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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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@Ayden if I'm not mistaken from reading through the threads you recovered from invega before? Now you're doing the same for haldol? Does it feel the same for both time frame wise to you? Anything feel different this time?
 
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Salut tout le monde sa fait maintenant 4 moi s que j'ai arrêter invega je me sens légèrement mieu jai recommencer à faire du shadow boxing, je travaille que la technique pour le moment mais je ne fait pas de cardio et de la muscu pour le moment parce que je n'y arrive pas mais j'ai fait des progrès quand même en se moment je prend 2 compliments allimentaire zinc et magnésium que j'ai acheter directement à la pharmacie je n'aurais pas du la prochaine fois je les commenderais en ligne sur un scite qui vend des compléments naturelle en 4 mois ma libido c'est légèrement améliorer je vous tien au courent le mois prochain prenez soin de vous et si vous voulez parler de invega avec moi ajouter moi sur Snapchat ou Instagram
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I got a new phone and I transferred some contacts, but I lost my new friend's number and I have no other way of contacting her. I cried about it, we liked each other. She's a huge Star Wars fan and I really like it when people are into something like that and can talk about it for hours.


I also cried when I thought about a friend of mine being vaporized in a nuclear bomb. They live near a military target and they have anxiety so of course they thought about that and brought it up to me before. I thought I wouldn't feel much but I'm relieved that I can actually care about people again.
 
Man Invega really fucked my brain up so badly that I have this idea in my head where pre Invega I was euphoric and happy all the time when I know that's not really true. So I have this idea that i'm not truly recovered until i feel euphoric and happy all the time. Normal people are not euphoric 24/7 but in my defense, I feel dead inside and life is grey and anhedonic so anything better than this state would be considered euphoric for me. I lost touch with who I was pre Invega . I have completely forgotten what normal life was like that I'm not sure if I would be even be able to tell when I have fully recovered, I suppose if I feel better than what I feel now would be a benchmark to see if I'm recovered but Invega left me so damaged that I doubt I would even be able to tell. Anyone else feel the same?
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
Man Invega really fucked my brain up so badly that I have this idea in my head where pre Invega I was euphoric and happy all the time when I know that's not really true. So I have this idea that i'm not truly recovered until i feel euphoric and happy all the time. Normal people are not euphoric 24/7 but in my defense, I feel dead inside and life is grey and anhedonic so anything better than this state would be considered euphoric for me. I lost touch with who I was pre Invega . I have completely forgotten what normal life was like that I'm not sure if I would be even be able to tell when I have fully recovered, I suppose if I feel better than what I feel now would be a benchmark to see if I'm recovered but Invega left me so damaged that I doubt I would even be able to tell. Anyone else feel the same?
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I'd just use activity levels of a kinda benchmark, no? Like before I'd wake up at 7, shower brush teeth and be out by 8, get home around 4 then go do some sport till late. In spare time hang out outside with people.

Currently I wake at 9 and do NOTHING, don't want to talk to anyone. I occasionally go for walks or to family's, to again, do NOTHING.

It feels stuff would naturally just flow before, with no effort/thought needed to get through days
 
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I'd just use activity levels of a kinda benchmark, no? Like before I'd wake up at 7, shower brush teeth and be out by 8, get home around 4 then go do some sport till late. In spare time hang out outside with people.

Currently I wake at 9 and do NOTHING, don't want to talk to anyone. I occasionally go for walks or to family's, to again, do NOTHING.

It feels stuff would naturally just flow before, with no effort/thought needed to get through days
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thats a good benchmark. Before invega I had a whole ass routine that consisted of working, exercising, hanging out with family and friends and doing hobbies. Now i sleep for 10-12 hours do nothing but stay in my bed watching youtube then go to sleep. Thats pretty much my routine for the last 14 months. If I feel better to find a job and have a routine thats different than doing nothing all day I guess thats when I can say i fully recovered.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
thats a good benchmark. Before invega I had a whole ass routine that consisted of working, exercising, hanging out with family and friends and doing hobbies. Now i sleep for 10-12 hours do nothing but stay in my bed watching youtube then go to sleep. Thats pretty much my routine for the last 14 months. If I feel better to find a job and have a routine thats different than doing nothing all day I guess thats when I can say i fully recovered.
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How is watching YouTube for you? I used to binge watch almost anything at night, now I can't even open the app. Did it take some time for you to start watching it?
 
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How is watching YouTube for you? I used to binge watch almost anything at night, now I can't even open the app. Did it take some time for you to start watching it?
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It's honestly the only thing I do, it doesn't give me any joy or pleasure consuming videos but It's better than the alternative which was staring at my wall all day. I was a youtube addict since 2011 and when I was injected with invega I left youtube for 3 months but slowly started using it again and its now all I pretty much consume.
 
Hey everyone just checking in. I was able to log into this old account. I have another account Kiaf852. I was locked out of this one and tried to log back in, so that I could go through my messages with Bojana. I can’t believe this month will mark six months since her passing. I just want to wish everyone good luck. I just want to serve as a reminder that healing 100 percent is possible. I have healed. I will continue to pop in from time to time.
 
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Hey everyone just checking in. I was able to log into this old account. I have another account Kiaf852. I was locked out of this one and tried to log back in, so that I could go through my messages with Bojana. I can’t believe this month will mark six months since her passing. I just want to wish everyone good luck. I just want to serve as a reminder that healing 100 percent is possible. I have healed. I will continue to pop in from time to time.
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Thanks for coming back and checking in! Just wondering, do you consider that you've healed because your doing all the things you used to do, or is it more of a being able to feel that you're better?
 
Finally having emotions about the world again.

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE AI, IT HAS SERIOUS IMPLICATIONS FOR THE ECONOMY, HUMAN CREATIVITY, COPYRIGHT, JOB SECURITY, AND I JUST VICIOUSLY HATE IT AS AN ARTIST.

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH THERE'S MORE THAN ONE GENOCIDE AND THE US IS COMPLICIT IN ONE OF THEM DURING AN ELECTION YEAR.

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH ALL OF EARTH'S CORAL REEFS ARE GOING TO DIE.

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THE THREAT OF NUCLEAR WAR IS THE HIGHEST IT HAS BEEN IN MY LIFE.

thanks global crisis, i feel alive again!
 
What's everyone's thoughts on these "windows"? Have you all experienced them? How long was it till your first one? I seen some time like @t_xeplionhell mention his progress has always been gradual, that mean not experiencing the "windows"?
 
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What's everyone's thoughts on these "windows"? Have you all experienced them? How long was it till your first one? I seen some time like @t_xeplionhell mention his progress has always been gradual, that mean not experiencing the "windows"?
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I wouldn't use xeplionhell as an example for recovery. His story is shady . I was reading V4 and saw him comment about huge recovery milestones month after month but he comes here 4 years later and says he recovered 40-50% and still suffers from anhedonia.
 
Libido window!

I definitely think my clitoris atrophied but there are options for treatment, especially when you're young. It stopped shrinking. If I can grow new tissue I think I'll get sensitivity back. Search results say you can't fix it but Reddit posts from real people say otherwise! I saw someone repair her clitoris after lichen sclerosis made it almost dissapear. Some people got good results with just estrogen cream. Topical testasterone will be my last resort due to hormonal imbalance, but it's something I wanted to do anyway in the future.
 
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