Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

[okthen]

nah lmao took a few adderall pills months ago. Getting major improvement now so fuck it this is almost over again

It's really odd that all people I've seen recover once seem to recover again no problem. Would be interesting to see how @UnluckyXeplion gets on this time

 

[Ayden]

It's really odd that all people I've seen recover once seem to recover again no problem. Would be interesting to see how @UnluckyXeplion gets on this time

Did he/she get it more than once. Everyone will recover. That’s reality. Your brain isn’t going to allow something to possess it forever. It will do everything it can to return to normal. When you drink what happens you may feel like shit for a day after but you return to normal. Same with street drugs. This poison is just so dangerous should not be given to any human such a crime that needs to be changed.

 

[okthen]

Did he/she get it more than once. Everyone will recover. That’s reality. Your brain isn’t going to allow something to possess it forever. It will do everything it can to return to normal. When you drink what happens you may feel like shit for a day after but you return to normal. Same with street drugs. This poison is just so dangerous should not be given to any human such a crime that needs to be changed.

Yer, he recovered a lot the first time then got more again. Think he said he's worse off this time than last time. It's such a crazy drug, literally disables you. I don't even bother reading or replying to people messaging me since, just no interest in interaction whatsoever. Hopefully because you noticed improvement rapidly one day you will continue to improve rapidly till normal

 

[InvegaAnon]

I did something stupid and I laughed really hard about it. I am stoned tho.

I think I get as high as before, it's just missing the upper emotion/pleasure dimension.

 

[Ayden]

I can get drunk asf idk what that means

 

[paranoid android]

I was high yesterday and it wasnt pleasurable. I started using a 73% thc cart last few days and the high is kinda there but its missing euphoria and pleasure but I did notice my delusions were starting to come out again. I got rid of the thc pen and cart today. Not risking another psychotic episode.

Interesting i have never actually seen psychosis triggered by weed. The stupid shrink i had in the psych ward was saying for awiile that i might have had weed psychosis but she scrapped that diagnoses. She also diagnosed someone else in there with it but turned out he had quite the meth habit

I had temporary psychosis and cotards syndrome but weed or concentrates, psychedelics and s ketamine dont seem to trigger it in me. Even doing loads of IV coke didnt. When i first developed cotards syndrome i stopped smoking weed and taking all my meds including the klonopin and morphine. That was when my brother knew something ws seriously wrong with me. I think my thinking was that dead people dont need drugs.

In your case though if you do smoke weed maybe just smoke flower? I dont find concentrates to be any better then regular old hash anyway. Actually ive had black hash that was better then shatter

 

[paranoid android]

I can get drunk asf idk what that means

I didnt drink on invega as i was in the psych ward but i had no problem drinking on abilify injections

 

[fenec]

Sorry, it's weird for a man to say that and some people are legit crazy on here. People can say some really weird shit that has no basis in reality.

Yes I understand we don't know each other and it's true that we're on a forum a bit ... you understood what even in psychiatry a nurse had told me you look lucid what are you doing here lol, there's no worries I can understand sorry also it's my way of talking but there's nothing twisted in what I told you

 

[fenec]

I can get drunk asf idk what that means

Well I said I was leaving but now I can't help it lol I like the embiance of the forum here, the last time was in the evening I drank a bottle of red wine it was a great vintage I watched videos tiktok with music I was stoned I move the head I was deep in delirium I was stoned lol after I put myself in bed I saw troube is all ptdr I was completely stoned while never beginning withdrawal it would have done that to me

 

[InvegaAnon]

I was high yesterday and it wasnt pleasurable. I started using a 73% thc cart last few days and the high is kinda there but its missing euphoria and pleasure but I did notice my delusions were starting to come out again. I got rid of the thc pen and cart today. Not risking another psychotic episode.

Yeah, just don't. I shouldn't be smoking continuously like I have been either, if I get psychosis from withdrawl. It's so easy to not smoke or eat edibles when there isn't so much just laying around and literally free. My dad grew his own and it's ready to be consumed.

 

[fenec]

Yeah, just don't. I shouldn't be smoking continuously like I have been either, if I get psychosis from withdrawl. It's so easy to not smoke or eat edibles when there isn't so much just laying around and literally free. My dad grew his own and it's ready to be consumed.

I prefer to drink wine because cannabis cost me psychosis even if I smoke too much and could have a lower consumption I prefer not to take the risk, I listen to snoop dog with wine lol

 

[wbga]

Anyway who wants to tell me how many months off INVEGA they are and how they’re feeling.

I am 4 months off.

I can feel that I am gradually improving from worst state.

I had constant suicidal thoughts until 3 months.

No motivation, bed ridden, hard to make sentence properly, depresssed all day especially in the morning, panic attack for 2 months,

No libido, hard to breathe (for some reason I can only breathe through mouth), weight increase, pronunciation problem etc


I had more symptoms but I can't remember now.

as of 4 months off, I have 50% motivation is back about life. I can't still get up in the morning quickly but there is urge to learn new things etc.

My logical thinking has come back but I am too realistic and pessimistic about future, opposite to the guy with full of hope about future I was pre invega.

I for 4 months I was totally depressed that I will live a low life forever as if I am in a bad trip for long term. It felt like I have no future and hope to climb up societal ladder, as if there is invisible glass roof top of me preventing me from going up. I had no hope about learning new things because of my age which is 29 as of now. It is not too old age but it is definitely relatively old age to go for college or anything to try new.

I think the reason we find depression would be different according to individual situation we are in. For me, it was the future that made me worried even though I knew that depression was coming from invega blocking my dopamine and serotonin receptors that's causing me to feel unreasonable depresssion. And my brain or mind was trying to make sense of why I am feeling depressed, and found the reality that I have not enough skills to live off this world right now and stick with that reason and convinced me that depression is coming from this worry.

I was confused for 3 months because even though I knew that it is not easy to live in this reality because of money problems etc but I didn't have such pessimistic view about my life and future. I always thought that I will have solution all the time if I try, but now it felt like I will be homeless or that I would never find solution to life anymore.

I never compared to celebrities or rich people out there thinking I am living miserable life, I never did this but right after invega shots I was unconsciously comparing myself to my situation with those blessed. It was life loophole of miserable thinking I have never experienced in my life before. Until pre invega I didn't really understand how people can compare and live miserable life.

Also I have some of insomnia symptoms as well which I never experienced in my life either. It is weird feeling that my body is tired and sleepy but my mind is conscious that closing eyes doesn't help falling into sleep.

Time to time I can't breathe comfortably. It is semi panic attack life feeling. It is almost like brain is immitating panic attack with my breathing or something. After this I get more worrying thoughts.

But I am experiencing more improvements on my depression caused by invega. I am trying to learn web development myself even though I am doubting still. I can communicate with people with a lot more emotions. I have more libido than before even though I still have such a low sex drive.

I still have worry but I am more positive every month. I don't have suicidal thoughts, I have more motivation to do something (compared to past), women don't seem like potato anymore which means I am gaining healthy perspective about the world, my cognitive ability has recovered 90 percent. I like watching movies and youtube but of course it is less enjoyable feeling compared to pre invega. I lost 10 pounds which before I gained 20 pounds due to invega.

I am definitely improving a lot. I look normal from outside. It's just my inner depression and fear that has to overcome with time.

 

[fenec]

I am 4 months off.

I can feel that I am gradually improving from worst state.

I had constant suicidal thoughts until 3 months.

No motivation, bed ridden, hard to make sentence properly, depresssed all day especially in the morning, panic attack for 2 months,

No libido, hard to breathe (for some reason I can only breathe through mouth), weight increase, pronunciation problem etc


I had more symptoms but I can't remember now.

as of 4 months off, I have 50% motivation is back about life. I can't still get up in the morning quickly but there is urge to learn new things etc.

My logical thinking has come back but I am too realistic and pessimistic about future, opposite to the guy with full of hope about future I was pre invega.

I for 4 months I was totally depressed that I will live a low life forever as if I am in a bad trip for long term. It felt like I have no future and hope to climb up societal ladder, as if there is invisible glass roof top of me preventing me from going up. I had no hope about learning new things because of my age which is 29 as of now. It is not too old age but it is definitely relatively old age to go for college or anything to try new.

I think the reason we find depression would be different according to individual situation we are in. For me, it was the future that made me worried even though I knew that depression was coming from invega blocking my dopamine and serotonin receptors that's causing me to feel unreasonable depresssion. And my brain or mind was trying to make sense of why I am feeling depressed, and found the reality that I have not enough skills to live off this world right now and stick with that reason and convinced me that depression is coming from this worry.

I was confused for 3 months because even though I knew that it is not easy to live in this reality because of money problems etc but I didn't have such pessimistic view about my life and future. I always thought that I will have solution all the time if I try, but now it felt like I will be homeless or that I would never find solution to life anymore.

I never compared to celebrities or rich people out there thinking I am living miserable life, I never did this but right after invega shots I was unconsciously comparing myself to my situation with those blessed. It was life loophole of miserable thinking I have never experienced in my life before. Until pre invega I didn't really understand how people can compare and live miserable life.

Also I have some of insomnia symptoms as well which I never experienced in my life either. It is weird feeling that my body is tired and sleepy but my mind is conscious that closing eyes doesn't help falling into sleep.

Time to time I can't breathe comfortably. It is semi panic attack life feeling. It is almost like brain is immitating panic attack with my breathing or something. After this I get more worrying thoughts.

But I am experiencing more improvements on my depression caused by invega. I am trying to learn web development myself even though I am doubting still. I can communicate with people with a lot more emotions. I have more libido than before even though I still have such a low sex drive.

I still have worry but I am more positive every month. I don't have suicidal thoughts, I have more motivation to do something (compared to past), women don't seem like potato anymore which means I am gaining healthy perspective about the world, my cognitive ability has recovered 90 percent. I like watching movies and youtube but of course it is less enjoyable feeling compared to pre invega. I lost 10 pounds which before I gained 20 pounds due to invega.

I am definitely improving a lot. I look normal from outside. It's just my inner depression and fear that has to overcome with time.

You'll make it

 

[LuiBliss]

I ain’t goin through this again. Time to get rich

Yooo, get rich bro, its 100% possible.

Check out this video I just shot and you will know what I mean!

This has nothing to do with the topic - PA

 

[okthen]

I was high yesterday and it wasnt pleasurable. I started using a 73% thc cart last few days and the high is kinda there but its missing euphoria and pleasure but I did notice my delusions were starting to come out again. I got rid of the thc pen and cart today. Not risking another psychotic episode.

Just wondering for myself, do you only get delusions while high? Or do they get to a point that they become long lasting even while sober?

 

[Youwillrecover]

I was high yesterday and it wasnt pleasurable. I started using a 73% thc cart last few days and the high is kinda there but its missing euphoria and pleasure but I did notice my delusions were starting to come out again. I got rid of the thc pen and cart today. Not risking another psychotic episode.

I love weed soo much but bro thats why you use normal weed with cbd in it cause its antipsychotic which make it safe. These high thc cart are abolition to the Jah creation. Use normal weed Brother. It helps me a lot to soothe the depression after these dehumanising experience.

 

[Youwillrecover]

Guys soon im sueing them. Im in the moment where i try to delete the diagnosis. They were diagnosing my anxiety/cptsd as paranoid schizophrenia and forcing me on these injections despite the fact that i wasnt psychotic. What saved me was the fact that im in Poland and that's why im not on forced injections outside the hospital. In western countries i would be put on community treatment order which is disgusting evil ways of babilon system. That's why i will speak publicly about it. They dehumanise and push people to suicide with these strong chemicals. I Believe in God so i will take it as a lesson from the Universe but please God never let me end in their evil hands. I will do anything to expose the story publicly so lives will be saved. I trully plan to speak about it in mainstream media. Totally healthy guy with paranoid schizophrenia diagnosis. I worry about others thats why i will do it. All love. Believe in God guys he is real. New Testament Bhagavad Gita Koran its all god creation. Pray and love others i will forgive the psychiatrists but what they do is evil so i need to expose it. Im 8 months off and i feel much better. Imma make full recovery in one year Mark. Indica weed helps me the most.

 

[LuiBliss]

Yooo, get rich bro, its 100% possible.

Check out this video I just shot and you will know what I mean!

This has nothing to do with the topic - PA

Note to mod: I know that with the belief that you will recover you can lead a beautiful life, so i shared the video of Law of Attraction because it is a concept that people can relate to.

Whether you or on meds or not, you can benefit from it since it is not a hopeless case at all. And that is discussed in the video.

 

[InvegaFreak1]

SEROQUEL BLOWS COCK ANYBODY ELSE ON IT????? I HAVE TAKEN IT FOR SEVERAL MONTHS AND STILL NOTHING SAME VISUAL HALLUCINATIONS AND THEY JUST WONT STOP. I’VE BEEN ON IT TO REDUCE SIDE EFFECTS FROM THE INVEGA. 2 years this December I’ve been on it

 

[wbga]

I'm 19 months off. I have everything I used to have, just a little less of it. I related to your "meatsack with eyes" statement. After that, I felt like a dumb child with no feelings. Now I feel very intelligent like before and my thoughts spiderweb like they used to, but not as much. It's easy to find words and make connections again, but it's like it takes longer for information to "click" and reach a conclusion. It's a little harder to feel out what information "means". My pattern recognition is a little worse but it's there. I don't feel like I'm an order of magnitude below my old mind anymore. If I lost IQ points, I maybe lost 5 rather than 20. I feel like "the smartest person in the room" again. I was never a genius but I was in the "gifted" range when I had my IQ tested when I was 6 and I was reading at an adult level in 5th grade. I felt really bad about how stupid and intellectually blind I felt, how I couldn't remember anything or recall uncommon words I liked to use sometimes. My intelligence was a defining characteristic of mine for my whole life and I'm so happy I have it back.

The most difficult thing I had to deal with was my loss of sexuality and the numbing of my nervous system. I now have richer sensory experiences even though it's not exactly the same as before. My genitals aren't numb. My orgasms are pleasurable and a lot of the time masturbation is pleasurable in general, I just need a vibrator to do it. My libido is still very low and that's the main problem I have now. It makes me feel unlike myself. I would try having sex if I could, but I don't have anyone I'm attracted to living nearby and I'm never attracted to people I don't know really well.

I was an artist before this, but now it's hard to find inspiration, but inspiration does come, I just don't do anything with it (this has always been a problem because I have problems initiating tasks because of ADHD and autism). I feel less connected to the world, but I do feel connected to it. I love being outside again and going to beautiful places.

I feel for people, but not as much as before. Old me would have been completely flattened by what is happening in Gaza and Ukraine but now I shed a few tears about it and move on. It sort of makes me feel like a horrible person, that I'm "just like them", the soulless people I hate who can't bother to care. But I love my niece so much it makes me cry. I couldn't connect to her, I didn't feel what I knew I should feel towards children in my family. That's what you do with babies, you love them unconditionally and want to protect them to the point of anxiety, but I just didn't feel that way. I couldn't connect to anybody and it was so scary. I didn't care about anything at all, not even the fact that my death would make my friends and family sad. If I had a handgun, suicide would have been easy. Now I don't feel suicidal unless my PMDD acts up.

I'm capable of getting a job now. I don't feel slow and I don't think I give the impression that I'm slow anymore when I think I did. I don't think I'll have an art career anymore though, unless something changes with my creativity.

It's going to be different. But it's going to be ok. That's where I'm at.

Do you get the interests you had on certain subjects?

I lost all the interests about subjects that I used to love digging.

I feel no interest at all.