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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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Rulomaner said:
Ive tried everything, weed, codeine, alcohol, caffeine, tobacco, nicotine, CBD, EVERY FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT that should give me pleasure and they all end up in the fucking trash. I dont know you but I dont wanna live without that exact feeling of pleasure and euphoria, I just cant. Maybe Im just different, but life is THAT, nothing else. Not even buying new clothes, or hanging out with some people, or having an orgasm, you just need to feel good in your own skin, feel rested, comfy… thats all people, none of us has that, and its truly depressing, i wouldn wish that to any of us, but truth is truth
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Kinda true that those feelings are nerfed compared to pre invega , m3th still works tho. I always would go out on my own and meet new people and enjoy myself post invega thats gone as well but i said this before. CBD is overrated anyway in order to get something out of it you have to take huge megadosages
 
Kiaf85 said:
You can feel love, joy, happiness, excitement, laughter (deep belly laugh)?
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Dunno ....i lost my emotions, love is certainly gone. Could be it takes 5 years, 2 years is maybe not enough. I'm also having severe hormonal issue post invega but also post abilify maintena maybe that got something to do with it
 
EsseWasGreat said:
Just hopping by to remind y'all that recovery is completely possible for anyone

Sorry to all that asked me about it and didn't respond lol, just didn't have time to check this page lately

birthday soon too so I gifted myself a ton of cool stuff, gotta say it's really cool to feel joy and all that shit after months/years of thinking it would never come back


I'll be hanging around for a couple days if anyone wants to ask anything, just make sure it's not weed related cause I don't do it and never did

feeling of alcohol and coffee do come back tho
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Did you have a lot of anxiety before you recovered from the Invega? Like feeling like losing touch with reality and being stuck like this forever?
 
apsucks said:
Anhedonia should have improved by now
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Maybe slightly but can't start enjoying TV/video games until around month 12 or so...at month 9 I was feeling sad/frustrated because I couldn't enjoy playing RC cars with the kids, it's not like anhedonia suddenly lifts around that time, just start feeling some slight return of emotion and start seeing the light at the end so to speak
Rulomaner said:
I am tired of the same shit over and over, no one passes that point of recovering 60%, it is insane, they only thing that changes is the month but we all refer to the same fucking exact thing, thats not pretty much recovered, not even 20% recovered. Something is missing, and thats mainly pleasure and satisfaction, real euphoria from achieving little things such as lying in yoyr fucking bed. No one has recovered that feeling, and trust me when I say that because no one does recover from such a heavy use of antipsychotic meds. Peace!
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If anyone had you wouldn't believe them anyway. You're only 4 months off and there's no substance that will get you out of it, there's nothing you can do but live it out for yourself. Wish you the best
Kiaf85 said:
You can feel love, joy, happiness, excitement, laughter (deep belly laugh)?
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He's on abilify so his dopamine system is still shut down by that , he comes here to pretend like he's recovering
 
Invegatorture said:
Yep. Now i feel like my life has been destroyed. Never been more suicidal. I want my psychiatrist to take an injection of this poison.
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Not gunna lie what you said at the end is exactly how I feel about my previous psychiatrists, particularly the one that perscribed me Invega, AND a few other people in particular that believe all the side effects I'm experiencing is being used as an excuse to avoid being productive again, or that everything is entirely in my head and I'm doing it for attention like wtf. For this same reason I developed issues with several family members and forcefully distanced myself from them now, idc if they're family members I'm not putting up with their bullshit either.
 
Robchanna said:
Yup I’m dropping out of school for another year cuz I’m not motivated at all. Fuck psychiatry.
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That's EXACTLY my #1 problem right now, is the persistent anhedonia, followed by cognitive and sexual issues. I'd personally much rather continue studying to make some kind of progress in life, while simultaneously working part time but nope, most of my motivation to do them has been drained. Next month would've been my 3rd semester of college but no not like this, I had no choice but to drop out after the 1st, and who knows when or if I'll ever regain the motivation to return, let alone gather the incentive to put in enough effort in each class.
 
bowandsparrow said:
Hi everybody, I've read through a bit of these threads and it breaks my heart to see so many people have been through this. Still, I'm glad to have found it because I'm sure having a supportive community helps us recover.

I was injected with the two loading doses at the end of January after being misdiagnosed with schizoaffective disorder in a psych ward. It was terrible at first, my body would painfully stiffen up and I'd drool all over myself. I felt no pleasure and couldn't sleep through the night, I had akathisia during the day time and I gained 20 pounds. I lost all sexual function for a few months. I thought my life was over and the only thing that kept me going was the hope that I'd feel better someday.

Six months later, I've seen a lot of improvement. The akathisia has gone and I sleep fairly well most nights. My mood is a bit better, perhaps a touch of anhedonia but I'm able to take some kind of muted pleasure in books and video games and seeing my friends. There was a period where i could barely socially function, but I'm back to seeing my friends and have made a lot of new ones. My libido is lower than I would like it to be, but it's a bit better and hopefully continues to improve. Thanks to diet and exercise, I've lost seven pounds of the weight I gained. I was able to return to work in April, but was laid off in June due to mass layoffs in the company.

My current psych isn't entirely sure what my issue is, but is positive that it isn't schizoaffective disorder or schizophrenia. She had me on seroquel for a bit, then added a low dose of lexapro once she felt it was safe to do so. Recently she took me off seroquel and added wellbutrin. I'm very hopeful about taking wellbutrin, as it's a dopamine agonist that can hopefully counteract the invega remnants a bit. I'll let all of you know how it goes.

If you're reading this and you're still at the worst of it, hang in there. Invega is one of the worst substances I can imagine, but things do get better if you can hold on.
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Hey, and welcome to this thread, sorry to hear about what you're going through from Invega, it sounds similar if not identical to what the majority of us are experiencing or had experienced. Seems like you were injected over a month after I did, since I was given the injection on the 9th of December, I'm pretty sure I was also misdiagnosed for the same reason hence why it occurred, or at least that's what I assume, I was never able figure out what the intention of that psychiatrist was.

I also drooled uncontrollably at first, whenever I'd lay down even though I was wide awake 24/7, in a few minutes I'd end up slobbering all over the surface, and I alse felt zero pleasure from anything at all, so out of desperation to find anything that would give me pleasure I began eating uncontrollably, causing me to go from 183 to a whopping 264 pounds very quickly, though I've lost at least 20 or more since. And lastly yes, my libido was affected along with my testosterone levels.

Anyways over 7 months later I've made many significant improvements in all the categories I mentioned earlier and more, so I no longer feel constantly suicidal but I'm still hoping to somehow fully recover, or at least make a 95% recovery or more.
 
CrimsonThornX said:
Hey, and welcome to this thread, sorry to hear about what you're going through from Invega, it sounds similar if not identical to what the majority of us are experiencing or had experienced. Seems like you were injected over a month after I did, since I was given the injection on the 9th of December, I'm pretty sure I was also misdiagnosed for the same reason hence why it occurred, or at least that's what I assume, I was never able figure out what the intention of that psychiatrist was.

I also drooled uncontrollably at first, whenever I'd lay down even though I was wide awake 24/7, in a few minutes I'd end up slobbering all over the surface, and I alse felt zero pleasure from anything at all, so out of desperation to find anything that would give me pleasure I began eating uncontrollably, causing me to go from 183 to a whopping 264 pounds very quickly, though I've lost at least 20 or more since. And lastly yes, my libido was affected along with my testosterone levels.

Anyways over 7 months later I've made many significant improvements in all the categories I mentioned earlier and more, so I no longer feel constantly suicidal but I'm still hoping to somehow fully recover, or at least make a 95% recovery or more.
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Can you feel your emotions ?
 
Invegareallysucks said:
Did you have a lot of anxiety before you recovered from the Invega? Like feeling like losing touch with reality and being stuck like this forever?
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Everytime before you get better there are always periods where it first gets really bad. i remember having severe anxiety before every improvemen
Kaatrina said:
Maybe slightly but can't start enjoying TV/video games until around month 12 or so...at month 9 I was feeling sad/frustrated because I couldn't enjoy playing RC cars with the kids, it's not like anhedonia suddenly lifts around that time, just start feeling some slight return of emotion and start seeing the light at the end so to speak

If anyone had you wouldn't believe them anyway. You're only 4 months off and there's no substance that will get you out of it, there's nothing you can do but live it out for yourself. Wish you the best

He's on abilify so his dopamine system is still shut down by that , he comes here to pretend like he's recovering
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i've recovered for 2 years then i got stuck on abilify
many people recovered while taking a low dose of antipsychotics they just have limited recovery...you act like there is no recovery at all...its in the signature its no secret.
 
Kiaf85 said:
Did yours improve?
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Anhedonia decreasing is playing a videogame, liking to play it, liking the reward you get for it and having to motivation to play it. Its like your reward centre in the brain is active again,. It got little to do with emotions. Month 6 i could play videogames and like it
 
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Kiaf85 said:
Can you feel your emotions ?
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Yes, someone asked me the same question just recently but yeah, I am capable of feeling emotions again for the most part. I definitely couldn't for the first few months, the entire time I was just serious, devoid of nearly all emotions, I suppose the only other emotion I could experience was constant depression that whole time. Eventually, although slowly, I began to regain the ability to feel happiness, excitement, and joy, for very brief moments but it was a promising sign nonetheless. Nowadays I am able to cry whenever I remember or listen to sad and nostalgic songs, which is funny since that's exactly what I'm doing while writing this reply. At first I stopped doing basically everything including listening to music as I felt no joy from anything at all.
 
Rulomaner said:
I am tired of the same shit over and over, no one passes that point of recovering 60%, it is insane, they only thing that changes is the month but we all refer to the same fucking exact thing, thats not pretty much recovered, not even 20% recovered. Something is missing, and thats mainly pleasure and satisfaction, real euphoria from achieving little things such as lying in yoyr fucking bed. No one has recovered that feeling, and trust me when I say that because no one does recover from such a heavy use of antipsychotic meds. Peace!
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Stfu
 
One week to go then i'm off all antipsychotics. I sometimes manage to skip dosages throughout the week , every saturday and sunday i consistently skip dosages. When i take one dose my libido crashes immediately and get severe stimdick. Unbelievable that psychiatrist prescibe abilify off label for sexual disorders or depression i can't imagine the pssd you get from that shit combined with SSRI
 
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