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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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This is so fucking ridiculous. I can’t wait years to get myself back im 19 and have nobody to live with I can’t afford living on my own with no job for years. I was working and this shit caused unimaginable brain damage. 1 year off if this shit isn’t gone I’m going back to that fucking hospital I’ve been off 5 months with no improvement and all I see on here is signs toward taking years to recover or people saying they have been off well over a year with no improvement. God I had such a good life coming from nothing and these mfs took it all from me every god damn thing I had to get on my own. Now I’m ducking mentally disabled. I don’t even know if I’ll make it to one year this shit makes me want to kms I was never ever suicidal before this poison. I’m supposed to be enjoying being an adult but no these fucks took everything from me at 18. Telling me this had no side effects and saying it would stop my eyes from rolling to the back of my head from the other ducking meds they gave me. Makes me so depressed that I could’ve avoided this but these assholes lied to me and my guardian at the time told them they could give me whatever without doing any research. Can’t believe she called me her fucking son and allowed this shit to happen to me👿 all I needed was sleep I hadn’t had a minute of sleep in well over a month. God ducking damnit this makes me furious deep inside. Lord please help me😔🙏
 
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Ayden said:
This is so fucking ridiculous. I can’t wait years to get myself back im 19 and have nobody to live with I can’t afford living on my own with no job for years. I was working and this shit caused unimaginable brain damage. Sorry for my language I’ve been off 5 months with no improvement and all I see on here is signs toward taking years to recover or people saying they have been off well over a year with no improvement. God I had such a good life coming from nothing and these mfs took it all from me every god damn thing I had to get on my own. Now I’m ducking mentally disabled. I don’t even know if I’ll make it to one year this shit makes me want to kms I was never ever suicidal before this poison. I’m supposed to be enjoying being an adult but no these fucks took everything from me at 18. Telling me this had no side effects and saying it would stop my eyes from rolling to the back of my head from the other ducking meds they gave me. Makes me so depressed that I could’ve avoided this but these assholes lied to me and my guardian at the time told them they could give me whatever without doing any research. Can’t believe she called me her fucking son and allowed this shit to happen to me👿 all I needed was sleep I hadn’t had a minute of sleep in well over a month. God ducking damnit this makes me furious deep inside. Lord please help me😔🙏
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Chill bro, you're still young and probably past the peak. How many doses did they give u? Are you still taking any other meds? Tbh,bi don't know how they keep prescribing this crippling poison, its horrible. Turns u into a useless zombie. Anyway 5 months and what are ur symptoms? They shouldn't last longer than a year if they gave u a lot. It will get better, I reassure u. I know it's fkinh horrible, but hang on in there. 19 years old, you're super young still got so many years ahead of u. If u lose a few months cause of this shit don't worry. Just learn the lesson that u have to behave well so they don't give u more antipsychotic for whatever was the reason they gave it to u in the first place. Be patient please, 1 day qt a time.
 
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nznity said:
Chill bro, you're still young and probably past the peak. How many doses did they give u? Are you still taking any other meds? Tbh,bi don't know how they keep prescribing this crippling poison, its horrible. Turns u into a useless zombie. Anyway 5 months and what are ur symptoms? They shouldn't last longer than a year if they gave u a lot. It will get better, I reassure u. I know it's fkinh horrible, but hang on in there. 19 years old, you're super young still got so many years ahead of u. If u lose a few months cause of this shit don't worry. Just learn the lesson that u have to behave well so they don't give u more antipsychotic for whatever was the reason they gave it to u in the first place. Be patient please, 1 day qt a time.
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Hard to chill mane. 5 injections. No meds. Every symptom you see on here. I see lots saying over a year no improvement. They had no reason for this pathetic bs I was having manic episode from not sleeping for over a month. How long you been off are you getting your old self back? I was working 24/7 as an entrepreneur I was always thinking about $ because I had nothing growing up.
 
I'm sick of this anhedonia. I feel like i can't move on with my life like this. I can't feel good anymore, can't feel pleasure on my skin and the joy of being alive again. I wish i could just wake up and be better out of nowhere. Everyday it's a struggle to just to get out of bed. Has anyone healed from this? Is healing a lie? I want a cure from this.

Also, i miss having fun, detailed dreams and waking up feeling refreshed. Now when i sleep it doesn't even feel like i slept, i wake up still feeling tired.
 
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I switched from Invega to olanzapine, it is a better option but my weight is hit hard.

Invega works like a tank when olanzapine is a hammer, they shouldn't be able to just give out the hardest hitting stuff first, it makes no sense to not have these regulated more in their despinsing, I am functional but my memory sucks.

It gets better when you get off Invega, there are better options.
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Just get off that shit invega disabled everything so not like your gonna get psychotic again for a very long time if this stuff ever even leaves the brain.
 
Ayden said:
Just get off that shit invega disabled everything so not like your gonna get psychotic again for a very long time if this stuff ever even leaves the brain.
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the people who dont recover its either still in their receptors or shut down or killed off their receptors, its fucking crazy this drug can do that, and its weird that some people it leaves their receptors or doesnt damage them and they fully recover and some dont

also some people have gradual recovery like slowly becoming less and less anhedonic some people have sudden recovery like feeling hell for some time and then feeling much better a certain month
 
lurker689 said:
Why is almost no one posting here anymore?
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Many of the recovered persons do try and come back to give some hope. I think the issue is when you're still coming off the filth is impossible to see any light at the end of the tunnel. It IS there but the mindset this toxic trash gives you is so difficult to contend with.

A lot of recovered people start to feel like they can't help and just try to avoid doing more damage.

You will recover, especially if you're under 35yo. You might lose some time but you'll come back strong. It's just a gauntlet you have to run.

I know it can seem hopeless but that's part of the trick this biogenic weaponry causes to the human brain, it MAKES you feel hopeless... They just want to have you on it for life ($$$) so that's the design... Don't fall for it.

I implore you lot not to give up, but I understand when you're in the thick of it, it's almost impossible to see an end to the nightmare.
 
Additional experiences I have not seen mentioned:

Are mornings significantly worse for you guys?
This is not my baseline but on invega it seems like the time of day where it is the least disabling is evening like 6pm.

Also lately I have been more thirsty and needing to pee every 50 minutes. Is this a sign that the body is starting to eliminate it? I am at the 80 days after mark
 
Mucky said:
Over 8 months since my last injection , no improvements whatsoever , still suffer from severe anhedonia , no emotions , severe alogia , blank mind , can’t feel substances , no libido , no interest in anything at all (just feel dead inside ) insomnia , life is a living hell … don’t think im going to recover tbh , won’t be living a lifetime of this torture , my only way out looks like suicide at this point.
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I would never pretend to know what you feel, but since you are being treated means you are putting in the effort. Sometimes it takes some tries to get the balance - balanced. It is true torture but in seeking treatment means you have hope - hope is powerful. For me hope is all I have sometimes. Have you been able to communicate with your doc the injections don't seem to be working? Are you considering that the treatment is at least making you more aware than you were before the injections? Hang in there.
 
invegafuckedmeupmeow said:
Additional experiences I have not seen mentioned:

Are mornings significantly worse for you guys?
This is not my baseline but on invega it seems like the time of day where it is the least disabling is evening like 6pm.

Also lately I have been more thirsty and needing to pee every 50 minutes. Is this a sign that the body is starting to eliminate it? I am at the 80 days after mark
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At 5 months off everything is really the same throughout the day and I just constantly think about getting myself back.

Mucky said:
Over 8 months since my last injection , no improvements whatsoever , still suffer from severe anhedonia , no emotions , severe alogia , blank mind , can’t feel substances , no libido , no interest in anything at all (just feel dead inside ) insomnia , life is a living hell … don’t think im going to recover tbh , won’t be living a lifetime of this torture , my only way out looks like suicide at this point.
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Jesus Christ man😔 how many injections? Are you on any meds?
 
InvegaAnon said:
Lion's mane made my genitals go numb again. I really wish someone gave me a link to stuff about lion's mane side effects. I would have never taken it if I had known it was a possibility. I really, really hope it gets better. There's some signs that it is getting better already, but I hate that I've been set back like this. It's hard to live with the uncertainty. I think invega took my curiosity away from me, so I didn't do much research, and I thought people were just being silly about ~oohh brain mushrooms~. I should have listened to the people who said it was a bad idea, but they didn't directly tell me why.

It suddenly made my anxiety and insomnia worse and I had no idea it was the lion's mane so I just kept taking it!

I had just started to feel pleasure again before I suddenly went numb. I can still have weak orgasms and I have some sensation. Still sensitive to pain.

Feel free to laugh at me. Do not try lion's mane if you have an autoimmune disease or recent bad reaction to an SSRI. Also do not take antihistamines after. I will serve as a warning, I guess.

I lost my emotions again too. I was having a smooth recovery. I'm sorry to anyone I gave hope to and I'm sorry to myself the most.
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When you can identify what the problem is, thats a huge step. Don't blame others for your own decisions, get better and move on. The narrative of blaming others will put you in a tail spin that you will rely for self sabotage. Sounds like you are making steps towards getting that shit out of your system, thats a huge plus.
 
Robchanna said:
How many months are you off
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almost 4

Mucky said:
Over 8 months since my last injection , no improvements whatsoever , still suffer from severe anhedonia , no emotions , severe alogia , blank mind , can’t feel substances , no libido , no interest in anything at all (just feel dead inside ) insomnia , life is a living hell … don’t think im going to recover tbh , won’t be living a lifetime of this torture , my only way out looks like suicide at this point.
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do you still feel zombified??

i think the people who dont recover cant metabolize it, severe insomnia is a sign alot of invega is still in your system somehow, if you still pace like i do sometimes its a sign the poison is still in your system.
 
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