Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

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I'am lying down a bit but i read your bullshit you're writing to keep me smiling. 5ml 3-Hydroxyphenazepam aaaaaaaaaaand go!!

JJ
 
morning blue friends

Sunday and the end of the week, have a lekker braai (awesome bbq) lined up for today. Some boerewors, chicken pieces and pork chops..

Love sundays as its a "braai" day
No swaar, everyday is braai day
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Fooking hell I swear I was only here the other day and it had just turned to page 301 now its 390 lol.

Anyone got advice on injecting yourself in the big ol' vein behind the knee? 💉
Please quote or tag me so I don't have to scroll few 100 pages when I come back lol
 
New love interests are indeed emotionally draining.

My only advice concerning this is to try not to turn uncertainties (no one really understands love completely anyway) into obsessions. When things start to go a different direction than expected, it's best not to obsess over the "why." This was my biggest pitfall when I was in young love. Obsessive thoughts like these can haunt you for the rest of your life it you aren't aware you are having them. Obsession basically makes empathy impossible, if you can spot yourself doing it and change it the sooner the better.

Is he the one for you? Maybe, but it's best not to worry about it too much.

IME
I'm quite sickened by myself. Not really trying to obsess. I'm more obsessed by the self-hatred.

Thank you for the advice.
 
are you ready for another, or just a relationship perhaps. knock yourself out either way. shlllongdong.
Very good question.

No I am not ready for someone else. I think part of me wants to rot in the ground alone and the other part wants a normal relationship which is never going to happen and it's no one's "fault" no one is at "the helm"... I'm tired of being dragged along in existence.
 
Today I had a match with a cooker on tinder and BUM suddenly I am also a cooker, an expert

yesterday I had a match with an engineer and BUM suddenly I was correlating the derivatives with love
I got so sick of actually reading girls profiles or even looking at their pictures before swiping yes recently.
I just been setting it on 18-50 (I'm 32) and 30 mile radius and tapping yes as fast as I can until it asks me to pay lol.
Let them come to me first, and then I'll decide if they'll get the D 😂😂
Been pretty fruitful tbh.
Should I feel bad for giving them false hope? I haven't been mean and ignored any even I don't fancy them I've at least had a little chat.
Had 3 instantly ask me for my babies 🤔 then unmatch when I suggested maybe meeting up first lol, might start offering sperm samples for a couple hundred quid or something 😂
All of the ones I actually really liked the look of I'm pretty sure I managed to ruin any of my chances by drunk messaging them the other night ffs.
I wish my phone had a breathalyzer lol

Fucking hate trying to meet online
 
No I am not ready for someone else. I think part of me wants to rot in the ground alone and the other part wants a normal relationship which is never going to happen and it's no one's "fault" no one is at "the helm"... I'm tired of being dragged along in existence.

Exactly, belive it or not, we all look for a purpose, rite. We eat the emptiness on a daily basis and I see many girls in their 20's having kids and shit with the poor excuse of poverty.
 
Exactly, belive it or not, we all look for a purpose, rite. We eat the emptiness on a daily basis and I see many girls in their 20's having kids and shit with the poor excuse of poverty.
we all look for meaning. it cannot be found if it does not exist or is always at a loss for conception and words.

But thank you for your observations.
 
I got so sick of actually reading girls profiles or even looking at their pictures before swiping yes recently.
I just been setting it on 18-50 (I'm 32) and 30 mile radius and tapping yes as fast as I can until it asks me to pay lol.
Let them come to me first, and then I'll decide if they'll get the D 😂😂
Been pretty fruitful tbh.
Should I feel bad for giving them false hope? I haven't been mean and ignored any even I don't fancy them I've at least had a little chat.
Had 3 instantly ask me for my babies 🤔 then unmatch when I suggested maybe meeting up first lol, might start offering sperm samples for a couple hundred quid or something 😂
All of the ones I actually really liked the look of I'm pretty sure I managed to ruin any of my chances by drunk messaging them the other night ffs.
I wish my phone had a breathalyzer lol

Fucking hate trying to meet online

On account of the covid situation, there is a fear permeating the background when an invitation to meet is done.. I am nervous too, I confess. Eventually I am breaking the quarantine but selecting who I am going to meet, for example, doctors, nurses, essential workers, they are out of question. Brazil is currently a chaos, it is a lottery meeting for sex during these times, but, mental health also plays a significant role in life and this pandemic is going to be with us at least another year.
 
On account of the covid situation, there is a fear permeating the background when an invitation to meet is done.. I am nervous too, I confess. Eventually I am breaking the quarantine but selecting who I am going to meet, for example, doctors, nurses, essential workers, they are out of question. Brazil is currently a chaos, it is a lottery meeting for sex during these times, but, mental health also plays a significant role in life and this pandemic is going to be with us at least another year.
<-- sex with essential worker, had covid months ago

yes this is a very real instinct to have imo
 
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