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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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Also, my metabolism has slowed down and I've gained 34 lbs that I cannot lose. Exercising and eating less do not help. I can't really exercise because I'm drugged harshly, but I eat like 1500 calories and lay down most of the time. My weight has increased when it shouldn't have.

I don't understand why I have this heavy feeling sensation while nobody else on these threads has reported something like that.

It's beyond awful and very demotivating. I want to feel like myself for once, but instead I'm trapped inside my body. There is no help either. Jesus man, I'd never wish this upon anyone.

nohope said:
i dont have any hope i am 13 months nothing has changed i dont think you can recover from this
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For me, I've experienced so many changes and drugs changing in my body, but for the past year I'm dealing with really uncomfortable heaviness. Several months ago, it was almost like someone with a remote control was changing the drugs in my body, but right now I'm dealing with something constant for the past 5-6 months, where I feel very heavy, with no libido, and very low adrenaline.

I'm really tired of being in this state, and it's really inhumane for me to continue living like this. I'm not acting out of line and not doing anything anymore to be drugged like this.

This is beyond cruel and very unfair.
 
masamune1 said:
Also, my metabolism has slowed down and I've gained 34 lbs that I cannot lose. Exercising and eating less do not help. I can't really exercise because I'm drugged harshly, but I eat like 1500 calories and lay down most of the time. My weight has increased when it shouldn't have.

I don't understand why I have this heavy feeling sensation while nobody else on these threads has reported something like that.

It's beyond awful and very demotivating. I want to feel like myself for once, but instead I'm trapped inside my body. There is no help either. Jesus man, I'd never wish this upon anyone.



For me, I've experienced so many changes and drugs changing in my body, but for the past year I'm dealing with really uncomfortable heaviness. Several months ago, it was almost like someone with a remote control was changing the drugs in my body, but right now I'm dealing with something constant for the past 5-6 months, where I feel very heavy, with no libido, and very low adrenaline.

I'm really tired of being in this state, and it's really inhumane for me to continue living like this. I'm not acting out of line and not doing anything anymore to be drugged like this.

This is beyond cruel and very unfair.
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Do you still taking any other meds?
 
masamune1 said:
Also, my metabolism has slowed down and I've gained 34 lbs that I cannot lose. Exercising and eating less do not help. I can't really exercise because I'm drugged harshly, but I eat like 1500 calories and lay down most of the time. My weight has increased when it shouldn't have.

I don't understand why I have this heavy feeling sensation while nobody else on these threads has reported something like that.

It's beyond awful and very demotivating. I want to feel like myself for once, but instead I'm trapped inside my body. There is no help either. Jesus man, I'd never wish this upon anyone.



For me, I've experienced so many changes and drugs changing in my body, but for the past year I'm dealing with really uncomfortable heaviness. Several months ago, it was almost like someone with a remote control was changing the drugs in my body, but right now I'm dealing with something constant for the past 5-6 months, where I feel very heavy, with no libido, and very low adrenaline.

I'm really tired of being in this state, and it's really inhumane for me to continue living like this. I'm not acting out of line and not doing anything anymore to be drugged like this.

This is beyond cruel and very unfair.
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it is truly evil and cruel, i dont see a way out from this , like you said its inhumane , everything about living has gone what is the point anymore, i dont sleep anymore dead inside
 
From the way things are going, I don't think I'll ever have recovery and feel normal again. Living has gotten tougher.

My penis is contracted and not loose which bothers me and is uncomfortable.

Things like having a bowel movement are also nasty and uncomfortable. Since my metabolism has slown down, it's been harder to expel my entire stool and clean up is dirty.

My weight has increased 34 lbs even though I'm barely eating. I've just gotten sick of food.

My body feels heavy and my neck muscles get stiff in a seated position.

I have no libido, no sex drive, and no motivation.

I have barely any adrenaline and I don't get adrenaline rushes.

I have low energy levels and I lay in bed most of the day.

All my pants don't fit and I'm with pajamas all day since it's loose clothing.

And if you don't believe this shit, this is AT MONTH 20. I've SUFFERED so damn much.

I don't know what to do, the feeling of this being permanent is in the back of my mind. I read posts here daily and it's even more discouraging.

I should not be drugged like this at this point in time. I can't do anything! Whoever is doing this to me is a cruel monster.
 
masamune1 said:
No, I don't. I feel like absolute garbage. I want my life back.
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Full recovery is bs. Nobody recovers fully, and if they say so, then they probably forgot how they were before.
It's impossible to fully recover from this poison.
I'm myself getting Clopixol 150mg injections now every 2 weeks and waiting to get off.
Hopefully I'll recover to the same degree that I did before Clopixol.
 
UnluckyXeplion said:
Full recovery is bs. Nobody recovers fully, and if they say so, then they probably forgot how they were before.
It's impossible to fully recover from this poison.
I'm myself getting Clopixol 150mg injections now every 2 weeks and waiting to get off.
Hopefully I'll recover to the same degree that I did before Clopixol.
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No, I actually do believe in people recovering. It is not hard to determine and feel whether or not you are back to your old self. But I'm probably going to be one of the unlucky ones and not get a recovery, which is stupid because I'm not acting psychotic anymore and these symptoms are LIFE SHORTERNING. I have high cholesterol! My blood sugar is high too at 108 on my last blood test!

This needs to come to an end. This is some sick form of torture.
 
nohope said:
no sleep i havent slept since november 2022 before injections
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Wow that is along time not to sleep. Do you get short sleeps or no sleep at all? I'm on sleeping pills but im tapering off, just wondering if insomnia will hit me. Always hope for the best. Take care.
 
UnluckyXeplion said:
Full recovery is bs. Nobody recovers fully, and if they say so, then they probably forgot how they were before.
It's impossible to fully recover from this poison.
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I did recover from it. Before, I was a mess, for quite a while.

I still take psych meds though, but they work pretty well. Meds aren't the answer anyway, not really. Sometimes they're needed, like in my case. They help set the stage for me to make social connections, basically.
 
masamune1 said:
To anyone reading this, it's been 20 months for me and I am not fully recovered. I am really discouraged by this, to read people recover in about a year while I have to suffer this long.

I currently feel really heavy especially in a seated position. This heaviness is something I struggled with this entire time. I also have numbness in my penis and low libido, and feelings of no adrenaline. I stay in bed mostly because I'm very tired.

At this point, I'm scared and terrified of these mystery drugs, and I greatly fear that I will be drugged forever.

I have low energy levels and just feel like total garbage. Is it possible I'll ever recover? I'm well beyond a year. My life is horrible.
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How many injections did you get ?
 
9 month update since the last shot: back in January of 2024 I had insomnia for 3 weeks so I didn’t sleep at all and felt like a zombie, that has now recovered where I can sleep a solid 7-8 hours. I still don’t feel tired other than in the mornings if I lack sleep. I also still can’t nap yet. I have started to shower and brush my teeth daily where as before i couldn’t force myself to for multiple days. In terms of music, before this it was sounding flat and now it is pleasurable, is it the same? Im not sure but it def hits however I’m unmotivated to listen to it and my taste of music has changed, maybe because I didn’t listen to it for a long time. In terms of sexual function, I have a light sensation when I orgasm now and can feel my heart pumping but my penis still has numbness to a degree. Also in terms of penis length, one thing I’ve noticed is the size hasn’t changed really, it has just been covered by fat on the pubic bone making it look smaller but after pushing the fat away and measuring it is the same size as before the shot. FYI I gained 40ish pounds since last January and it has now slowed down. My sex drive is also still 0 but sometimes I can get partial boners from thinking of certain things but it’s not like I’m horny when i see an attractive girl. My morning wood has also come back in December for a week and then stopped, came back for another week recently and then stopped again so no clue what that is. my imagination is also not as sharp as what it used to be, kinda difficult to play scenarios in my head. In terms of emotions, I can cry and tear up in certain circumstances but I don’t have that deep feeling, still no feeling of love for others but in my mind I do. I still don’t have adrenaline(had it for the first time while watching action tv where I felt my heart racing), anger and aggression are blunted to a degree and at the same time I don’t feel any deep depression. I also don’t experience stress, anxiety or worry. Additionally, I still don’t have that strong desire to do things(motivation) and I rather force myself to go for walks etc..Another thing I noticed is my body specifically my back is sore upon waking and this perhaps could be attributed to all the laying down. I also noticed that on walks my feet start to hurt 20 min in and this could be because I haven’t been active in a long time or I am overweight. In terms of strength, I don’t feel as strong still but that can be both the medication and lack of gym. Others have also made the observation that my speech has improved significantly where as before I was quiet and blank minded and now I can hold a conversation, can ask questions and speak at a normal pace. I also can laugh at good comedy. In terms of intelligence I feel slower especially come to maths, but it is building back up I think. To add to this, I have tried nicotine vape recently and can get a morning head rush which I couldnt before and feel alcohol much better than in December. While this is not a good comparison, in December I had 5 beers after eating in an hour and felt no buzz and the other night I had 1 beer on an empty stomach and felt a slight buzz. Obviously hard liquor works much better. Will not be trying weed ever so can’t speak in that because there is no way I want to end up in the ward. Lastly my anhedonia is Significantly better. Initially I couldn’t cut grass, go on walks, enjoy time with my dog, watch tv shows or YouTube , or play video games. I am able to do all those things now and stay entertained throughout the day. If you have any questions feel free to ask, good luck everyone, I have you guys in my mind.
 
Just wanted to add 2 things. My washroom schedule has changed where I don’t go until the middle of the day or later in the day vs before I would religiously go every morning. Also dreams are back but I don’t have them every night.
 
Robchanna said:
9 month update since the last shot: back in January of 2024 I had insomnia for 3 weeks so I didn’t sleep at all and felt like a zombie, that has now recovered where I can sleep a solid 7-8 hours. I still don’t feel tired other than in the mornings if I lack sleep. I also still can’t nap yet. I have started to shower and brush my teeth daily where as before i couldn’t force myself to for multiple days. In terms of music, before this it was sounding flat and now it is pleasurable, is it the same? Im not sure but it def hits however I’m unmotivated to listen to it and my taste of music has changed, maybe because I didn’t listen to it for a long time. In terms of sexual function, I have a light sensation when I orgasm now and can feel my heart pumping but my penis still has numbness to a degree. Also in terms of penis length, one thing I’ve noticed is the size hasn’t changed really, it has just been covered by fat on the pubic bone making it look smaller but after pushing the fat away and measuring it is the same size as before the shot. FYI I gained 40ish pounds since last January and it has now slowed down. My sex drive is also still 0 but sometimes I can get partial boners from thinking of certain things but it’s not like I’m horny when i see an attractive girl. My morning wood has also come back in December for a week and then stopped, came back for another week recently and then stopped again so no clue what that is. my imagination is also not as sharp as what it used to be, kinda difficult to play scenarios in my head. In terms of emotions, I can cry and tear up in certain circumstances but I don’t have that deep feeling, still no feeling of love for others but in my mind I do. I still don’t have adrenaline(had it for the first time while watching action tv where I felt my heart racing), anger and aggression are blunted to a degree and at the same time I don’t feel any deep depression. I also don’t experience stress, anxiety or worry. Additionally, I still don’t have that strong desire to do things(motivation) and I rather force myself to go for walks etc..Another thing I noticed is my body specifically my back is sore upon waking and this perhaps could be attributed to all the laying down. I also noticed that on walks my feet start to hurt 20 min in and this could be because I haven’t been active in a long time or I am overweight. In terms of strength, I don’t feel as strong still but that can be both the medication and lack of gym. Others have also made the observation that my speech has improved significantly where as before I was quiet and blank minded and now I can hold a conversation, can ask questions and speak at a normal pace. I also can laugh at good comedy. In terms of intelligence I feel slower especially come to maths, but it is building back up I think. To add to this, I have tried nicotine vape recently and can get a morning head rush which I couldnt before and feel alcohol much better than in December. While this is not a good comparison, in December I had 5 beers after eating in an hour and felt no buzz and the other night I had 1 beer on an empty stomach and felt a slight buzz. Obviously hard liquor works much better. Will not be trying weed ever so can’t speak in that because there is no way I want to end up in the ward. Lastly my anhedonia is Significantly better. Initially I couldn’t cut grass, go on walks, enjoy time with my dog, watch tv shows or YouTube , or play video games. I am able to do all those things now and stay entertained throughout the day. If you have any questions feel free to ask, good luck everyone, I have you guys in my mind.
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Are you still on any other meds?
Thanks for sharing.
 
Finally played video games for the first time in almost 5 months! I could concentrate fully and not feel it was pointless. I never thought I'd play anything ever again going through this but here we are. I have a headache from it too, which I hope is some repairs going on in my brain.
 
UnluckyXeplion said:
Full recovery is bs. Nobody recovers fully, and if they say so, then they probably forgot how they were before.
It's impossible to fully recover from this poison.
I'm myself getting Clopixol 150mg injections now every 2 weeks and waiting to get off.
Hopefully I'll recover to the same degree that I did before Clopixol.
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You said to me in dms you fully recovered almost from invega what happened u saying this now? You need to get off that awful CTO beg them
 
Most days my brain is good but lately it's feeling weird in the frontal lobe. Kinda like a headache but it's not a headache. Does anyone else get this and does it go away?
 
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