My Story - Using BL Since 2010 (underage)

[Sympy]

Introduction
Hello Bluelighters I have many alias but for now call me Sympy! I discovered BlueLight back in 2010 (I was 13) back than I didn't really understand what this community was about I was just looking for ways to get high. I would look up different ways to abuse pharmaceuticals I could my hands on, informed myself on ROBO tripping so I could keep me and my friends somewhat safe on Triple C's Delsym and other dextromethorphan products and also different ways to use and abuse my ADD meds ( Adderall & later down the road when I was sent to treatment they put me on a new drug called Lisdexamfetamine aka Vyvanse) Supposedly you count abuse it your body could only digest so much... Ha what a joke I got fucking blasted on Vyvanse honestly It got to the point where i was taking the monthly scripts and downing the bottle in 3-4 days I was not being safe at all even after reading different forums on BlueLight. I had many nights of me using BlueLight to ease my mind because I thought I was ODing. As a young kid struggling with an addictive personality and looking for an escape BL was there to inform me and try to keep adults sometimes kids (Like me 10 years ago) SAFE! I just wanted to take this time and say thank you to BlueLight and its helpful community, this place probably saved my life.

Me and Meth
When I was 17 I got my hands on some methamphetamine and absolutely loved it, this was my DOC without a doubt. I didn't understand why it had such a bad reputation I wanted everyone to try it. I than realized about year into me using it almost everyday that its not so good for you, everything revolved around me getting zapped of my ass. I ended up sobering after having my first Daughter when I was 18. I was basically sober for 5 years did it maybe once or twice with some co workers.

Me in 2020
I'm a single 23y/o Dad who recently lost his bestfriend/wife of 6 years she kicked me out she wanted change I guess. Its okay, I'm okay. We ended up developing a toxic relationship, we would fight about the stupidest things, nitpick each other we basically got sick of each other and what made this all worse we did it in front of are children. I now have my own 2 bedroom apartment and I'm digging it. I get to keep everything how I like and do whatever the hell I desire. I recently started smoking meth again last month and I'm enjoying it. I was being responsible at first eating and sleeping only smoking like once a day. The past week iv been getting super high, going to casino everyday (I was up 5k on Thursday but just couldn't get myself out of there, I lost it all and than some I was there from 3pm Thursday till noon the next day I had a few hand payouts and won a jackpot. Ill probably make a post about it.) I'm being Irresponsible and stupid but idgaf at this point I don't have rent money haven't been paying my bills but its what I'm enjoying myself. As if shit couldn't get any worse for me 2020 strikes again I was diagnosed with COVID-19 on Friday (the day after I blew all my wining's and my last weeks paycheck at the bino) Now i cant work for a while, I'm stuck in this house with no food or money all I have is some Meth and CyberPunk 2077 so honestly I'm good right now lol. Last night my chest was killing me so I hoped on BlueLight and decided to finally make an account and started my first forum on here asking about the dangers of smoking meth and being infected with COVID.
Iv had some BlueLighters engaging with me and even some staff member so its been a good time! Feels good to finally engaging on here and share my story.

Visualizing My Addiction
These videos is solely for the purpose of showing my addiction/love for meth.
Videos have since been taken down for anonymity purposes.

 

[mtu mwendawazimu]

Hey @Sympy - cool intro man.

Glad you're doing fine without the wife. And you know it's in your power to reach sobriety, again, if you so choose.

You're still young. Enjoy yourself. Stay safe.

And dope hair.

Welcome to Bluelight

 

[Joey]

Welcome Sympy. Nice story and ballsy intro with the videos, I like it. I’ll link you a crazy video I made awhile back. Cyberpunk 2077, that’s a show right?

 

[Joey]

Not to take over your thread but your vids on here have insipredn me to have the balls to put this back up. I made this around June I believe when I was using every day, it’s supposed to be an artistic piece with all the effects and blur and the sounds and music (my guitaring) too. A dark place.

https://www.open.tube/videos/watch/2422258c-44c0-4a26-8221-070a9ae8ad62

 

[TheInvisibleStoner]

What does the COVID feel like? Tell us more about it.

Everyone has covid. And if they say they don't, they probably didn't get tested, or it went through them already is all.

 

[Jabberwocky]

One the one hand welcome very much to BL and thanks for your story. It’s always good hearing about people feeling they were helped.

On the other hand - fuck that vid was a bit triggery (but that’s on me, not you).

 

[Sympy]

Hey @Sympy - cool intro man.

Glad you're doing fine without the wife. And you know it's in your power to reach sobriety, again, if you so choose.

You're still young. Enjoy yourself. Stay safe.

And dope hair.

Welcome to Bluelight

Dude thank you I really wanted to my heart into my introduction post.

TBH we are still talk everyday but she found out about my drug use. She pop over after IN just got done smoking, my pupils where huge and she called me out so I told her the truth

Now she's disgusted with me and stormed off.. She doesn't understand addiction. Poor girl has been around it who whole life her mom and dad used in childhood and still are today and they wont admit it to her.

Yes I am young and that's what iv been doing iv been making the best out of things. It Just sucks if you use meth people act like your disgusting tweaker... a monster if you will. The shitty meth propaganda they feed us worked.

In reality its not really like that people use it all the time and are completely fine you would even know. It will consume you if you let it, we see it all the time. Moderation is key.

his is the longest ive grown my hair its been about two years since my last cut.

Thanks! I'm officially a BlueLighter now and it only took me 10 years!

 

[Jabberwocky]

I know I'm going to get shit for this but it's really only out of concern I promise you.

The OP, on another thread, is worried about anonymity to the extent where he is prepared to pay $25 at some point to change his username as it's being used elsewhere (and there's one or two other reasons furnished on the particular thread to which I'm referring).

Admirable and as honest and forthcoming as this intro. is: given the above all I'm saying is to think nice and if you still think this is a good idea then feel free to leave it as is bearing in mind that sooner or later this is going to be cached by a search engine or twenty and then it's going to take a long time to disappear as if by magic. I'd go so far as to say that the text is fine but the videos I'm not so sure about.

Just looking out for the OP is all.

And not trying to ruin the fun. All I'm saying is that you're young and got a good few years left in you so far as I can tell. Stuff like this has a bad and uncanny habit of catching up to you when you least expect it and from directions most will not even have thought of at the time.

Nice post. And I agree. I think we need a rule about people under say age 40 visually incriminating themselves on BL. But then all the freedom lovers in CEPS would start getting bent out of shape.

 

[Sympy]

Welcome Sympy. Nice story and ballsy intro with the videos, I like it. I’ll link you a crazy video I made awhile back. Cyberpunk 2077, that’s a show right?

Thank you so much man glad you enjoyed it, I have much much more to share over time.

I want to share my experience with people. Hope it doesn't bite me in the ass legally.

If family/friends find it in the future I could careless. They would see that I honesty care and I'm not trying to be selfish.

Cyberpunk 2077 is a new video game that has been in development for about 9 years the hype surrounding it is insane.

 

[Sympy]

I know I'm going to get shit for this but it's really only out of concern I promise you.

The OP, on another thread, is worried about anonymity to the extent where he is prepared to pay $25 at some point to change his username as it's being used elsewhere (and there's one or two other reasons furnished on the particular thread to which I'm referring).

Admirable and as honest and forthcoming as this intro. is: given the above all I'm saying is to think nice and if you still think this is a good idea then feel free to leave it as is bearing in mind that sooner or later this is going to be cached by a search engine or twenty and then it's going to take a long time to disappear as if by magic. I'd go so far as to say that the text is fine but the videos I'm not so sure about.

Just looking out for the OP is all.

And not trying to ruin the fun. All I'm saying is that you're young and got a good few years left in you so far as I can tell. Stuff like this has a bad and uncanny habit of catching up to you when you least expect it and from directions most will not even have thought of at the time.

Does BlueLight work that way? If someone searches my username will theses forums pop up on google?

I'm just sharing my story and possible change the route of someone's life, you BlueLighters can see that. Sadly I could be blackmailed or something along them lines.

As of right now I'm not two concerned nobody's out to get me I wouldn't think anyways lol.

Its funny, aren't "Meth Heads" supposed to be paranoid?

 

[Jabberwocky]

Does BlueLight work that way? If someone searches my username will theses forums pop up on google?

It would turn up eventually depending how the search is structured. If your username is a real world nickname for example you might need to be a bit more cautious if you don’t want people to join the dots. The way artificial intelligence and search engines are developing there are increasing ways identities on different forums and sites can be matched. I’d suggest you have a total random username here (can be arranged) if you want to post images of yourself or else delete the images or make them less recognisable. But it’s totally your call dude. Very few members would post using videos (though they love posting pictures of their stash and I like posting pics of my homemade meth pipes)

 

[Sympy]

Nice post. And I agree. I think we need a rule about people under say age 40 visually incriminating themselves on BL. But then all the freedom lovers in CEPS would start getting bent out of shape.

I don't think a video of me doing drugs is incriminating. Maybe a video of me selling drugs or something like that but getting high isn't a crime.

I'm going to do some research on this. lol

 

[birdup.snaildown]

@Sympy

It's also highly likely that law enforcement is aware of this site and visits it, at least on occasion. If you ever look at active members online it's always like 30 to 1 unregistered users. Not saying they're all cops, but it's probably a good idea to exercise some anonymity here. In two threads alone, over the course of a couple of days, you posted a lot of info that would make it super easy to identify you. Your age. Your city. The fact that your username can identify you on social media. The fact that you are a father. What age you became a father. The gender of your child. And - on top of that - you posted videos of yourself blatantly smoking meth on tumblr... Amps tend to make people think they're invincible. You're not invincible. Cops aren't stupid. If you ever get in real trouble, this could seriously come back to bite you in the ass.

getting high isn't a crime

You might want to double check that.

 

[Sympy]

It would turn up eventually depending how the search is structured. If your username is a real world nickname for example you might need to be a bit more cautious if you don’t want people to join the dots. The way artificial intelligence and search engines are developing there are increasing ways identities on different forums and sites can be matched. I’d suggest you have a total random username here (can be arranged) if you want to post images of yourself or else delete the images or make them less recognisable. But it’s totally your call dude. Very few members would post using videos (though they love posting pictures of their stash and I like posting pics of my homemade meth pipes)

Yeah I differently wasn't thinking about that when I made my account its a habit. I'm going to change my username next week when I get paid hopefully.

I just want to show people what addiction if they actually read the post they would understand that. one would hope anyways.

people know iv used meth so if they run across it... well now they can watch me do it lol.

fuck it my fellow BlueLights Ill think ill be okay I'm not that famous.

 

[Sympy]

@Sympy

It's also highly likely that law enforcement is aware of this site and visits it, at least on occasion. If you ever look at active members online it's always like 30 to 1 unregistered users. Not saying they're all cops, but it's probably a good idea to exercise some anonymity here. In two threads alone, over the course of a couple of days, you posted a lot of info that would make it super easy to identify you. Your age. Your city. The fact that your username can identify you on social media. The fact that you are a father. What age you became a father. The gender of your child. And - on top of that - you posted videos of yourself blatantly smoking meth on tumblr... Amps tend to make people think they're invincible. You're not invincible. Cops aren't stupid. If you ever get in real trouble, this could seriously come back to bite you in the ass.



You might want to double check that.

Yeah honestly I'm not making the smartest choices. My post are not really filtered.

I didn't think about your local police department using BL. Its a good way to find people in your area if you not being smart about.

I highly doubt that mine is using BlueLight to get info on people. I live in such a small community that I'm sure I'm the only here who uses this forum it would be such a waste of time for them.

You never know though.

 

[birdup.snaildown]

Another thing you might want to consider is giving your ex more ammunition that she already presumably has. If things go further downhill between the two of you, she might fuck you. This could mean you don't get to see your kids for a long time. It could be worse. It could mean jail. I've seen people get fucked like this before and they never saw it coming. Not trying to make you paranoid, here. Just trying to help.

Kids need their dad. You're not just playing with your own life now, you're playing with theirs too. It's a good idea to be a little bit more careful about everything when you have dependents.

You seem like a nice guy with a good heart, but the world can be a cruel place. Don't give other people ammunition. If you bend over, somebody might fuck you. It's not pretty, but that's my motto. I learnt it the hard way.

 

[Sympy]

Thank you guys for being concerned about my safety, Honestly thanks. Means a lot to me.

I'm going to go through my posts and edit them. I felt too comfortable I'm going to tone it down a bit.

 

[Joey]

Thank you guys for being concerned about my safety, Honestly thanks. Means a lot to me.

I'm going to go through my posts and edit them. I felt too comfortable I'm going to tone it down a bit.

It’s okay. Some of us are more comfortable with the media than others. I think we’re the only ones who had the balls to upload this however. I may delete my post too.

 

[Jabberwocky]

We are all about the safety dude (also the shits and giggles)

 

[Joey]

We are all about the safety dude (also the shits and giggles)

A lot of giggles here it’s masking an unearthly depression, although some chunk is really my personality. I’m contradicting myself definitely I’m still semi a young person. Hahahaha.
Have fun, be safe. Especially have fun!