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Last night I just had some
Vaped weed
50 mg Quetiapine
... Gives a considerable hangover but I slept early and didn't wake up once... Don't want to risk for Mirtazapin to lose it's efficacy due to using it too frequently...
 
Bit late but fuck I’ve had the worst birthday weekend of my life. Will try to keep the ramble short to stay OT, so Friday night’s chemicals were:

- 0.45g insufflated + 0.20g meth smoked
- roughly 0.5g 2-mmc
- roughly 0.25g speed
- 165mg MDMA
- 35mg diazepam

Had a shit birthday last Thursday, but tried to at least make Friday fun so I had planned a big picnic with almost all my friends, stressful morning getting all the food & shit ready for only 2 out of 15 of my friends to show up :/

Like I was prepared for some to cancel but yeah. That made me spiral like mad, hadn’t slept or eaten much in days too and my two friends also had to leave early.

I felt like shit, had a mental breakdown, relapsed with self harm again, took 10mg diazepam to calm me tf down. Had planned to go to this rave Friday night with a friend, he canceled as well so at that point I just couldn’t give a shit anymore, snorted a bunch of meth, speed, 2-mmc and ended up impulsively smoking the last of the gram, inside my room, not even opening a window. I think I even tried to smoke some 2-mmc but I was so fucked up that I have no clue if that even worked.

Went to the rave alone, arrived way too late in a hurry and lost my earbuds. More 2-mmc and took 0.75 of an xtc pill. The xtc combined with all the other stuff really REALLY fucked me up. My vision still hasn’t fully recovered, I was seeing double for hours.

On the way back I felt sad and incredibly angry, hadn’t had a single social interaction and missed most of the rave by being way too late. Got harassed and followed and nearly punched one of them but the guy’s friend and security at the train station intervened and a kind woman stayed with me the rest of the train ride.

Then in the train I thought I saw two of my roommates. My sunglasses broke and it was incredibly obvious I was high as fuck, so I (thought???) I heard them talk about me and calling the cops and my mom, etc… etc… then they followed me to the tram stop, or at least that’s what I was convinced was happening, so I hid in a bike parking garage for hours tweaked tf out.

I still don’t know how much of the shit with my roommates actually happend and I am moving out as I’m typing this. I made a huge mistake accepting that g of meth because now that and opioids are all I can think about, but I can’t go to my dealer cuz moving back to my mom’s place and shit.

When I finally got home from the rave I had another breakdown and was seriously considering suicide until one of my rave friends called me asking if I was okay and needed help. I seriously owe him shit because he managed to calm me down enough to take some diazepam and then I passed tf out for fuck knows how long.

I’m doing ‘better’ now or at least not actively suicidal anymore. Just benzo’d tf out while trying to act sober for my family who are helping me move back home. Depressed as hell about having to go back to the shithole that is my mom’s house.

But the friend who called me yesterday is the boyfriend of the girl who wants to find an apartment together, as we’re both in a similar shitty home situation and we’re very similar life style wise, or more so, we both love drugs and raving our problems away while also needing a stable, calm home and our creative and nerdy hobbies.

Said I wasn’t going to ramble but oops. Too high to care. Have to go now though, hope y’all had a better weekend aha :’)
 
Sp4rky said:
Bit late but fuck I’ve had the worst birthday weekend of my life. Will try to keep the ramble short to stay OT, so Friday night’s chemicals were:

- 0.45g insufflated + 0.20g meth smoked
- roughly 0.5g 2-mmc
- roughly 0.25g speed
- 165mg MDMA
- 35mg diazepam

Had a shit birthday last Thursday, but tried to at least make Friday fun so I had planned a big picnic with almost all my friends, stressful morning getting all the food & shit ready for only 2 out of 15 of my friends to show up :/

Like I was prepared for some to cancel but yeah. That made me spiral like mad, hadn’t slept or eaten much in days too and my two friends also had to leave early.

I felt like shit, had a mental breakdown, relapsed with self harm again, took 10mg diazepam to calm me tf down. Had planned to go to this rave Friday night with a friend, he canceled as well so at that point I just couldn’t give a shit anymore, snorted a bunch of meth, speed, 2-mmc and ended up impulsively smoking the last of the gram, inside my room, not even opening a window. I think I even tried to smoke some 2-mmc but I was so fucked up that I have no clue if that even worked.

Went to the rave alone, arrived way too late in a hurry and lost my earbuds. More 2-mmc and took 0.75 of an xtc pill. The xtc combined with all the other stuff really REALLY fucked me up. My vision still hasn’t fully recovered, I was seeing double for hours.

On the way back I felt sad and incredibly angry, hadn’t had a single social interaction and missed most of the rave by being way too late. Got harassed and followed and nearly punched one of them but the guy’s friend and security at the train station intervened and a kind woman stayed with me the rest of the train ride.

Then in the train I thought I saw two of my roommates. My sunglasses broke and it was incredibly obvious I was high as fuck, so I (thought???) I heard them talk about me and calling the cops and my mom, etc… etc… then they followed me to the tram stop, or at least that’s what I was convinced was happening, so I hid in a bike parking garage for hours tweaked tf out.

I still don’t know how much of the shit with my roommates actually happend and I am moving out as I’m typing this. I made a huge mistake accepting that g of meth because now that and opioids are all I can think about, but I can’t go to my dealer cuz moving back to my mom’s place and shit.

When I finally got home from the rave I had another breakdown and was seriously considering suicide until one of my rave friends called me asking if I was okay and needed help. I seriously owe him shit because he managed to calm me down enough to take some diazepam and then I passed tf out for fuck knows how long.

I’m doing ‘better’ now or at least not actively suicidal anymore. Just benzo’d tf out while trying to act sober for my family who are helping me move back home. Depressed as hell about having to go back to the shithole that is my mom’s house.

But the friend who called me yesterday is the boyfriend of the girl who wants to find an apartment together, as we’re both in a similar shitty home situation and we’re very similar life style wise, or more so, we both love drugs and raving our problems away while also needing a stable, calm home and our creative and nerdy hobbies.

Said I wasn’t going to ramble but oops. Too high to care. Have to go now though, hope y’all had a better weekend aha :’)
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Ouff man, I recognize that tendency to spiral and planning suicide when shit goes south, I was the same in active addiction.

In reality its never as bad as it is, I remember my last hardcore binge where I embarrased myself completely, burnt a few bridges with friends and got caught by police with a fuckton of drugs and started spiraling. I was gonna end it right there but 5 years later and Im thinking how could I throw my life away in the heat of the moment like that. Honestly nowadays I tell myself no matter what happens I have to keep going just to see what will happen in the future, in those dire moments you gotta pretend like youre reading a book or watching a show and understand that this is just another challenge being thrown at the protagonist to build strength and character.

Cant remember where I read this quote but I think it was something like:
”Instead of thinking how hard your journey is, think how great your story will be"
 
Hey everyone! I feel like it's been a minute since I posted but I have been somewhat sober lately (except for methadone but that doesn't count). Tonight though I decided to get gaba-ed, so I'm on:
200 mg methadone
2400 mg gabapentin, staggered
90 mg Adderall

Also anyone have experience with 4-mmc? I might be doing some soon. @Sp4rky I feel like you might have mentioned this one before?

Hope everyone's doing great, love and light!
 
Gridlink said:
Hey everyone! I feel like it's been a minute since I posted but I have been somewhat sober lately (except for methadone but that doesn't count). Tonight though I decided to get gaba-ed, so I'm on:
200 mg methadone
2400 mg gabapentin, staggered
90 mg Adderall

Also anyone have experience with 4-mmc? I might be doing some soon. @Sp4rky I feel like you might have mentioned this one before?

Hope everyone's doing great, love and light!
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Mmm jealous is all I can say on that one. I only have experience with 3-mmc, 2-mmc and 3-cmc, but from what I’ve heard it’s a stronger, slightly less empathogenic, more stimulating version of 3-mmc.

Some prefer it for that, others prefer 3-mmc as it’s closer to an xtc roll when taken orally. It is extremely compulsive tho, as are all synthetic cathinones, but I’m sure you’re well aware of that. Good for sex too aha.

My only ‘advice’ is don’t underestimate it just because it used to be a legal designer drug. I know plenty of people hooked on 2-mmc and 3-mm c who got into it thinking ‘it’s legal, it surely can’t be THAT good’

In my experience I prefer synthetic cathinones wayyy more than coke. A lot less dull, a lot more of a rush. Have yet to try dosing 2-mmc orally, have heard that’s really good too.
 
Yeah every time your combinations sounds good @Gridlink .. While I am not sure I could actually handle 200 crazy milligrams of methadone these days ! the gaba I understand as for the adderall I never went that up with actual adderall. with speed paste yes sure

I've had 4-MMC in 2009 that was some fire for real . 10 or more years later the 3-MMC felt a bit disappointing, not bad but not great either to me. But some liked it

But yeah all of this depends of your ROA, cant remember if I actually bombed a lot of meph, but snorted a fair bit mixed with lsd and ketamine and or alcohol and during some time. While 3-MMC, I didnt even snort nor bomb any lol. felt bleh had to do multiple points to get something that NEH, from the same category of drugs, would give me with in less than 1
 
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Sp4rky said:
Mmm jealous is all I can say on that one. I only have experience with 3-mmc, 2-mmc and 3-cmc, but from what I’ve heard it’s a stronger, slightly less empathogenic, more stimulating version of 3-mmc.

Some prefer it for that, others prefer 3-mmc as it’s closer to an xtc roll when taken orally. It is extremely compulsive tho, as are all synthetic cathinones, but I’m sure you’re well aware of that. Good for sex too aha.

My only ‘advice’ is don’t underestimate it just because it used to be a legal designer drug. I know plenty of people hooked on 2-mmc and 3-mm c who got into it thinking ‘it’s legal, it surely can’t be THAT good’

In my experience I prefer synthetic cathinones wayyy more than coke. A lot less dull, a lot more of a rush. Have yet to try dosing 2-mmc orally, have heard that’s really good too.
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My advice for synthetic cathinones is if you happen to binge them heavily for days, weeks or for months you gonna hate life, be very depressed or best feel nothing for a while. At some point it's not worth it. I am six years clean from cathinones or MDMA. It is a huge toll on mental health in terms of level of dopamine, depression, anxiety. Long lasting side effects are similar to amphetamines, cocaine and methamphetamine all at once . Good luck
 
KetWise said:
My advice for synthetic cathinones is if you happen to binge them heavily for days, weeks or for months you gonna hate life, be very depressed or best feel nothing for a while. At some point it's not worth it. I am six years clean from cathinones or MDMA. It is a huge toll on mental health in terms of level of dopamine, depression, anxiety. Long lasting side effects are similar to amphetamines, cocaine and methamphetamine all at once . Good luck
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Definitely agree, good advice

I personally am somewhat ‘lucky’ in that I find most drugs that are only good because of the initial rush to get boring very quickly. Have never binged 2-mmc longer than 48 hours and that was only combined with MDMA and more just the good vibes with friends that made it last that long, rather than chasing the initial rush.

With higher doses be aware of rage as well. Synthetic cathinones can get real tweaky and almost dissociative if you push it too far.

I enjoy it most just as an ‘alternative’ to drinking with friends. Just the bonding experience of doing bumps in the club bathrooms or at the afters type of vibe.
 
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Thanks for the great advice on 4-mmc @Sp4rky and @KetWise ! I haven't gotten the chance to sample it yet but I will def be keeping your words of wisdom in mind when I do. Binging and addiction fortunately aren't things I have to worry about because it's actually my friend who is getting a modest amount, and he is sharing some with me since neither of us have ever done it. I will look out for things like redosing and rage, and I definitely won't be underestimating this one!

OT: Just a couple hits of meth tonight, going to take 0.5 mg alprazolam and get to bed at a decent hour since I admittedly took those hits at around 6 pm.
 
Gridlink said:
Thanks for the great advice on 4-mmc @Sp4rky and @KetWise ! I haven't gotten the chance to sample it yet but I will def be keeping your words of wisdom in mind when I do. Binging and addiction fortunately aren't things I have to worry about because it's actually my friend who is getting a modest amount, and he is sharing some with me since neither of us have ever done it. I will look out for things like redosing and rage, and I definitely won't be underestimating this one!
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No problem, also would be curious to hear about your experience. Synthetic cathinones have been one of those drug classes only people already using hard drugs really know about.

Vaguely remember watching a YouTube video on the ‘bath salt epidemic’ or whatever they called it back when I had no access to but a massive fixation on drugs and thinking ‘that sounds scary, I’m never doing these specific drugs’

Years later ended up accepting someone’s offer of 3-mmc at a rave out of desperation never even having heard of what 3-mmc is. Liked it, started using it myself and only later realized that well damn, guess you did end up using the ‘scary bath salts’ after all aha😭

To stay OT however:

- 0.15g meth insufflated

Will be the last line of meth for today, most definitely benzos after I’ve finished the last bits of my uni assignment.

Would ramble on, but this damn assignment needs to be finished in 4 hours .—.

Wishing y’all a good evening :)
 
Hey all sorry to get a bit off topic to staff with but what's the opiate rc market looking like today? Are they all just stupid potent nitazines and fent analogies or are there some chill middle of the road ones that actually get you high and not just make you nod????? My nightly fix is 7oh, kratom, Mgm15 and now mgm16 some Adderall and Concerta and 2 benadryl and a cup of tea to boot ✌️
 
Kurt Cobain said:
Hey all sorry to get a bit off topic to staff with but what's the opiate rc market looking like today? Are they all just stupid potent nitazines and fent analogies or are there some chill middle of the road ones that actually get you high and not just make you nod????? My nightly fix is 7oh, kratom, Mgm15 and now mgm16 some Adderall and Concerta and 2 benadryl and a cup of tea to boot ✌️
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Afaik there are odsmt, ic-26 (though recently banned and disappearing), rarely piptapentadol and nortilidine - none of which I tried tbh... Rest is zenes as far as my info goes.
Jealous of the mgm-15... 🤤

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OT:
3 redoses of 7oh/MIT (5/10, 2x 10/20)
Forgot the 2x 3,5 g red Kratom
15 mg Mirtazapin
5 mg Diazepam
Vaped Weed
Feeling sedated but awake. 7 oh definitely has stim qualities, I'm slightly paranoid and heart rate is a tad too high...
So it be 5 mg Zolpidem...

And a good and safe night bl!
 
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Kurt Cobain said:
Hey all sorry to get a bit off topic to staff with but what's the opiate rc market looking like today? Are they all just stupid potent nitazines and fent analogies or are there some chill middle of the road ones that actually get you high and not just make you nod?????
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I have quite a bit of experience at this point with O-DSMT and IC-26, that’s pretty much I have access to and the kratom & 7-OH you’re already using.

O-DSMT is quite nice, but be VERY wary of not combining it with basically anything else except maybe weed. Very prone to causing serotonin syndrome even with not super serotonin-active drugs like (m)ampthetamines. Have learned that one the hard way by mixing it with speed and 2-mmc, then got so sick for 4 days afterwards that I was genuinely scared of dying.

as well as Many of the tablets available are also being way too highly dosed. I have certainly nodded out on higher doses so bad I ended up in hospital for nodding off in public, but low doses I find quite functionally high. Tolerance builds crazy fast though, especially with higher doses if a ‘typical’ opioid high of nodding off but still feeling that warm comfort is what you’re after.

IC-26 is extremely user dependent experience wise. I don’t have a big opioid tolerance and for me I’d describe IC-26 as being close to morphine in strength, perhaps closer to methadone but I’ve never taken that, so can’t compare. To some it’s very disappointing or batch dependent, I haven’t experimented much with lower doses of IC-26, since for me the sweet spot is vaguely nodding here and there but still being able to write or draw a bit in between.

Have more IC-26 on the way though, powder this time, so will probably update on those experiences regarding that in this and other threads.
Mushoku_Sensei said:
Rest is zenes as far as my info goes

Jealous of the mgm-15... 🤤
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Mmm I hate the focus on the zenes in the rc opioid market. Feel like they’d be better off investing in illegal production of traditional opiates, like fuck I’d (figuratively) kill for some morphine or oxy 80’s.

anyways, long rambles aside (I feel like many of us in this thread are having mad opioid cravings rn, or I do at least), back OT:
Sp4rky said:
To stay OT however:

- 0.15g meth insufflated

Will be the last line of meth for today, most definitely benzos after I’ve finished the last bits of my uni assignment.

Would ramble on, but this damn assignment needs to be finished in 4 hours .—.

Wishing y’all a good evening :)
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Assignment finally finished and finishing the night or early morning I guess with:

- 20mg deschloroetizolam
- 20mg diazepam

Considering taking more benzos, but it’s already getting hard to type and I’d have to stumble to my stash spot while not waking up my mom & shit so ughh

Should feel relieved about handing in that giant assignment but the comedown from all the meth today is just having me restless and sad. Will try to sleep now I guess but honestly I need more fucking benzoss

Wishing y’all a peaceful, tweakless night aha :’)
 
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