Cocaine/Heroin IV - First time IV'ing anything - First thought, what have I done?

[dilated_pupils]

The thing with IV use is that there really isn't a stigma as with certain other drugs...its the truth. go to any hospital and ask the nurses, they'll tell you how hard addicts' viens are from IVing street drugs, and when they need to have an IV the nurses can't find a vein.. if you're going to say that this is only for people who become highly addicted - sure, you can possibly IV occasionally and not become addicted, but the chances are WAY higher than with other methods. maybe its the speed in which the drug hits, maybe its the feel of the needle in your arm, but the rate of addiction has got to be much higher with IV use. personally, i'd rather not play with fire.

that said, i agree with Fuzati (when i saw the title of the report and your username i actually thought to myself "not again..."). it's awfully hard not to judge you considering you sound like you know better. i'm not talking just about IV use, but your comments in general. you went from "idk if i will do it again" to "i had to hide my arms in public" fairly quickly. also, i think you know that just because it's not readily available doesn't mean you'll get addicted. if you know where to get it you'll find a way. i'm not trying to preach or sound like a mom or anything, and i'm not trying to say "you will get addicted," but it's kind of personal cuz i've heard people say pretty much the exact same things and end up using heavily and/or overdosing.

just be careful. i think you know that already.

I appreciate what you're saying as well, but in all reality, I just get sick of things, and I never liked IVing in the first place, so after doing it a couple times I'm already bored with it and highly dislike the whole idea of doing it still.

 

[Fuzati]

Hopefuly you are.

It's not a big deal if you tried IVing a couple of time, just think about it like another experimentation, but you don't want to do it on a daily basis...

Like MasterVampire said

--> this right now is the turning point in your life regarding drugs <--

So next time you think about shooting up dope/coke (if finally you not that bored with it) please think about it carefully before... Because you're going to make a decision that is going to affect you entire life in the futur.

Good luck, take care
Fuz

 

[Fight Club]

I appreciate what you're saying as well, but in all reality, I just get sick of things, and I never liked IVing in the first place, so after doing it a couple times I'm already bored with it and highly dislike the whole idea of doing it still.

DP - problem is that you are bored with it now, but what about in a few days, a few weeks, a few months?

For me it was easy to stop using IV coke. When my ball was gone, it was gone; just like that. Or, so I thought. Once a month turned into once a week turned into 3 times a week, turned into 5 8-balls IVed in 6 days. You get the idea.

I was in rehab a year ago, and except for one-day slips in July and November, have been drug-free for that year. I am closing in on 5 months with no alcohol or drugs, and while it hasn't been easy, it has been worth it.

Still, every so often I get intense cravings, like I can feel the needle sliding into my vein, feel the rush, the taste, the euphoria wash over me like a tidal wave.

I think one of the issues you are going to need to face, is whether you can go back to using without IVing. I am afraid that feeling will always be in the back of your mind, and will come rushing forward every time you snort a line or are around people getting high. Sucks, doesn't it? Kind of like toothpaste, it's very hard to put it back in the tube.

The sooner you stop, that easier it will be. After using IV coke for 5 months, it took 5 years of trying to kick it before I experienced the success I have today.

My thoughts are with you. Please be careful and don't let yourself get sucked in . . .

FC

 

[jgoshow]

lemme tell you FC is right!!! i am totally finished with iv coke,every once in awhile i can taste it,or a tv show will have the coke echo and i think im having a relaps ....every time i goto my bathroom...i mean everytime!!! i think about whackin one in the arm!,this was my main place to iv ,tonight i went to take a shower and i look at the floor as i undress and think how many hours i spent sweeping the floor with my hand thinking i dropped some or the mark on the wall that i hit my head on after a small shot thet was soooo potent i went into convulsions....and oh yes...searching for blood droplets on the shower door and floor making sure its clean so i m not caught by the wife.....wanna live like that?....please put it behind you....and be careful....i have been now clean for just over 3 months....

 

[dilated_pupils]

Hey guys sinced someone bumped my thread, I'd like to tell you all that I haven't touched opiates more than once in the past month and a half, no coke (nor will there will be), no needles, just weed and my prescribed benzos.

 

[ChillinSLC420]

DP
Still, every so often I get intense cravings, like I can feel the needle sliding into my vein, feel the rush, the taste, the euphoria wash over me like a tidal wave.


Dude I know Exactly what you mean when I get intense cravings for IV coke I had a habit going for a good of IVing blow and a good 2 years snorting it before that. I haven't done any cocaine for about 5 months, And my cravings are slowly going away but I still get them sometimes.
I have been of of ( I was bouncing between these three opiates to stay well and get loaded) my fentanyl, hydrocodone, and IV herion for about almost a good year. When it was a day where I just did dope I was doing probably, 0.6-1.0 grams in that day, then the next day I would take 20 lortab tens, the next day 1 and a half to twoo 1600mcg fent pops and so on, I have been On MMT for almost a month and it is getting me my life back. But I wish I never fuckin went overboard, Especially IVing it made my tolerance and overall desire for opiates insane! Just think about what we have all said and way the options, all the peple in this post might not know you but have been in your sheos and care. I hope the best for you and If you want it to cease stop now. Well Im done rambling I hope you find your way....Take care and be safe bro

 

[deceased fire]

I haven't touched opiates more than once in the past month and a half, no coke (nor will there will be), no needles, just weed and my prescribed benzos.

this is good to hear! good on ya.

 

[Damien]

I swore it would never happen. Ugh, I don’t know what to say about the experience as a whole, it was truly amazing, but at the same time, this is not my scene, in my head all I am thinking is “What was I doing there? With those people? With a needle in my ARM?”

I felt the same way when I was finishing my first bowl of meth. It was very very strange and hard emotionally, exactly as you are describing. I remember thinking "well sh*t, where do I go from here? I LOVE this stuff." After a week of hardcore psychological fiending I was able to realize that that love affair is not possible. But even still after only a hand full of experiences with meth, years later I get sudden psychological attacks out of nowhere where all I can think of, all day long, is meth. 8( God be with you.

 

[dilated_pupils]

I felt the same way when I was finishing my first bowl of meth. It was very very strange and hard emotionally, exactly as you are describing. I remember thinking "well sh*t, where do I go from here? I LOVE this stuff." After a week of hardcore psychological fiending I was able to realize that that love affair is not possible. But even still after only a hand full of experiences with meth, years later I get sudden psychological attacks out of nowhere where all I can think of, all day long, is meth. 8( God be with you.

You know what, I've tried to tempt myself but it still just wouldn't happen. I couldn't "want" the needle again, and the whole opiate thing has been over with. I take them from time to time, but I never really go seeking them, as like I said before, I got prescribed benzos, klonopin and ativan, so that's all I need (which by the way, I didn't have at the time).

I hope you stay away from meth though, I've seen it ruin people, and it makes me sad to think how many others are out there like the people I saw and knew.

 

[phr]

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You've seen people addicted on it in our area? I've never come across it on sale or come across anyone who is currently addicted to it...

 

[RexHunt]

Hey guys sinced someone bumped my thread, I'd like to tell you all that I haven't touched opiates more than once in the past month and a half, no coke (nor will there will be), no needles, just weed and my prescribed benzos.

really good to hear :D

 

[Centipede of Horus]

i agree 100 percent with MasterVampire. This could be the turning point of the rest of your life.

yup i agree. Make your choice now. Happiness or addiction. If you dont choose the choice is made for you and it will be the bad one.

 

[dilated_pupils]

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You've seen people addicted on it in our area? I've never come across it on sale or come across anyone who is currently addicted to it...

Yea I have, and badly. I've seen people go to jail, lose their jobs, and basically lose everything that they have, because of meth. I've seen them fiend for the meth, and I've had people ask me to get it and I simplied have replied "No". I still have not, and will not, ever get anyone meth, so don't ask me

really good to hear :D

Thanks, I'm happy I've been doing so much better.

 

[phr]

I have no interest in meth or any other stimulant... That's weird though, I guess meth is more of a suburban drug in our area. I've never once come across it in the "hood."

 

[danalprazolam]

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You've seen people addicted on it in our area? I've never come across it on sale or come across anyone who is currently addicted to it...

I met a really hot chick that just quit. It's like once you meet one of them you realize how many of them there are 8(

 

[phr]

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I'm talking about the Philadelphia area, specifically the city.

 

[jgoshow]

i live real close to philly and am in the city alot,in all my years of iv coke use ive only once found quality coke, guess i didnt know who to goto.... but weed,coce,crack and h are in the city....meth is mostly found in the burbs....and is very expensive......funny how that is....

 

[dchlight]

You totally hit the nail on the head when you brought up tv being a trigger. Whenever I see anything heroin related on tv it just brings me back to the heroin years and makes me want to go out and score.

 

[Kava-Kava]

I found myself angry and delusional after using that combination

 

[DropDeadDevin]

I wish I could just say, "Don't do it at all, ever again." And that would work, but it's nothing words can control.

You need to find the will power to just not do it. I mean, if you're afraid of becoming an addict then you really do need to stop it.

Fuck, I can't think of any helpful words. Diary of a Heroin Addict? That scared me not to IV Heroin...