Bytor_and_the_snowdog
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So i been with my doc for about 8 years - atleast. im prescribed clonipin 4mg a day for severe anxiety, adderal for ADD 10MG 2-3 TIMES A DAY, WELBUTRIN 300MG a day and prozac 20mg a day.
i rarely take my meds accept for the clons. i take them according to how i feel. some days i take 2 - some days i take 4 etc.
the prozac i was prescibed last year because i had come off opiates THAT HE DIDNT KNOW ABOUT. The opiates gave me bad depression when i came off. i wasnt on long - maybe 3-4 months total at the time - most i went up to was 120mg for 1-2 days but i usually hovered around 60mg on most days
i got clean and felt fine - like the asshole that i am after promising ill never do it again, i started again in May of 22 - Memorial day to be exact. i took a 20mg and would only do on weekends. then from septt to december i was taking both percs and oxy. again, not a crazy amount (id do one to two percs and maybe a 40mg of ox at most but enough to where i was geting withdrawlas. not terrible but i hate that feeling of the exhaustion and the depression. i was told about suboxone from a friend. i was given some and been on since march of this year.
i take abour 3-4mg a day. i hate them. but i need them to just feel normal. i started taking my welbutrin and prozac but i dont notice anything. my adderal makes me crash hard and so i dont mess with them either. they used to work great for me when i started like 5-6 years ago. now they just make me shake.
regardless i know im all over the plce in this post but my question is this: should i tell my psychiatrist im on subs or would he drop me. i know he wouldnt accept a friend who i recommended because he was an addict to opiates. so that scares me that if he wouldnt take him on as a patient - that he might drop me if i come clean to him. i want his help. m aybe he would know what meds to give me and he would know of a schedule to give me to get me off. but at the same time im afrid he might drop me - or take me off clonipin - which i dont abuse. i been on them for 15 years - even before i was with him.
sorry for the long post and there have been a few members on here who PMd me on other advice i was asking who have been helpful in other ways.
but now i just want off subs. i probably didnt even need them - except my clonipin and what else i might need to recover.
but im scared he might drop me
what should i or anyone who might have experience with a situation like this do? idk what to do. i want his help - but at the same time im afraid he might say see ya - or keep me but not trust me since i didnt tell him till now
i rarely take my meds accept for the clons. i take them according to how i feel. some days i take 2 - some days i take 4 etc.
the prozac i was prescibed last year because i had come off opiates THAT HE DIDNT KNOW ABOUT. The opiates gave me bad depression when i came off. i wasnt on long - maybe 3-4 months total at the time - most i went up to was 120mg for 1-2 days but i usually hovered around 60mg on most days
i got clean and felt fine - like the asshole that i am after promising ill never do it again, i started again in May of 22 - Memorial day to be exact. i took a 20mg and would only do on weekends. then from septt to december i was taking both percs and oxy. again, not a crazy amount (id do one to two percs and maybe a 40mg of ox at most but enough to where i was geting withdrawlas. not terrible but i hate that feeling of the exhaustion and the depression. i was told about suboxone from a friend. i was given some and been on since march of this year.
i take abour 3-4mg a day. i hate them. but i need them to just feel normal. i started taking my welbutrin and prozac but i dont notice anything. my adderal makes me crash hard and so i dont mess with them either. they used to work great for me when i started like 5-6 years ago. now they just make me shake.
regardless i know im all over the plce in this post but my question is this: should i tell my psychiatrist im on subs or would he drop me. i know he wouldnt accept a friend who i recommended because he was an addict to opiates. so that scares me that if he wouldnt take him on as a patient - that he might drop me if i come clean to him. i want his help. m aybe he would know what meds to give me and he would know of a schedule to give me to get me off. but at the same time im afrid he might drop me - or take me off clonipin - which i dont abuse. i been on them for 15 years - even before i was with him.
sorry for the long post and there have been a few members on here who PMd me on other advice i was asking who have been helpful in other ways.
but now i just want off subs. i probably didnt even need them - except my clonipin and what else i might need to recover.
but im scared he might drop me
what should i or anyone who might have experience with a situation like this do? idk what to do. i want his help - but at the same time im afraid he might say see ya - or keep me but not trust me since i didnt tell him till now