i had no awareness of myself as Delsyd. All that existed was existance, with no ego to filter it and add biases.

If you are aware of yourself i dont think that is really ego-loss.
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So do you think there's any difference between psychedelics and deleriants? I'm sure deleriants reduce you to a state of not knowing who you are but I've never found psychedelics do.
 
Ego is the individuated self. Not a discredited thing at all. People like to bash Freud for a multitude of reasons (myself included), but the term Ego has been adopted for this use by a much larger segment of people than Freudian psychologists.

Thirdly, the number of people who claim "ego-death" - do you have any idea what they actually mean? I think most people just use the term to describe an intense trip.

This is a fair criticism. I think a lot of people have this confusion. However, I don't think that confusion is in this instance. And, I have to add a +1 to the Ismene is confused and hasn't experienced Ego-loss column.
 
Ego is the individuated self. Not a discredited thing at all. People like to bash Freud for a multitude of reasons (myself included), but the term Ego has been adopted for this use by a much larger segment of people than Freudian psychologists.

People who have no idea what the term means?

This is a fair criticism. I think a lot of people have this confusion. However, I don't think that confusion is in this instance. And, I have to add a +1 to the Ismene is confused and hasn't experienced Ego-loss column

If by "ego-loss" you mean you couldn't tell someone your name when you were tripping or if there was a fire you'd just lay there and burn then I've never experienced ego-loss. If by "ego-loss" you mean a strong trip then I've had plenty of strong trips.
 
I call bullshit to your calling bullshit then...in my experience at least psychedelics are most definitely capable of having that effect.

And no losing my credit cards and money etc. would not bother me in the least while in that state...Though they would simply have to be removed from my pockets as I would not realize what a person is or what asking me for something is...much less what giving something to someone is.

Do you have any awareness of what's around you? Or if there was a fire in the house would you just lay there and burn?

And bullshit can only be called once I'm afraid...
 
Do you have any awareness of what's around you? Or if there was a fire in the house would you just lay there and burn?

For me when it gets that deep I have no awareness of what's around me, I accidently once took a stupidly high dose of 2c-t-7 because my scales were broke and I didn't realise. 20 hours later I remember starting to come down, luckily my parents know about my drug use and my girlfriend explained that it was fine even though I was walking around the house doing random things like walking into the kitchen just putting my head under the tap then splashing water everywhere and taking a bite out of an apple then just throwing it across the floor but didn't even know I was doing it.

Interesting question though if there was a fire I don't know if you'd just stay there or not.
 
People who have no idea what the term means?

I think it's you who doesn't understand the term, other than it's historical origin. That's OK though, it's a pretty common misunderstanding.

If by "ego-loss" you mean you couldn't tell someone your name when you were tripping or if there was a fire you'd just lay there and burn then I've never experienced ego-loss. If by "ego-loss" you mean a strong trip then I've had plenty of strong trips.

It's neither. Ego-loss isn't forgetting who you are. That's but an aspect. Ego-loss means to not manifest as an individuated being. To exist outside of time and space as PURE BEING. This can sometimes be catalyzed by psychedelics. It can also happen through practice and intention. Either way your conception of what we're referring to is off based.
 
For me when it gets that deep I have no awareness of what's around me, I accidently once took a stupidly high dose of 2c-t-7 because my scales were broke

Yeah - if it's something like an overdose of 2ct7 then I can understand you being non-responsive to stimuli but if it was just a strong dose of acid or mushrooms. If a burglar walked in I think I'd be aware enough to say "What the fuck are you doing in my house?" even on 500 mics.
 
Ego-loss isn't forgetting who you are. That's but an aspect.

Ah, now we're getting somewhere. That's not what people have been saying earlier on this page. They've been saying they have no awareness of who they are. It sounds like you have a different understanding of the term ego-loss than they do.

Are you saying if you were on a strong trip and someone asked you who you were you'd be able to answer them? Or not?
 
Yeah I definitely would be able to. Full disclosure, I actually have never experienced ego-loss by way of drugs, but have experienced it through other means. Though, I have taken some ridiculous doses in the past.

I don't think we have differing conceptions of ego-loss so much. I fully agree with this explanation given by delsyd.

Myself and many others have had experiences where all we know as "I" disolved and was merged with the Everything, the One.
In that state i had no awareness of myself as Delsyd. All that existed was existance, with no ego to filter it and add biases.
 
I don't think we have differing conceptions of ego-loss so much.

Well there's obviously a problem as just on this page we've got at least 4 different claims as to what it is. You say you retain some idea of who you are while others say:

If they were capable of talking to another person, I would imagine they hadn't fully experienced it.

I would not realize what a person is or what asking me for something is...much less what giving something to someone is.

the more intense the trip, the more the sense of self begins to disintegrate


So even among people who say they've experienced "ego-death" there's no consensus of what "ego-death" actually is.

Are you saying it's that feeling of being at one with nature? I've experienced that plenty of times but is that anything to do with the ego? I've always been perfectly aware of who I am, where I am and that I'm tripping while at the same time feeling at one with nature.
 
When refering to the Ego in Ego death we arent talking about the Freudian Ego.

It more the eastern view of ego as being
wiki:
In spirituality, and especially nondual, mystical and eastern meditative traditions, the human being is often conceived as being in the illusion of individual existence, and separated from other aspects of creation. This "sense of doership" or sense of individual existence is that part which believes it is the human being, and believes it must fight for itself in the world, is ultimately unaware and unconscious of its own true nature. The ego is often associated with mind and the sense of time, which compulsively thinks in order to be assured of its future existence, rather than simply knowing its own self and the present

The spiritual goal of many traditions involves the dissolving of the ego,[citation needed] allowing self-knowledge of one's own true nature to become experienced and enacted in the world. This is variously known as Enlightenment, Nirvana, Presence, and the "Here and Now".

It is that ego that i refer to when speaking of ego death.
And i have, and i know others have expeienced the dissolution, or death of that ego on psychedelic trips.
Some may call it a ++++

Although higher doses are more likely to facilitate this effect because it is usually harder to fight the ego death experience on higher doses. Your grip on the ego is looser.
Higher doses are not neccesary though and the experience could be had on any dose and even with out the aid of psychedelics.
 
ive had something similar to ego death from magic mushrooms before. i was no longer "me"

"i" was in a black void, with no sense of purpose, no emotions, nothing

infact its pretty fucking impossible to explain
 
Well there's obviously a problem as just on this page we've got at least 4 different claims as to what it is. You say you retain some idea of who you are while others say:

If they were capable of talking to another person, I would imagine they hadn't fully experienced it.

Let me be clear, you asked me if I would be able to talk to someone during the middle of an intense trip. The answer to that is yes. During ego disolution, absolutely not. I think with this cleared up there is no contradiction in the examples given.

Ego is the part that would respond and talk. There is no ego present. There is no manifest reality, there is no time, there is no space, there is no perspective, there is no thing. It is so beyond the ability of mind to conceive that every thing I'm saying is a lie. It is ABSOLUTE TRUTH. I (ego) simply sputter relativistic truths that hopefully point you to it.

the more intense the trip, the more the sense of self begins to disintegrate[/I]

I tend to agree with this statement.

So even among people who say they've experienced "ego-death" there's no consensus of what "ego-death" actually is.

I don't think this is true. Anyone who's experienced Formless Reality will come to agree with each other. It seems clear to me that several people up in here have experienced this. And that's FUCKING WONDERFUL. PRAISE BE.

Are you saying it's that feeling of being at one with nature? I've experienced that plenty of times but is that anything to do with the ego?

That's not ego death, no. It is the ego that feels one with nature.

I've always been perfectly aware of who I am, where I am and that I'm tripping while at the same time feeling at one with nature.

You're 'I' is ego. That's literally what it means. Every bit of YOU must be subsumed by Absolute Reality for ego death to occur. Feeling 'One with Nature' is a pale shadow of what we're describing.

Delysd is right on with his description.
 
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For a start the psychedelic experience isn't a re-written version of the Tibetan Book of the dead. Get both books - they have very little in common. Certain bits of Leary's book are influenced by ideas in the Tibetan book of the dead. Nothing more than that.

You seem to be getting yourself caught in subjective linguistic arguments. The subtitle of the book is "A Manual Based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead." The Psychedelic Experience is based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead, so maybe re-written is not the most accurate word, but that has little to do with what I was trying to say.

You seem to be using subjective linguistic interpretation to discredit what I said that has little do with the topic at hand. Whether the Psychedelic Experience has ANYthing to do with the Tibetan Book of the Dead, I was simply giving an example where an early use of the term "ego-death" is used. I was trying to illustrate that the concept of ego-death is relatively widespread, and shamanic death is a theme in more traditional indigenous use of mind altering substances. The concept of ego-death is not restricted and therefore can not be discredited.

No, I've taken some staggering doses of LSD and Psilocybin. At no time did I now know who I was. Sure, I wouldn't like to try driving a car on the motorway while I was peaking on LSD but I've certainly never "forgotten" who I am. If I saw a fire starting then I'd be perfectly aware enough to realise it needed to be put out. Are you saying you're completely helpless when you are tripping?

Just because you have taken staggering doses of LSD and psylocibin doses does not mean that ego-death is not a fundamental aspect of high dose psychedelics for many people. You seem to be arguing for the sake of arguing, as ego-death is a completely subjective experience and just because you have never experienced the phenomena does not mean that it isn't relevant. This is the same argument as trying to convince someone that had a religious experience that it was just in their head. You can't tell people what they subjectively experienced, especially if you've never experienced it. To give a broader reflection of the type of argument you are caught within and to use an example within our physical reality, I'm sure you've never been to the moon, but just because you've never been doesn't mean that the experience of looking at the Earth from the moon doesn't exist.

With high enough doses, you can't really function on a level where you can move around and you are somewhat helpless. That is why many people suggest having a sitter when doing high dose psychedelics. Possibly, if faced with the danger of a fire, adrenaline may snap you out of the experience, just as adrenaline has allowed people to lift cars to save people under such circumstances.

If you take a high enough dose of LSD, during the peak you're entire field of vision can become permeated with flowing, intricate patterning, and distinguishing a fire would be difficult.

Secondly the term "ego" itself is an idea of Freuds that is now utterly discredited. So you're talking about the "death" of something that doesn't actually exist.

The idea of the ego is not discredited, the fact that people experience ego-death and often feel their identity has been stripped bare to consciously reveal the collective unconscious only credits the Jungian and Freudian concepts of the psyche. I'm not a psychologist, and many people could elaborate much further on this, but the ego is the outer shell of you're psyche that filters your instincts and conditions them in a way that you act socially acceptable, while still maintaining your instinctual independence. It is the part of the psyche most concerned with self-perception and selfish qualities. It is where one is concerned with their identity and desires and is the part of the consciousness that people experience while they are awake, as it is the most outer shell of the psyche. When you strip your identity you are left as a "wildflower", simply observing, not identifying yourself with the "I", and the concept of where your sense of identity ends and where the external world begins is completely dissolved.

For me, ego-death can be related to the concept of becoming one with the universe, al though I've experienced this uniting without ego-death. Not that the ego becomes one with the universe, but when you are completely stripped of the self, after reflecting on the experience it appears that your ego actually filters the infinite from your perspective. In this respect, all of reality is "one" and without the ego to filter this, you become integrated into the "oneness" of reality. People often feel like they become "one" with the universe, as they feel the boundaries of where their ego ends and the external world begin to disintegrate. Once the ego has completely dissolved it is difficult to think in terms such as "one". It is impossible to describe perfectly, as if you have never experienced it you have no perspective as to what it means to lose identity with the self. You have never experienced anything other than the "I" so how are you supposed to understand anything other than that without your total volition?

Thirdly, the number of people who claim "ego-death" - do you have any idea what they actually mean? I think most people just use the term to describe an intense trip.

Ego dissolution is the disintegration of the concept of the self. As I said earlier, you can't describe what ego dissolution is to someone that has never experienced anything other than their ego. Like describing colour to a blind man, you can only attempt to understand the concept with an open mind. As you show no sign of listening to our discussion of ego-death with an open mind, I'm afraid you already decided that it doesn't exist and we can never explain something abstract to someone who has already decided that they know it is not true.

You can't discredit people's subjective experiences that you yourself have never experienced or have little motivation to try and understand. You are in a subjective linguistic loop and you're decision to have a narrow-minded approach to the concept of ego-death will only be a self-fulfilling prophesy as you seem to have already decided that ego-death can't exist.

I would appreciate if you would stop questioning this thread and allow people that have either experienced the phenomena or people that are actually interested in the concept of ego-death to continue their discussion. This is extremely counter-productive behaviour to get into subjective arguments about metaphysical phenomena. Their is little doubt about the experience of ego-death. I suggest researching Buddhism as Buddha became the enlightened one after he initiated nirvana by letting go of all of his desires and experiencing the completely dissolution of his ego. Desire and ego are intrinsically connected, and these concepts are explored intensively in the practice of Buddhism. Do yourself a favour and do a little research on something you so passionately argue against. Ego-death is not strictly confined to psychedelic experiences. As Shakti said, he has never experienced ego-death on drugs, it can be intiated through meditation or any trance-like state.

The metaphysical concept of ego-death is one of the reasons people like to discuss the concept, because it is highly subjective, and discussing all of the comparable and contrasting aspects that we have experienced while experiencing ego-death will provide a more holistic understanding of this completely abstract, subjective and metaphysical phenomena. I appreciate your respect for this thread, and look forward to either you're productive contribution or you're voluntary expulsion.

Thank you
 
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My girlfriend and I were tripping yesterday, and we smoked a joint of some OG Kush + Regs while watching Finding Nemo and suddenly she said, "I'm not alright. I've gone crazy. I'm insane. I think I'm dead. What's going on?!" She was stuck in this rut for about 4-5 hours, and it occurred about 4 hours after the time we dropped the acid. She was absolutely terrified. She couldn't remember who she was and she wound up calling a friend she knew for years to come over to help with the situation. We both took 3 hits of acid, and I was fine. I am a more experienced "tripper" than her, having taking acid (or mushrooms) about 40-50 times and this was her 10th trip or so.

Anyways, I am just curious to find out if this is what is considered "ego death." I experienced something like this on 7-8 hits of acid where the walls in the room melted into the floor and suddenly I felt like I was in another dimension. My body wasn't there and I simply felt like I was an entity. I thought I actually died and was on a transition course to heaven or something of the sort. However, my experience seemed a lot more "fun" than hers. She was TERRIFIED! Crying, and I could tell she was anxious and did not know how to cope with this feeling.

If anyone can tell me if either of these experiences would be considered ego death, I'd appreciate it. From what I have read, it seems so, but some feedback would be helpful.

My girlfriend is a trooper too. After being scared to death for 4 hours, she's still looking forward to tripping again! That's my baby (:
 
That happened to my girlfriend too, except she wasn't even together enough to be scared. She'd have moments of being scared, but they'd pass in a few seconds and she'd be happy again, then back to scared, then amazed, then happy, then sad, then relieved ... all in the span of a minute or two, again and again and again, for about an hour. She told me later that she had very few complete memories of the time she spent in that state, but it was a beautiful experience in its own way and she's not sad that it happened. It freaked the SHIT out of me, unfortunately, but once I realized that she was fine after she came down, I felt a lot better about it.

Ego death can look like any number of things. Sometimes a person just lies down with their eyes closed and smiles. Sometimes they act wild and uncoordinated and spout gibberish until they come down. Sometimes they act relatively normal but stay relatively quiet and only say things that seem self-evident and obvious. The primary underlying truth behind all different variations on ego-death experiences is that experience is happening, and yet there is no coherent entity ascribing the experience to "itself." Smooth and pleasant ego-death experiences are beautiful experiences of being lost in visions and identifying with the universe at large, and usually manifest as the person acting calm and introverted. On the other side of the spectrum are ego-death experiences that are disjointed and chaotic, in which the person no longer has any frame of reference for their sensory experiences but their habitual tendencies to try to connect to the world as a separate individual are still in effect, and so without any capacity to do so, their attempts look like a "freak-out" and they act "crazy" (spouting gibberish, moving around really haphazardly, possibly endangering their physical well-being or acting hostile).

I haven't met too many people who describe "ego death" with those words and didn't say it helped them, though. Even the shitty ego death experiences I've had and heard about have ultimately been helpful in the long run.
 
DelsydIn that state i had no awareness of myself as Delsyd. All that existed was existance, with no ego to filter it and add biases.

If you are aware of yourself i dont think that is really ego-loss.


So do you think there's any difference between psychedelics and deleriants? I'm sure deleriants reduce you to a state of not knowing who you are but I've never found psychedelics do.

My buddy was duped into taking a high dose of datura. He did not experience ego-death. His ego was in a state of delirium to the point where he thought everyone else was acting weird because he was so delirious that his ego convinced him that he, his "self", was not high.

I have never done deliriants, some people may experience ego-death on deliriants, I have never heard, but one can not count out any possibilities associated with something one has never tried. If ego-death is a recurring theme when under the influence of deliriants, that in no way means there is no difference between deliriants and psychedelics. What that implies is that ego-death may be a common theme between all hallucinogens, such as dissociatives, deliriants and psychedelics. Just because deliriants and psychedelics have similarities, such as causing hallucinations, does not mean they are the same thing. Just because there are similarities between any two different things does not mean there is no difference, it just means there are some similarities. I don't think what you are attempting to imply makes sense.

Ego-death can be initiated through meditation as well. This is how it has traditionally been initiated. Based on your logic, deliriants, meditation and psychedelics are no different because they all have similarities.

Birds and snakes both have eyes.
So do you think there's any difference?
 
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