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[tBirdee]

Ive been thinking about that lately as well, I really want to learn how to meditate, but it almost seem like I dont have the time, or I just cant commit myself enough.

 

[NeuroDr]

Yep, ive had the same problem...all of the sudden though ive just felt a strong pull towards meditation, as is probably evident from my recent posting lol...Whenever I actually tried meditating, except while tripping, it felt like i wasnt doing something right, or i was expecting something and when I didnt get it, i must have failed. Now I find myself doing it simply for relaxation and calming, and it feels like the rest is going to follow, so i have high hopes

 

[jamaica0535]

things have a way of just working out.

the girl i am starting to like broke up with her boyfriend, just gonna see where this goes, because like i said, things just have a way of working out.

 

[PrettyKitty]

"no snowflake ever falls in the wrong place."
i appreciate that saying more and more every day.

I like that


Kewl name Cosmic Charlie


...wish I could have my old name back8(

 

[NeuroDr]

Good news Jamaica I would say hope it all works out for u, but it will Time for today's first smoke, here we goooo

 

[cosmic charlie]

I've never drank while tripping, I'm guessing that it would act in a similar manner (barring any possible nausea n whatnot) to benzos right? Do you feel it dulls the experience?

It totally dulls the experience alot , especially if you getting drunk everyday like I was. I was doing heroin most of the time to so that fucked it up as well. I if you take psychs while your abusing drugs it just fucks it all up. I was in a bad head space so alot of my trips spiraled towards negativity. I would think about how much I was fucking myself up with drugs everyday and it was horrid.

Now that Im clean and happy things should go much more smoothly

 

[tBirdee]

Well, I have to work soon, have a very good day everybody!
maybe ill talk to some of you's later on tonight, PEACE

 

[jamaica0535]

ah, im thinking about maybe eating some 2c-i....

i have given so much away that i have hardly bothered taking any of what i have, but i guess it is far better for me to give it away than binge on it.

I just like it because its so cheap that i can just give one to someone when they say "Ive never tired 2c-i" and watch them trip face and love the stuff....

And i get a lot of satisfaction out of people having a good time, and just laughing, if there is one thing in this world we should all do more is laugh. What is life without a little humor and happiness.....


I have been trying to help my sister deal with her stress in her life, she has an unhealthy amount of it and generally projects her stress on the world by yelling. I have seen her get out of the car at a roadblock and start cussing out a female police officer. Bi polar kind of runs in the females of our family. She just needs to get into the idea that you really don't have to get all wound up over the small stuff, and that in stressful situations if she can keep a nice level head and a far more friendly tone she won't get in as much trouble. And to some degree it has been working, i was there through a conversation she had with the parents which would ordinarily have her crying and screaming she had to fight back from the crying but it went better than i could have hoped. I'm really the only one who is able to deal with her, she is pissed at the world and im the only one blood related she lets in.

 

[NeuroDr]

It totally dulls the experience alot , especially if you getting drunk everyday like I was. I was doing heroin most of the time to so that fucked it up as well. I if you take psychs while your abusing drugs it just fucks it all up. I was in a bad head space so alot of my trips spiraled towards negativity. I would think about how much I was fucking myself up with drugs everyday and it was horrid.

Now that Im clean and happy things should go much more smoothly

Oh that doesnt sound very nice, its good to hear that you've gotten out of those habits though I'm excited for you to trip now too!

Well, I have to work soon, have a very good day everybody!
maybe ill talk to some of you's later on tonight, PEACE

Have fun, later gator

 

[PepperSocks]

Wow, I drank a beer a couple hours ago and it did not go well at all. I have a splitting headache.

I'm glad I didn't take 2C-B today. It would have been a bad day for it. Tomorrow is going to be much better.

I took some AC&C and diazepam to try and ease my headache but I might have to dip into that seed opium stuff.

I got thinking about how wonderful LSD is and was really wondering; why isn't the RC market flooded with LSD analogues? I think that would be really cool.

LSD is so good but it would be nice to get analogues of different durations. A 6 hour version of LSD would be nice (I think 4-AcO-DMT comes close to that though), and an 18 hour version of LSD would also be cool.

There are times I'd like the LSD experience to be shorter then there are other times where I want to it be longer. I think analogues of different durations would be a really cool area to develop.

 

[jamaica0535]

im thinking about going to a psychedelic 60's dance party thing in a pretty decent venue i a familiar with.....

i wonder how like 15-17mg of 2c-i would be at a 60s dance party?

 

[TheAppleCore]

I'm glad I didn't take 2C-B today. It would have been a bad day for it. Tomorrow is going to be much better.

Always best to go with your gut instinct when it comes to psyches, isn't it? They're SO much better if you wait until you're really in the mood.


I do agree that having longer and shorter duration LSD-like lysergamides would be a godsend. If there's one chemical that embodies the ideal psychedelic, though, I think it would have to be LSD. For all intents and purposes, the effects and duration of LSD seem most suitable.

 

[PepperSocks]

I love horseradish so much

You and my dad would get along he loves the stuff. However he also usually takes it with roast beef.

We were barbecuing T-bone steaks out back but didn't have any plates or forks. I felt like an animal grabbing the piece of meat and ripping it apart with my hands and mouth. I've never eaten like that before. :D

For all intents and purposes, the effects and duration of LSD seem most suitable.

I really do agree. The 8-10 hour duration really is a nice duration, especially for day tripping. You can dose in the morning and you're up all day and come down by sunset. It's great for the timing to end up like that.

 

[Jack Jiggity Jaw]

Greetings, partial earthlings!

 

[Solipsis]

Your Autism Spectrum Quotient is 32 Your score is very high. Most people with Asperger syndrome or high functioning autism score about 35.

Soon I'll be getting myself referred to a mental health institute and figure out what the hell is going on. My autonomy is not what it should be and I just wanna know what part is incapacity and what part is open to work on. (It wasn't the test, I have always felt 'different' and at least the last 5 years my needing to know whats there, has been intense and growing). My grandfather has major Asperger's by the way (and how!). Enough is enough.

 

[PepperSocks]

That's an interesting idea. I find I have that type of thing. I'm sure it has a lot to do with having a stutter my whole life and the social crap that came from that but I really find I have Asperger tendencies.

But is it just one of those things that is a part of who we are and isn't something to "treat"?

 

[Solipsis]

Normally, yes definitely. But there are some things like not taking good care of myself in certain ways and some compulsion among other things that have been hindring my life and progress. I feel I need to find out what part is something I can work on, what part I definitely need help with if ever hoping to sort it and what part is probably not going to go away no matter what I do. If I get a better picture of these things it can help me make decisions for the future.

Apart from that, it feels like more than tendencies (as in: everyone has some tendencies of this and that but really dont have a disorder at all). Now I have no idea if test will point out any disorders but after years and years of doubt, whether I have something, what it is exactly, whether I should get myself tested, the time has come when I want to put my mind at rest a little about the matter.

I do like myself and definitely the oddities, but it would be better if I knew what part I should just accept as being a static given and what part I should be hopeful of changing for the better (e.g. stuff in my behaviour).

Oh for instance a friend of mine has something the same as me, namely that if we have interest in something we can put a lot of attention into learning about it but if there is something just not appealing on some level we just... can't! I just don't think its plain old being lazy, most people can decide that its just some work they have to do for their studies but my friend and I are just extremely picky about our information. Too extreme to have too high hopes for, it appears.

 

[PepperSocks]

I want to put my mind at rest a little about the matter.

I can understand that.

Oh for instance a friend of mine has something the same as me, namely that if we have interest in something we can put a lot of attention into learning about it but if there is something just not appealing on some level we just... can't! I just don't think its plain old being lazy, most people can decide that its just some work they have to do for their studies but my friend and I are just extremely picky about our information. Too extreme to have too high hopes for, it appears.

I definitely have that, to the nth degree. When I get on a subject or a project I'm interested in I focus vast amounts of energy onto that subject until I have mentally figured it out and know how to carry out the project on the physical plane, even though I usually don't actually do it, I like to know I have it in my head ready to go when I require the result of the project.

I will put everything else on hold until I have it figured out. It feels liek I get a huge rush of endogenous amphetamines when I'm in that state. I will go and go, ignoring everything else, including hunger. I will go without food or sleep if it's really pulling me.

I've read procedures and protocols til the wee hours in the morning until I finally got closure on the subject.

It really is the problem I have had in school. Quite often school includes a whole bunch of crap I just don't care about so the drive to do the work isn't there. It seems that the only things I get truly driven on are things I decide to investigate on my own accord. School subjects or work tasks where I'm told to look at something are hard on me because the inner drive isn't there. I was told to do something by someone else, I do it because I "have" to, but I don't necessarily want to.

I think being an entrepreneur is the only way for me to go. I'm very much one of those people who spends their weekends building things, has the time of my life doing it, and when Monday comes along and I go to a job where I have to do things that didn't come from within me; it really brings me down.

 

[Solipsis]

Hah :D Thats 100% recognizable, I have had the no attention for hunger or sleep part since I was very young. If there's work in the morning I have to be, I will sleep for at least some minimum period of time - I'm not stupid - but if there is room to bargain I'll take all there is until I'm spent. For meals, I often have to remind myself as if it were one of the least obvious choirs in my day.

As a student it has been kinda fun living like this, that's the part that played out nicely... but I'm starting to really need stability and structure and now when it comes down to it it seems it might turn out that theres more underneath it than just a habit or two. Well I could have guessed maybe but the true extent is still unknown.

The analyzing from every angle, then not acting on it is also one of my not-so-forte's, although its again one of those things that depend how you look at it. I feel like my life would still be awesome if I stayed an observant for a big part and creating theories and designs and stacking knowledge on top of knowledge, only sometimes coming out to be totally intentionally creative. But thats not what the world suggests is right. What the hell are you supposed to do with that? It's just dissonant however you look at it. What could work is first separate supporting yourself with work to merely survive from doing your weird old thang on the side. Then, when an ideal opportunity comes along meaning a match, maybe this expression could be used in a commonly accepted way... I guess now that I think about it, this plan is not all that different from entrepeneurship at its core, independency being the key word!
Independent is a key word in a broader sense of our context, I think.

Fine if it turns out I shouldn't hide behind mental issues I don't actually have, then its up to me. But like I said, first I wanna know what are realistic expectations for myself and what do professionals think of it.

Stay tuned for more "Cursed gifts? True stories" soon on a forum near you.

 

[tBirdee]

^I dont want to sound like just trying to make something up, but I experience the exact same thing peppersocks.. Thats one reason I hate school, theres just so much crap that you have to learn. When it comes to drugs or anything psychedelic-related, or even of interest, Im basically an information fiend..

EDIT: Solip you beat beat me to it, but everything you said, thats me, Ive been thinking about this for a long time and Im extremely happy you guys are talking about this.