I understand trust me, it’s a large obstacle to make it past day to day obstacles, it affects me as well. I am sorry you too understand it.
I think the reason a lot discuss, and debate the topic isn’t due to the outcome alone. Even Advaita Vedanta has a sort of “Almighty,” which is Brahman. The ultimate, the many faced god of nothing, and from nothing is everything.
They debate it to more so discuss how it is to be reached, why some can’t, why some can, why it is/isn’t possible.
They discuss it to figure out to reach their goal.
The Nondualist would argue that though, their argument would be exactly this too: “How do you know what he is or isn’t; when you are by yourself & he is alone. Without hearing him, or seeing him, what do you know of his status? Without something to perceive him, what does he become? An object must be perceived to be an objective, without it it becomes subjective. (I’m not making this point to argue by the way, just to shed light how they’d reply.)
I think my ultimate goal is probably just to learn, to become as knowledgeable on as many subjects as I can before I pass away and rot in the ground. Maybe I’ll become enlightened, and surpass the Cycle, maybe I’ll go another round. I won’t know, and I won’t remember if I do.
And Brahma is Vamanadeva, is Mahadeva, is Mahakali, is Krsna, ultimately.
I think ultimately that God, or whatever name we might pick, is and has been our concept of what we do not understand (yet).
I imagine an Ancient Egyptian explaining a Smartphone. It can only be magic from the Gods, maybe Ra-affiliated because of all the light emitted by it. We might think similarly about this in a thousand years, when mankind tries to understand our concept of God, while in that time(thousand years from now) maybe knowing of a living universe(something we highly highly theorize about today, and funnily enough makes a lot of sense.) that we misinterpreted.
The Judas Evangelium comes to mind as well, depicting how Jesus told only Judas his true message, which is to find what is godlike within oneself. If we're just tiny organisms of a bigger self, we would all be God, or whatever that may truly be, since we can only interpret higher power as that. If we live inside the confines of God, we are God, to a certain degree.
The Quran has an interesting theory, that all this is just a sandbox, and we're to prove, within the confines of this sandbox that we're worth progressing to the next level. So God not interacting when millions of people die, would be a test, ultimately - would this destroy your faith? Then you have not learned enough. I find this belief interesting, but solely because it's the "answer to everything" in a nutshell
If a tree falls in the woods, does it make a sound? Subjective reality is dangerous, very dangerous. I work with dementia patients every day as a musical therapist, and there are many interesting aspects about alzheimers, but it doesn't make their reality my own, or make it anyone else's reality. In my understanding, this is how psychosis in whatever form is born, drifting off into another reality, where nothing happens, if I didn't see it happening. I'd close my eyes and reality would come to a stop. I had a patient who every day had to remember anew that his wife died 20 years ago. He would roam the halls searching for her, until he came to that realisation. But the truth is she wasn't alive anymore, I knew it, everyone else knew it, he just didn't for the first 3 - 4 hours of every day... and intermittently at evening the same Spiel.
Dangerous tobacco, I'd be careful with that, and try to work with what I got. Maybe that reality already existed, sure, but maybe you created it.
Yes, maybe I see a colour as yellow, and you see it as green, but we will both call it red, so we will work with the fact that the colour is red. Maybe the tree did not make a sound without anyone perceiving it, but it
did fall down, that is the reality.
I hope I fulfilled what you asked for now
