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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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BattlingInvega said:
@HelpMeInvega How did you lose the Invega weight
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I basically just walked a lot, worked out and ate healthy! I’m at a stable weight now, but I don’t look nearly as ripped as I did pre antipsychotics it’s sad. No matter what I do I can’t seem to lose the weight in my face and I just look skinny fat if you know what I mean so it’s stupid. Up until 33 I never had a problem with my weight, was always ripped and skinny. I lost the weight but don’t look nearly the same.
 
Also I was wondering if it's possible to make a full or at least 95% or more recovery in two specific aspects. Those two being mentally and sexually, like will there ever be a period of time where I have more mental clarity and have improved memory, the ability to think clearly again, and to regain my overall intelligence? I'm highly concerned that it's inpossible to make a full recovery, at least for me considering the fact that invega caused me to go over 3 months with literally no more than a few seconds to minutes of sleep to the point where I had a ministroke from it, which additionally caused me to develop doublevision that hasn't even improved slightly to this day. As for the other one, without going into much detail considering the subject I genuinely miss the days where I had a much higher libido and thought about it quite frequently, as well as the fact that I certainly didn't have erectile dysfunction, and the fact that I used to get much more pleasure and enjoyment from it. It has improved considerably but I of course would prefer to make a full recovery if possible, I don't want this to lead to future relationship issues if and when I do find someone again. So with that being said I'd specifically like to know from people who've supposedly made a full recovery, do you feel as if you truly recovered in those two aspects 100%, or did you reach the point where you either forgot about the past version of yourself or become close enough to fully recovering that you just consider it a full recovery?
 
Invegaishell said:
I have hope for it yes, but I worry recovery is going to take a long time for me. I am nearing 10 months off and I haven’t made much improvement in a few months. I was hoping for a 12 month recovery but it’s looking to be at least a 18 month recovery for me.
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Me too this probably is going to take two years it sucks
 
CrimsonThornX said:
Also I was wondering if it's possible to make a full or at least 95% or more recovery in two specific aspects. Those two being mentally and sexually, like will there ever be a period of time where I have more mental clarity and have improved memory, the ability to think clearly again, and to regain my overall intelligence? I'm highly concerned that it's inpossible to make a full recovery, at least for me considering the fact that invega caused me to go over 3 months with literally no more than a few seconds to minutes of sleep to the point where I had a ministroke from it, which additionally caused me to develop doublevision that hasn't even improved slightly to this day.
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Ive recovered the ability to think clearly, memorize, and my general intelligence. I didnt experience a stroke but i hope that doesnt affect you. I think the brain has enormous ability to recover over time.
CrimsonThornX said:
As for the other one, without going into much detail considering the subject I genuinely miss the days where I had a much higher libido and thought about it quite frequently, as well as the fact that I certainly didn't have erectile dysfunction, and the fact that I used to get much more pleasure and enjoyment from it. It has improved considerably but I of course would prefer to make a full recovery if possible, I don't want this to lead to future relationship issues if and when I do find someone again. So with that being said I'd specifically like to know from people who've supposedly made a full recovery, do you feel as if you truly recovered in those two aspects 100%, or did you reach the point where you either forgot about the past version of yourself or become close enough to fully recovering that you just consider it a full recovery?
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I've recovered 100%. I don't want to go into too much detail either but there are problems I struggled with pre-invega as far as too frequent drive and I struggle with these things again. For many people it's not the case, but for me this aspect took the longest to recover along with spirituality. 2 - 2.5 years. My sex life was completely destroyed on invega I couldn't get aroused in anyway and felt absolutely nothing for my husband, but that's all gone now and things are 100% normal. I don't think it's that I forgot about the past version of myself, I know what I was capable of prior to invega as far as erotic feelings of euphoria, but ultimately no one can answer your last question, because as we have concluded before, self-evaluation in this regard is completely subjective
 
Invegatorture said:
Do you have hope in recovery? Back to pre invega
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Yeah I have hope,

BattlingInvega said:
@HelpMeInvega How did you get on disability what did you have to do ?
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If you have a mental condition like psychosis, bipolar, schizo u can get on disability cause these are serious mental disorders just ask for a form idk what country you in but in the uk its easy to get on them if u have a mental condition
 
Be careful of going on disability it will leave huge gaps in your cv which will make it impossible to get a job. It can ruin your entire career. Depending on how old you guys are. Best thing to do is get a job and then take a sick leave.
 
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I've been on disability for 12 years now but if you ever are planning to get a job you shouldn't go on disability you can get extended compensation in some countries such as the netherlands
 
apsucks said:
I've been on disability for 12 years now but if you ever are planning to get a job you shouldn't go on disability you can get extended compensation in some countries such as the netherlands
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What do you do to pass time? Especially while anhedonic?
 
I’m almost three months off
  • Running has improved. When I was on the shot I could barely run because my shins were stiff and body felt heavy. I now run at least 2x per week. Still can’t break a proper sweat.
  • I maintained most of my strength, even though endurance has suffered. I can’t do as many reps, but my maxes are still 85% of that they used to be.
  • I’m losing weight. I feel satisfied after meals and am no longer a bottomless pit.
  • I don’t crave drugs and alcohol as much as at the beginning. Anhedonia has gotten better. I have a few drinks about once a week and can feel some effects of liquour.
  • Still can’t feel caffeine but I think pre workout drinks have a benefit even if I don’t feel it.
  • I’m no longer sleeping 12h a day. I feel rested after 6-8 hours. Don’t have to drag myself out of bed in the mornings.
  • My mood has improved. I was at a wedding yesterday where I danced, laughed, conversated and enjoyed myself.
A lot of these improvements has to do with the weather. Where I live the winters are long and cold. Being pent up in a small apartment in the city only makes matters worse. Socializing and life in general is so much better in the summer months.

I still struggle with passing time and spend too much time on the cough browsing this forum. I feel like I need a change in my life in order to move forward. I may be moving to a new city in order to take a class to finish my CPA.

I’m glad to be feeling better, and hope I don’t need AP’s to stay healthy. I need to find some peace and tranquility in my life. The stress of the hustle has taken its toll on my mental health and I’m looking forward to a new chapter in my life.
 
Baddream said:
What do you do to pass time? Especially while anhedonic?
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Normally i have alot of hobbies like reading, meditating, gardening, self development in general, spirituality is a big hobby of mine, light swimming, working with horses. In my free time i also study phytochemistry. pre invega most of my time was spend working with horses at the ranch

With anhedonia i stay in bed all day watching youtube
 
Baddream said:
A lot of these improvements has to do with the weather.
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I don't clearly see the correlation here. Improvements are something we can more easily notice if we do more activities, perhaps that's what you meant to say.

Baddream said:
If this is my new baseline, I would survive. But life would suck.
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There is no point in just surviving and suffering from invega for a whole lifetime. Aim for recovery <edited - SMod>
 
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CrimsonThornX said:
I honestly have no idea as to why my psychiatrist even put me on invega in the first place but what I do know is that it caused me to go from being content, energetic, productive, normalweight, and what I would consider relatively intelligent to being severely/constantly depressed, lethargic, lazy, obese, and cognitively impaired with a lower IQ now. I genuinely don't understand why anyone would prescribe invega to treat something completely unrelated to what it was intended for, like how would partially disabling someone both mentally and physically possibly improve someone's already existing depression?
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Same I had all those attributes I was energetic had a drive, a pretty sharp person, had friends. Now I’m lazy, even more depressed than I was before, lost common sense, memory is impaired, I don’t even feel comfortable talking to people anymore everything just feels out of place like I don’t belong. I never gained weight from Invega I’ve always been underweight,I have therapist but it seems like he doesnt understand what I’m going thru, anti depressants don’t work and I don’t want to be on them cause the long term affects, I have a good support system and family but it doesn’t give me the will to live. And i just get frustrated when i see how happy people are and how happy i used to be.There’s so much stuff I want to do in my life I’m very ambitious but I just lost the drive and I can’t get over it I’m not sure if imma make to the end of year just thinking about blowing my brains out
 
Ineedhelp456 said:
Same I had all those attributes I was energetic had a drive, a pretty sharp person, had friends. Now I’m lazy, even more depressed than I was before, lost common sense, memory is impaired, I don’t even feel comfortable talking to people anymore everything just feels out of place like I don’t belong. I never gained weight from Invega I’ve always been underweight,I have therapist but it seems like he doesnt understand what I’m going thru, anti depressants don’t work and I don’t want to be on them cause the long term affects, I have a good support system and family but it doesn’t give me the will to live. And i just get frustrated when i see how happy people are and how happy i used to be.There’s so much stuff I want to do in my life I’m very ambitious but I just lost the drive and I can’t get over it I’m not sure if imma make to the end of year just thinking about blowing my brains out
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Remember that you haven't lost your drive and you haven't changed as a person. Your ambition and your old personality is all still there, it's just latent because invega won't allow your systems to operate properly. Your mind is still in a chemical straitjacket, once the meds dissipate you will be able to come to the surface again. Who you are forced to be on invega is not who you actually are.
 
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