Omg. Lol. Are you me?? I could be telling this same story, just with a few details changed. The anxiety bit, for one. All of my doctors have said “it’s just anxiety” about one symptom or another over the years. First of all, “just” anxiety?! It’s scientifically and medically proven that anxiety has actual physical effects, some of which can be quite severe, especially over a prolonged period of time (like months or years.) Second, medical brainwashing is a thing and apparently is more the rule than the exception!!! It kinda leads me to think that doctors don’t really know anything; they’re just guessing!!! And using their enormous egos as a shield to protect them from being wrong…idk. I’ve also had the experience of tryna get to the bottom of symptoms I definitely have (as opposed to just being all in my head) and being told “tests are normal” and they shrug their shoulders and expect me to drop it. Which doesn’t solve the problem of the pain and other symptoms. So what has been happening is that I will move on with life, because I am very busy and don’t have a lot of time to devote to this, and also, who likes thinking about their health problems?? But that just means that the pain and other things have gotten worse to the point where I cannot effectively carry on with certain things, so now I realize I better figure out what the fuck this is.
I swear to god, if I die because of something that they told me was “normal” or “just anxiety,” I’m gonna be so pissed.
Wow. I very well could be you. If I am, I'm so sorry. lol
Very similar issues to me.
And you're right, who wants to sit around thinking about their health all the time?
I feel forced to because of the issues, like if I don't feel physically okay, how am I expected to feel mentally okay ontop of it?
I'm so tired of all the SNRIs & antipsychotics. SNRI's have been making me puke & giving me hand tremors & extremely high body temperature.
I tell doctors this and they're like "omg, okay, well we better get you on another SNRI then"... Like.. helllloooooooo.
You're absolutely right. Doctors have no idea wtf they're talking about. Of course they know some thing but they don't know it all & they take it as offensive if their patient tries to educate them on anything.
I'm so frustrated with it that I've stopped even going or making appts, except to get my usual meds.
If I die, I die. At this point, maybe having a terminal illness would be a blessing & a ticket out of here.
Really sounds like you have a neurological issue. ( of course I’m no doctor).
Have you looked in to RA treatments, autoimmune diseases/treatments.
Could help. Maybe.
Thanks for the suggestion!
I have not unfortunately. I've read about some but I'm not sure.
I've considered fibromyalgia & chronic fatigue. As I did have severe mono as a teenager that gave me bad brain fog & lethargy for awhile, but none of these doctors seem to wanna test for anything of the sort or go any further than xrays & catscans. If those & my bloodwork seem fine, they assume I'm fine, but I know damn well I'm not. Autoimmune or neurological issue does seem very likely though. I've had a few docs say it sounds like fibromyalgia but of course idk how you test for that & they don't seem to care to give me a proper diagnosis.
One issue I've had is severe all body-muscle aching. It feels exactly like how one would feel if they did a hard work out & woke up sore the next day. Except I feel this way everyday (give or a take a good day here or there) and I don't even work out anymore.
I might have had this problem for a long time but covered it up with heroin & tramadol & other drugs for years. I use to exercise a lot & go walking alot all through out my 20's on heroin & tramadol & loved it.
And now that I've been on bupe & had to stay 'clean', I've noticed these physical issues have really come to the forefront. Just getting up to go do normal everyday stuff like go to the store can hurt like hell & rob me of my energy. Not to mention give me anxiety & irritability from having to do it. This is not the quality of life I'd like to have forever. And apparently nobody can tell me what it is.