Morninggloryseed
Bluelight Crew
It has been almost two weeks now. Bupe does NOTHING to me as far as a high. I am prescribed 16mg/day and generally use 8-12mg. There is ZERO euphoria, zero of the motivation and energy I am used to with my D.O.C. I have been physically dependent on opiates since October 2002.
Under the tongue doesn't work for me. I just salivate and end up swallowing most.
I insufflate it, but have tried IMing it...the effects from IMing it were no better than insufflation. I may try the rectal route...but in general I don't think this works for me. If I am not out of this severe depression (I am thinking about suicide which I haven't in two years...since the last time I tried to quit) in two more weeks, I am moving to methadone.
On top of that...the things I looked foward to never happened. Bupe only seems to last 8hr or so for me. I start getting edgy after that. ANd I wake up every day in mild WD....not anywhere near as intense as before...but still uncomfortable.
And its expensive...I have to pay $40 for every script. That is about what I was paying for my pods every month once you factor in the copays for the Dr. Visits. If I am going to have to spend all of this money, I might as well get something that has an antidepressant effect on me. I've never tried methadone so I am in all honesty going to obsess over it until I know.
Under the tongue doesn't work for me. I just salivate and end up swallowing most.
I insufflate it, but have tried IMing it...the effects from IMing it were no better than insufflation. I may try the rectal route...but in general I don't think this works for me. If I am not out of this severe depression (I am thinking about suicide which I haven't in two years...since the last time I tried to quit) in two more weeks, I am moving to methadone.
On top of that...the things I looked foward to never happened. Bupe only seems to last 8hr or so for me. I start getting edgy after that. ANd I wake up every day in mild WD....not anywhere near as intense as before...but still uncomfortable.
And its expensive...I have to pay $40 for every script. That is about what I was paying for my pods every month once you factor in the copays for the Dr. Visits. If I am going to have to spend all of this money, I might as well get something that has an antidepressant effect on me. I've never tried methadone so I am in all honesty going to obsess over it until I know.