Bigsmoke420
Bluelighter
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- Mar 17, 2021
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I cant really give my opinion on most of things listed because either I didnt have those problems or they went away in early recovery but the anhedonia and loss of emotions stuck for at least a year so I can speak on that, anhedonia and loss of emotions are tough to deal with, over time you will either recover them or adapt to not having emotions and living with anhedonia, first year of recovery I never lost my negative emotions, they just weren't as intense as before the injection, you will not wake up overnight and be healed it dosent work like that, you gain a little back each day etc - some dont, but for me I'd have improvements every month with the emotions and anhedonia, it took around 14 months for me to be able to experience happiness - joy and no anhedonia, even that long to have a true long cry, I was able to cry before that mark but it just felt empty, if you're able to feel any emotions that's a good sign, if you can feel boredom that's a good sign your anhedonia is going away, the first year of recovery when I would do something i enjoyed it wasn't boredom or fun, it was just nothing, like a emptiness, its hard to explain to someone unless they experience it themselves. Now I can enjoy things and actually feel boredom and happiness with things, not just this empty ass feeling all the time.I have all these sequels:
I have extremely severe anhedonia, I can't do a thing. Obviously I can't listen to music or watch tv
I have agitation. I can't be still besides when lying.
I have severe insomnia. I sleep 3h even with sleeping pills.
I have problems to walk. I have stiffness in my legs and I'm very rigid.
I have no body coordination.
I have no libido no menstruation
I can't laugh or cry
I have brain fog. I am basically dumb while I was smart before
I have problems to conversate. I will not talk on the phone or participate in a conversation.
I need to know if anybody has recovered of so much