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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

moerez said:
The pain that i have is giving me balls to do it , I can’t do it anymore , I really can’t
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Dude it takes alot more balls to live. As 50 cent said deaths gotta be easy cause life is hard. Anyone can kill themselves dude just hang in there
 
paranoid android said:
Dude it takes alot more balls to live. As 50 cent said deaths gotta be easy cause life is hard. Anyone can kill themselves dude just hang in there
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Yeah 50cent says it because he never goes through the shit we are going through, living like a subhuman without joy , without pain , without pacing, without dick, then I wanna see who can live like that, it’s literally hell on the earth, death is way better than living like this for sure im 24/7 in pain with shitty ass memory and focus and dpdr and I feel like I’m not in the world, i can’t even explain how hard it is to be in my situation, like fuck my life why would i become like this? What de fuck did I do? Like seriously people make other people suffer and live their lives but I did nothing and there I am, I don’t wanna live in this cruel world that there is no fucking justice and I have to Live like a retard to just not make my parents suffer? I don’t care about anything anymore soon I will finish everything and I choose peace , if you didn’t have dick like me or no enjoyment at all and pacing all the time u wouldn’t stay too im pretty sure
 
moerez said:
Yeah 50cent says it because he never goes through the shit we are going through, living like a subhuman without joy , without pain , without pacing, without dick, then I wanna see who can live like that, it’s literally hell on the earth, death is way better than living like this for sure im 24/7 in pain with shitty ass memory and focus and dpdr and I feel like I’m not in the world, i can’t even explain how hard it is to be in my situation, like fuck my life why would i become like this? What de fuck did I do? Like seriously people make other people suffer and live their lives but I did nothing and there I am, I don’t wanna live in this cruel world that there is no fucking justice and I have to Live like a retard to just not make my parents suffer? I don’t care about anything anymore soon I will finish everything and I choose peace , if you didn’t have dick like me or no enjoyment at all and pacing all the time u wouldn’t stay too im pretty sure
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Dude i know what your going through i went 2 years without getting a hard on because of invega and abilify injections. Trust me things will get better. Im doing alot better now then i was pre invega or really at anytime in my life. What if you kill yourself now only for you would recover in a few months? Wouldnt that suck. You cant get better if your dead. After having cotards and thinking i was dead i never wanna die. Beng dead sucks i mean you wouldnt even know your dead ffs.

And my man 50 got shot in the face so he knows abit about suffering to
 
paranoid android said:
Dude i know what your going through i went 2 years without getting a hard on because of invega and abilify injections. Trust me things will get better. Im doing alot better now then i was pre invega or really at anytime in my life. What if you kill yourself now only for you would recover in a few months? Wouldnt that suck. You cant get better if your dead. After having cotards and thinking i was dead i never wanna die. Beng dead sucks i mean you wouldnt even know your dead ffs.

And my man 50 got shot in the face so he knows abit about suffering to
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When I see no freaking improvement in 6 months at all and everything keeps getting worse, what’s the chance of getting better? Things didn’t go good for rawbanana, bojana,broken self and many others in Reddit, you were lucky with that amount of injection you still can be a person with joy, I suffer from everything, every single thing and I see people enjoy some stuff after their 3rd month and they are saying why this guy can’t hold it, because I’m literally zombie, I can’t focus on anything and I hate everything every moment, I know my pssd wouldn’t be cured, at least I’m sure about that, how would I live without penis ? It’s a shame for me , I don’t deserve this , I wanna wait but how da fuck can I wait when there is nothing to kill the fucking time or something that make my suicidal thoughts away? I’m thinking 24/7 about suicide and that’s fucked up my brain is getting fried by that, I literally can’t go on with mental illness anymore like I’m done, u were already seeing improvements at month 3, you don’t feel what I feel man , I’m in pain it’s been 6 months now that I’m in torture, I can’t do it anymore but I appreciate your help
 
moerez said:
When I see no freaking improvement in 6 months at all and everything keeps getting worse, what’s the chance of getting better? Things didn’t go good for rawbanana, bojana,broken self and many others in Reddit, you were lucky with that amount of injection you still can be a person with joy, I suffer from everything, every single thing and I see people enjoy some stuff after their 3rd month and they are saying why this guy can’t hold it, because I’m literally zombie, I can’t focus on anything and I hate everything every moment, I know my pssd wouldn’t be cured, at least I’m sure about that, how would I live without penis ? It’s a shame for me , I don’t deserve this , I wanna wait but how da fuck can I wait when there is nothing to kill the fucking time or something that make my suicidal thoughts away? I’m thinking 24/7 about suicide and that’s fucked up my brain is getting fried by that, I literally can’t go on with mental illness anymore like I’m done, u were already seeing improvements at month 3, you don’t feel what I feel man , I’m in pain it’s been 6 months now that I’m in torture, I can’t do it anymore but I appreciate your help
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I did feeel what you are feeling because i couldnt get a hard on for 2 fucking years! 2 goddamn years of my life with no hard on. So i suffered to. Also what are you 25? In the great scheme of things 6 months is nothing. How do you know you wont get better from pssd? If you even have pssd mind you as i doubt 2 prozac pills would cause it. Your dick will work again. I didnt think mine would but now im more horny then i was when i was 18 ffs

Your stuck in a thought loop you need to get your mind off suicide. Have you talked with your doctor about trying another benzo that will work for you so you can chill out for abit? And what about whether increasing your zopiclone dose or trying another sleeping pill like temazepam?

None is going to save you you have to save yourself. I learned that from being in the psych ward and suffering from the effects of invega and abilify
 
paranoid android said:
I did feeel what you are feeling because i couldnt get a hard on for 2 fucking years! 2 goddamn years of my life with no hard on. So i suffered to. Also what are you 25? In the great scheme of things 6 months is nothing. How do you know you wont get better from pssd? If you even have pssd mind you as i doubt 2 prozac pills would cause it. Your dick will work again. I didnt think mine would but now im more horny then i was when i was 18 ffs

Your stuck in a thought loop you need to get your mind off suicide. Have you talked with your doctor about trying another benzo that will work for you so you can chill out for abit? And what about whether increasing your zopiclone dose or trying another sleeping pill like temazepam?

None is going to save you you have to save yourself. I learned that from being in the psych ward and suffering from the effects of invega and abilify
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Unfortunately 2prozac did that to me , yeah I might get better 3,4 years later I get half boner so what? I have to suffer all these years without having dick? How can I stop thinking about suicide when I have akathisia? It’s hell on earth you can’t do anything about it, you told me you got injections and u were feeling better after 3 months, so how do you say u suffered as much as I did? WHO knows I don’t end up like the people who don’t recover for 24 months? I have to wait 24 months to see? Like I can’t even pass one more day it’s fucked up, I really can’t man even if they tell me one year later you get better I can’t still wait one more year because I’m suffering a lot right now, I had great life before I never gonna reach the point that I was in my life , I was in my prime and whatever I do I can’t have my life back
How do you say you are better than pre invega? What got better for you?
 
moerez said:
Unfortunately 2prozac did that to me , yeah I might get better 3,4 years later I get half boner so what? I have to suffer all these years without having dick? How can I stop thinking about suicide when I have akathisia? It’s hell on earth you can’t do anything about it, you told me you got injections and u were feeling better after 3 months, so how do you say u suffered as much as I did? WHO knows I don’t end up like the people who don’t recover for 24 months? I have to wait 24 months to see? Like I can’t even pass one more day it’s fucked up, I really can’t man even if they tell me one year later you get better I can’t still wait one more year because I’m suffering a lot right now, I had great life before I never gonna reach the point that I was in my life , I was in my prime and whatever I do I can’t have my life back
How do you say you are better than pre invega? What got better for you?
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I suffered like you because i was on invega and abilify for 2 goddamn years and didnt get anything resembling a hard on in that time.

In regards to akathisia dude its not going to get better on its own ffs. What are you waiting for god to come and help you? Go back to your fucking doctor and tell him the ativan isnt working and maybe try clonazepam instead. Or bromazepam if you live in Canada. I get both and they work great for me bromazepam kicks in quicker but doesent last as long as clonaz. Is the zopiclone working at all?

You have to be assertive with these doctors. They are there to help you so make them help you. You also have to want to actually help yourself
 
paranoid android said:
I suffered like you because i was on invega and abilify for 2 goddamn years and didnt get anything resembling a hard on in that time.

In regards to akathisia dude its not going to get better on its own ffs. What are you waiting for god to come and help you? Go back to your fucking doctor and tell him the ativan isnt working and maybe try clonazepam instead. Or bromazepam if you live in Canada. I get both and they work great for me bromazepam kicks in quicker but doesent last as long as clonaz. Is the zopiclone working at all?

You have to be assertive with these doctors. They are there to help you so make them help you. You also have to want to actually help yourself
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Like I have to take benzos and fuck up myself always and make myself brain damage to cure my akathesia ? People get rid of akathesia after 3,4 months, but I still have it after 6 months, I have to deal with it with benzos until when? When I withdraw from benzos it’s gonna start again, it’s not gonna cure it, it just numbs it, I talked to my doctor and he said he already gave me Ativan he can’t give any benzos until next month unfortunately
 
moerez said:
Like I have to take benzos and fuck up myself always and make myself brain damage to cure my akathesia ? People get rid of akathesia after 3,4 months, but I still have it after 6 months, I have to deal with it with benzos until when? When I withdraw from benzos it’s gonna start again, it’s not gonna cure it, it just numbs it, I talked to my doctor and he said he already gave me Ativan he can’t give any benzos until next month unfortunately
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Dude your throwing around the word brain damage like it means something. It's just a word that people came up with to say weed gives you brain damage. Benzos do not cause brakn damage. They can raise your risk of dementia yes but i am willing to take that risk. Personally id choose benzos over akathesia or suicide for that matter. Benzos are only a problem if you run out of them if your dependent on them. Ive been on them about 20 years and ive had no problem except for when that sadist shrink made me go cold turkey in the psych ward

Your convincing yourself that nothing works. I dont know what to say really
 
So reading two posts you say you exist without joy, without pain, later you say you are also in pain? I believe you that you are suffering beyond anyone's comprehension; but dying won't make you any better only non-existent. You only FEEL non existent I know you exist at this moment.

Tell doc you want boner pills; u did not answer when I asked you had you tried them. Being dead will no\t make you feel better. Maybe you are unsuccessful as that definitely happens; so they put you in restraints and shoot you up with more anti-psycotics as they don't leave suicidal people to their own devices they put them in a psych ward for 72 hrs minimum. At least in USA.
 
lolis my thesis said:
So reading two posts you say you exist without joy, without pain, later you say you are also in pain? I believe you that you are suffering beyond anyone's comprehension; but dying won't make you any better only non-existent. You only FEEL non existent I know you exist at this moment.

Tell doc you want boner pills; u did not answer when I asked you had you tried them. Being dead will no\t make you feel better. Maybe you are unsuccessful as that definitely happens; so they put you in restraints and shoot you up with more anti-psycotics as they don't leave suicidal people to their own devices they put them in a psych ward for 72 hrs minimum. At least in USA.
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I suggested he try testosterone+cialis but hes convinced it wont work. Im on test and it made my sex drive go through the roof
 
I haven’t posted here in a while, I didn’t have much new to say, and the negativity here is draining, so I didn’t want to post. I’ve been taking brupropion for about a month now. At first I didn’t feel like it was doing anything but decided to give it a few weeks and right now I feel pretty good. I drank a coffee earlier today and actually started to feel anxious, caffeine is affecting me again. I’m still struggling with negative thoughts related to being in psychosis but it’s much better than it used to be. I’ve been doing good at work as well. It’s been 10 months since my last shot
 
Stress is poison for recovery. Recovery takes energy and stress is an energy thief.
Closing your eyes from time to time and just empty the mind without thinking anything. These breaks from stress might help in your recovery.
 
invegaloner said:
I haven’t posted here in a while, I didn’t have much new to say, and the negativity here is draining, so I didn’t want to post. I’ve been taking brupropion for about a month now. At first I didn’t feel like it was doing anything but decided to give it a few weeks and right now I feel pretty good. I drank a coffee earlier today and actually started to feel anxious, caffeine is affecting me again. I’m still struggling with negative thoughts related to being in psychosis but it’s much better than it used to be. I’ve been doing good at work as well. It’s been 10 months since my last shot
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How is brupopian helping you?
 
Gdvffh said:
Cialis is known for making your dick pernamently bigger.
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For real? Some guy on testosterone take cialis because it increases muscle tears and thus increases the overall anabolic effect. I may look into this even though i dont have ED at all now. But if i can increase the anabolic effect of the test then it may be the way to go. Except theres the cost thing
 
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