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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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0898_ said:
Hi everyone!

I’m new here. Was in a psych ward for two weeks for a two day drug induced psychosis and they put me on oral Palperidone then after two weeks they said I could go home but needed an injection first which I would have to get from a nurse every month.

By Feb/ March I was horribly anxious/ pacing/ couldn’t watch TV read books or listen to music. If someone called me on the phone or if I was with them my throat would close up and I couldn’t talk, but also I had nothing on my mind - nothing to say.

Weirdly I got an 9-6 office job and was able to do that each day and do a stressful commute but I was motivated by money and having an income.

By June this year I had googled my symptoms and worked out it was the meds so I stopped getting the injections.

I begged my psychiatrist to let me stop them, I told her it was ruining my entire life and she said I could switch to alpiprizole pills. I got the prescription filled but never took the pills. A month later the psych tried to push me into getting the injections of it and I point blank refused. I only see her every 3 months.

Anyway! Currently on month four and a half without the Palperidone. I’m MUCH better! I can talk, laugh, have a conversation make jokes and drink wine and get a buzz. My memory is better and I have more motivation to go to the store. I’m pretty lazy at tidying my apartment but then I always was.

I’ve bought new make up (I am making an effort about my appearance) and whilst I can’t cry yet at least I can laugh. I can also feel hunger and appreciate beauty and I feel happy when I’m with my family and friends.

This weekend I have been to the beach both days and swam and chilled and I can read and watch TV again.

I don’t get so bored now either. I’ve switched my work contract to working from home but I’m able to get up and work at my laptop. Best of all! NO pacing!

I’m gonna switch psychs. Mine says I have to be on APs for a couple of years - it’s their standard protocol. She doesn’t know I’m not taking the Alprprizole (Albify) so if I go in there in Nov in full make up, chatting away and making jokes and small talk she’ll either think she’s a brilliant doctor or if all her patients are anxious chain smoking zombies so will know something is up.

Anyway! Any advice?
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What was your progress by month? Im on month three and im far from you. What were you like at month three?
 
I got unexpected head tingles from a song in a cartoon my niece was watching. I also appreciated the backgrounds and character design, it was much more appealing than a lot of other toddler cartoons. It was Kira and Lou if anyone out there has a toddler in their life, it's cute. Short, but high quality and not annoying as shit.

Maybe I'll feel that again in another unexpected place. I want music to make me feel like I jumped into cold water again.

I'm listening to Rude Tales of Magic, trying to get my imagination to go brrrrr and to laugh. This podcast made me laugh on invega.
 
cmf77 said:
I only had one injection and it has wreaked havoc on my brain.Invega is known as a torment drug and there are numerous people who have had one shot and never recovered like me. I am 10 months in and see no relief whatsoever. If you go on Google it will clearly have numerous stories like mine.Look up on Drugs.com "Invega Sustenna Ruined my life".It gives a clear cut picture of what this drug does.My mri damage has nothing to do with dementia as the damage is in the center of my brain.
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I got an MRI as well and apparently everythings normal. I suppose I got lucky. I had the 2 loading doses and 2 more shots of sustenna then 1 shot of trinza. Im recovering pretty well. Keep your hopes up man
 
0898_ said:
Hi everyone!

I’m new here. Was in a psych ward for two weeks for a two day drug induced psychosis and they put me on oral Palperidone then after two weeks they said I could go home but needed an injection first which I would have to get from a nurse every month.

By Feb/ March I was horribly anxious/ pacing/ couldn’t watch TV read books or listen to music. If someone called me on the phone or if I was with them my throat would close up and I couldn’t talk, but also I had nothing on my mind - nothing to say.

Weirdly I got an 9-6 office job and was able to do that each day and do a stressful commute but I was motivated by money and having an income.

By June this year I had googled my symptoms and worked out it was the meds so I stopped getting the injections.

I begged my psychiatrist to let me stop them, I told her it was ruining my entire life and she said I could switch to alpiprizole pills. I got the prescription filled but never took the pills. A month later the psych tried to push me into getting the injections of it and I point blank refused. I only see her every 3 months.

Anyway! Currently on month four and a half without the Palperidone. I’m MUCH better! I can talk, laugh, have a conversation make jokes and drink wine and get a buzz. My memory is better and I have more motivation to go to the store. I’m pretty lazy at tidying my apartment but then I always was.

I’ve bought new make up (I am making an effort about my appearance) and whilst I can’t cry yet at least I can laugh. I can also feel hunger and appreciate beauty and I feel happy when I’m with my family and friends.

This weekend I have been to the beach both days and swam and chilled and I can read and watch TV again.

I don’t get so bored now either. I’ve switched my work contract to working from home but I’m able to get up and work at my laptop. Best of all! NO pacing!

I’m gonna switch psychs. Mine says I have to be on APs for a couple of years - it’s their standard protocol. She doesn’t know I’m not taking the Alprprizole (Albify) so if I go in there in Nov in full make up, chatting away and making jokes and small talk she’ll either think she’s a brilliant doctor or if all her patients are anxious chain smoking zombies so will know something is up.

Anyway! Any advice?
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Omg same here. Feeling much better. Just wish this gosh darn weight would fall off faster.
 
invegafuckedmeupmeow said:
What was your progress by month? Im on month three and im far from you. What were you like at month three?
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I got a lot more chatty I was a bit self conscious but I just needed to get my confidence back after months of being self conscious about not speaking much. As I have gone outside and spent time in nature I have healed, I started to read books and the boredom subsided. I’m having to make sure I stay motivated to eat as I lost weight on Palperidone - my appetite has started to come back. After I was able to read books I started to be able to watch TV again. But by month 3 family and friends were noticing a big difference and saying I seemed loads better as I previously had anxiety etched across my face and I looked “tense” apparently.
 
0898_ said:
I got a lot more chatty I was a bit self conscious but I just needed to get my confidence back after months of being self conscious about not speaking much. As I have gone outside and spent time in nature I have healed, I started to read books and the boredom subsided. I’m having to make sure I stay motivated to eat as I lost weight on Palperidone - my appetite has started to come back. After I was able to read books I started to be able to watch TV again. But by month 3 family and friends were noticing a big difference and saying I seemed loads better as I previously had anxiety etched across my face and I looked “tense” apparently.
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Your so lucky. If I lost weight I probs wouldnt even be on here. That was one of the biggest side effect I had to deal with. And it sticks around for a while.
 
My 4 month update: My dick got smaller significantly, sensation is numb, no sex drive l, orgasms are muted, can’t nap or fall back asleep, no adrenaline, can’t feel caffeine, alcohol or weed, and lastly Anhedonia: things don’t seem as pleasurable as they once did.
 
Robchanna said:
My 4 month update: My dick got smaller significantly, sensation is numb, no sex drive l, orgasms are muted, can’t nap or fall back asleep, no adrenaline, can’t feel caffeine, alcohol or weed, and lastly Anhedonia: things don’t seem as pleasurable as they once did.
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With 5 shots you need to wait 6-8 months to start seeing that gradual improvement. At least from my research. Was it two loading doses then 5 months of shots after or two loading fosses then 3 months of shots ?

None the less I would expect you to start seeing improvements around day 180
 
I can certainly feel caffeine again. I'm still having vivid dreams from Prozac withdrawl, but I think I can say my REM cycle is normalizing after invega fucked it up.

I had two dreams where I owned a white horse and took it for a ride. Dreaming about white horses is apparently a good omen, especially riding one!

The numbness in my skin is almost cleared up, but my hypersensitivity to touch is still gone. I miss it. Sure I had to cut tags out of my clothes and wear my socks inside out, but I got so much pleasure from showers, touch, clean sheets, the wind against my skin, etc. I felt alive. I'm not sure if this is from prozac or invega. My skin randomly got more sensitive after I quit prozac and before the withdrawl.

The anxiety, depersonalization, and suicidal ideation from withdrawal is slowing down. I want to care about shit again, I want to have my heartstrings pulled. I am getting a sense of interest back, I can watch longform videos as long as they're entertaining. I'm going to use Some More News on YouTube to get back into the issues I care about. It's hosted by this unhinged news anchor character and it talks about left-wing politics and current events in an approachable way with comedy.

Sexual dysfunction update, it gets better every other day:

I think I'm approaching the state I was in right after I quit Prozac, maybe a little better since I'm not fuckin pissing when I come. I can feel some fleeting sexual pleasure and my orgasms are consistently pleasurable, but muted. I can have orgasms an hour apart, I stayed aroused for a while after today's first round. I'm getting weird needling sensations in my perinium and this is supposed to be a good thing, it means my pudenal nerve is conducting better. I can now feel my gspot, but only for a few seconds. I can feel my clitoris consistently, the "castrated" feeling is gone, it's just a lot less sensitive. I'm reacting to porn in the empathic way I used to, but before all this I had a few hands free orgasms just from watching porn. I could feel what the performers were feeling. It's harder to imagine it with the loss of sensation now. I still have a low libido, but I started masturbating because I want to, not just to check for changes or force myself to orgasm to keep the lights on.

PSSD is terrible, but it could be so much worse for me. I'm going to donate to research on it as soon as I can. I feel so bad for people who had zero sexual function for years. There's people with the same lidocaine feeling I had at the beginning, but it never went away for them. I'm so grateful for any improvement I see, I always note it.

Be careful with SSRIs after invega. Go on viibryd if it's a good match for you. Get a genesight test if you can. Don't go on Prozac if you have ADHD or metabolic issues.
 
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I even whited out the text for you lmao. I'm feeling the best I have since Prozac withdrawl started. I like writing my progress down, it reminds me I'm getting better. I'm still scared I'm going to stop improving or crash again. I think I'm going to get over the crash induced by taking too much vitamin D.

I'll stop talking about it as much I guess. But I noticed positive changes every day this week.
 
is penis shrinkage reversible?! i have night time erections but didnt even have those for 1 month after the injection i read if you dont get erect for too long then penis tissue loss and atrophy starts i am really scared 1 month was enough i also most likely have low testosterone which also i have read causes penis atrophy and tissue loss! i read this is permanent! will i have micro penis forever?! or is it reversible like beastboi? if anyone here who recovered or is recovering re gained penis size PLEASE SHARE I NEED TO READ IT!!💔
 
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