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What is your greatest regret?

Shambles

Shambles

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For me it’s never having children of my own. Don’t get me wrong, I adore my two stepchildren and to me they are absolutely the kids I never sired (whilst obviously remaining respectful of their biological father who died some years ago).

Other than that, there’s precious little I regret in life. Every experience I’ve had has created the person I am today: and I’m pretty goshdarn great as it happens =D

But what regrets do you have in life? Things you wish you’d done. Things you wish you hadn’t. Opportunities you missed. Paths you maybe shouldn’t have taken.

Spill yer guts here 😎
 
I guess I regret my lack of direction. Some people just know what they want to do in life and even if it's not immediately achievable they that goal in the back of their mind to keep them motivated but I got nothin. No particular career I aspire to or long term project to invest in.

I just kind of want to bimble about casually experiencing reality for as long as possible but the social and professional grind is, well, a grind.

I guess I regret not being born 10,000 years ago.

I could write something realer but it's too sad. Especially today.
 
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Shinji Ikari said:
I just kind of want to bimble about casually experiencing reality fair as long as possible…
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This describes me to a tee… only I honestly don’t regret it. I used to. I had major ambitions… but life has other plans. This used to seriously fuck with me; now not so much.

Part of me maybe wonders what could been, but most of me accepts it could never have been so why mourn it.

I’ve come to not only accept but actively embrace the fact that I am an experiencer of life more so than a participant.
 
Endured studying with Universities by obtained and a more detailed and extensive or extended educational background then the easy lax way out instead.
Even Though it all worked out. Education would have been an all the more intriguing path to choose.

Actually i regret making more of an effort to learn and study much more than I have and learn as much as possible in any situation that i am able to, with the best of my ability to make an effort as best as possible.

And presently that regret is recognizing this value of effort and deep learning as a part of a personal growth for me. And my regret indicates my high appreciation for all education, of which I should apply to any future learning opportunities from this point on. To keep trying.

So I guess, I regret being more Philosophical as well. Thanks. I tried.
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And not taking more medical focused classes in college at the time. So I do regret not having more intense focus on educational opportunities. And very much so.

Chemistry classes were so chaotic I enjoyed the mind so much more. However, it seems very much connected now.

Good Day !!
 
And also regret being so dyslexic.

O.P. I didn't realize that you posted this first.
I had originally though @ Shinji had started this Fringe.

It seems Shambles really does go deep at times in quite many ways and forms.

Thank you for the Thread. As always, good one !! K 👍

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stopping exercising, then stopping doing drugs and drinking instead when the drugs were much less harmful to me, it's ruined my body.

Have made so many mistakes in my life but I've learnt from them & they've made me who I am, I don't really regret any of them, life's too short for what ifs.
 
It's hard but life happens to everybody. So you being in reality about this and just feeling kind of uh about it is the healthy part of you just

recognizing it for what it is now.

It's healing power. The energy of healing coming in and just kind of breaking the spell. It is being very Charmed and is, you know, like a good and wonderful magic spell.

And you still have to keep that like really strong neutrality propriety around it. The energy of it. The energy of that like the unrequited love thing.

It's self respectful and it's healthy to, and was so. It can be Healing by just being and having the kind of friends who you could do that with and know we just can

have that close Bond with. And also be able to Laugh.
 
Mine is probably failing to get on a benzo script, following a severe nervous breakdown, when I believe that benzos were probably still available on repeat prescription in the early 90s*, when I was at Uni. My social anxiety was off the scale during that period, and I really desperately needed something to chill my brain out. (*A friend of mine who suffered panic attacks got prescribed diazepam on repeat prescription at that time.)

Without intending to sound conceited, it was quite clear that a number of female students were attracted to me at that time. But my anxiety always caused me to flee, or fail to act, when some really attractive females were giving me very clear signals that they wanted to engage or initiate something.

I think if I'd have had my anxiety under control, I could have taken much more advantage of many of the potential opportunities for one night stands, or something more long term.

I'd possibly have left Uni, with what turned out to be a useless degree, but maybe and much more importantly, a suitable or compatible partner, maybe even a partner for life. Given that there were thousands of young, free, and single women all around, with many of them looking for similar things. Things are so completely opposite today, and I can't deny that I deeply regret not acting on the signals from females that I found attractive and with good personalities at that time.

I definitely would not have 'played the right moves' in every case, even with benzos, but I probably would have at least tried to engage much more, and even though I'd definitely have dropped loads of clangers, and resultant failures, I'd have learnt from every clanger I'd inevitably have made, and probably would have had much more success over time.

I have no idea if ADHD scripts were also a thing back then, but that would certainly have helped too.

Being aware that I had AuDHD would also have been a huge benefit.

But it wasn't until the latest DSM that it was even considered possible to have both conditions. It was one or the other, never both. AuDHD was not even considered possible until maybe 5 to 10 years ago, when the latest DSM was published. And some people wonder why AuDHD diagnosis rates have shot up over recent years :roll eyes: . Mostly so called journalists and politicians, who have no real idea about the subject, it seems to me.
 
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I somehow don’t have any, I generally did what I could, nothing was stopping me from acting the way I was with the environment I lived in. I would of always wanted to take drugs if I felt like this and I can’t see how it would of been different when you have no idea what’s going on.

If anything it’s gotten no clearer. Nothing does make sense anyway. I’ve done what I’ve wanted to do and the only thing I had to learn was to make things sustainable but none of it matters anyway. Each day is the only opportunity. Waking up is like a dream.
 
Somethings in life are beyond our control. I believe a good life is doing your best with what you have. I recall a long stretch of time when all I could do was smoke cigarets, this gave me something to do with my hands and listen to music over the radio. Music helped me escape from myself. my thoughts and mental illness. It was the only thing I could relate to for many years. Socially I chose isolation over interacting with anyone, including my family. I missed out on being a responsible father and husband not by desire but by capability.

It's hard to remember the details because it was the same day after day for 30 yrs. The time I spent in the laundry room (because I smoked , I didn't go into the rest of our house until bedtime) My mother in-law lived with us on the first floor and my daughters, wife and myself slept upstairs on the second floor.

We moved into the house that my wife and mother in-law purchased in 1992 after caring for my father in-law until his passing that same year. I didn't go outside, I didn't do anything but sit in laundry room, smoking cigarets and listen to the radio...that was my life, that was all I could do. on that note, it was the best I could do and I don't regret doing my best.

When it is all said and done your achievements in life are measured by honest effort than by your success. You know the person you are, that is who answer to and have to live with.

I am who I am and for that distinction I am grateful.
 
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