Having sex with certain pushers cause it feels like I'm breaking some taboo that says "bad girl." They have to have a wicked sense of humor or at least semi enjoyable company though, not some skank with bad hygiene, over inflated ego that's dumb enough to flaunt it, or someone that is intellectually challenged. I've had this sexual fantasy for the longest time that I've yet to attempt to fulfill of copping dope off a new connect 3 or 4 times, (w/o doing it in front of them) then one day, assuming they are the horny type and are not heavy users themselves that have lost interest in sex and are not gay. On the 5th or 6th time say we're alone I sort of casually mention that I'm not really a user, but I been wanting to get into his pants for a one night stand, or if he preferred, a one night sit, or lay but I'd still pay him the money if he wanted to keep his dope in exchange for a night of hot illicit sex, after which time I'd walk off limping into the sunrise never to be seen again. I've yet to encounter a dealer that would cooperate though. Perhaps someday. A girl can always dream....