1:50am and I still can't sleep, looks like I will be up all night! Sik life... lol.
My job basically has me sitting at a desk for 8 hours a day doing boring boring I.T shit so it does help me get through it since it's a boring job which doesn't require much brain work and it really helps me sleep.
Usually when I get home I'd just smoke cones every half hour by myself watching south park/prison break/OC/family guy or listening to music until I fell asleep, one big cycle over and over again.
On weekends I'd do exact same except I do it all day.
I think I have a bit of social awkwardness, not to sure but you can tell me...
Lately when I have had a conversation with someone and it hasn't gone the way I wanted it or I simply forgot to say something I would re-enact that convo in my head a few hours later of what I should of said and then I get angry at myself for saying the wrong thing...
This happened a 2 weeks ago and for some reason I got a little paranoid, shy and well couldn't hold a proper convo with THE dealerrrr, I couldn't hear what he was trying to say at start.
Exhibit A)
Me "hey mate, heard your rugby league team lost, bad luck, just the usual thanks"
Dealer "yeah, oh well, would you like a beer?"
me "what'd u say?"
Dealer "would you like a beer???"
me "huh??"
Dealer " would you like a beer???"
me "ahh no i better not (stutter stutter)"
dealer "ahh ok, you going out tonight?"
me "ahh look, i really don't know, but i better go"
dealer "you right mate?"
me "yeah just a bit paranoid now after all the weed you've been selling me" (then I left).
I really should not have said first line NOR last line.... But does it really matter? I make it as though it was a big deal but I dunno if he would really care, am I taking this to seriously? This has happened to probably 6 other convos recently...
Ok, I am only posting so much because I have work in 7 hours, and I am yet to sleep and very very bored...
soz