I'm Sorry

First of all I am so glad to have woken up this morning to see that you have accepted our kindness and decided not to take your life. Genuinely. You are a good bloke, and a smart one too, and I am glad you are staying with us. We don't need a new shrine thread.

Second, with CashApp, yes new accounts get flagged for potential fraud all the time due to how their systems work. These fancy digital banking services don't do many (if any) checks when you sign up, so if they notice something that might be even a little fishy, they come down it much harder than a normal bank would.

Same happens with PayPal except most people have established PP accounts already so it's usually not as common of a problem. Still happens all the time, but transfers usually go through at least.

That being said, please do transfer any money you get from CashApp or PayPal or any similar service into a real bank account, don't just leave it in the app. For the same reasons I listed above, people can and do get accounts randomly frozen and their money is then trapped, you can see many reports of this all over Trustpilot. This is likely to happen if you get a bunch of donations from around the world from strangers, the service will assume something shady is going on and automated systems will freeze your account and customer service will not do shit. Same again with PP or any similar service.

Don't use them as banks. Transfer the money to a real bank asap.

The suggestion to set up a fundraiser is the best one. Do that, link it direct to your own bank account, and we can send donations that way. It should all be relatively anon as well, or at the very least everyone should just show up as usernames so no doxxing concerns on either end.

Finally, I am glad you got a weed hookup my man. Seriously, weed is everywhere and there's definitely no reason to end your life over not being able to afford weed copays, fuck the US medical system and fuck the insurance companies. Just get that shit the old fashioned way. I am so glad you got hooked up for free/super cheap. If it was you, @OpiateKiller, you are blessed!

Finally finally, pregabalin withdrawal is an absolute cunt, but it does not last forever and your rational mind knows this. If the pregabalin was helping you before, you could buy more from abroad cheaply and with ease. If you are just struggling from withdrawal and don't care too much about staying on it, remember it is not forever. A month at worst until the acute symptoms are behind you. You are strong, you can do it. I know you have come off opiates before so you can make pregabalin your bitch no troubles mate.

You know this already but gabapentin and baclofen can help you taper from pregabalin as well. As I understand it gabapentin is readily available on the streets in the US. And again easily and cheaply imported. That weed will also really help especially with rebound pain/anxiety/sleep. Insomnia I found was the worst on pregabalin w/d so a nice sedating strain should do so much good for you.

We all love you and care for you mate. Happy to have you still with us.
 
GoFundMe works - and there is the option to keep donation anonymous.

Can we post the direct link to the GoFundMe page in here?
 
That would be difficult ladalkaline because Ive been all over the place with housing. I gave my real name for the gofundme because I really wouldnt care if someome doxxed me.

A physical address is a little too much for me though, but thank you for the idea.
 
This is the direct link to the GoFundMe page:

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Or the full hyperlink:

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MOD EDIT: thanks to everyone who donated, however we are going to remove the remaining links now that the targets been reached.
 
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That would be difficult ladalkaline because Ive been all over the place with housing. I gave my real name for the gofundme because I really wouldnt care if someome doxxed me.

A physical address is a little too much for me though, but thank you for the idea.
I actually just thought of something.

I am a member of a group on Facebook where we send each other secret presents from our wishlists, Amazon hides the address.

If you feel like it you can make a wishlist and set up 3rd party shipping and share the link with us, it hides your personal information.

You don't have to though, just an idea 😊
 
I'm sorry Kief. You have been a positive knowledgeable voice on this forum for a long time now. I've personally enjoyed my interactions with you. No judgement and I sincerely hope you find peace at the end.

PLUR
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I am very grateful to have such solid friends. That fact in itself is amazing. I just want to let everyone know im still gonna be on limited support today.

Everything is perfect but it will still take a day or two to actually get this sorted. The pain is easier when there is a light at the end of the tunnel. When you really cant fathom any relief coming it is so much worse.
 
Ok, I can't leave this thread. @Keif' Richards can you please PM me?

I'm so sorry but I have to say.. my sister killed herself when she was 21. This was in '2000. I can't even begin to describe the absolute heartache left for our family to deal with. She had to be identified by her SHOES. I KNOW for certain had she had one more conversation about life with me, called a single person or helpline she'd still be here today.
All I have left are my memories. She burnt every single photo of herself before she died. I have a fucken morbid grave to look down upon when I want to visit her.
In my dreams she's there and she's not happy.
I agree. I was suicidal for most of my life. And constantly engaged in behaviors that were self-destructive.
it wasn’t until my boyfriend Hung himself in my house that I realized that it was something that I would never entertain or try again. The destruction it did to his family and the aftermath it caused with myself is insurmountable. I realize now that I could never do that to the people that love me. There’s always a solution.
@Keif' Richards please know that there is help available. You have a lot of people that obviously care about you and don’t wanna see anything happen to you. I understand the chronic pain can be debilitating and makes it really tough to want to go on. I also suffer from a lot of chronic pain and it’s extremely difficult and frustrating. Not having health insurance can definitely make the situation seem impossible. However, I assure you that it is not an impossible situation. I know it sounds trite but it is a permanent solution to a temporary feeling. Hang in there. If I wasn’t unemployed at the moment I would certainly contribute to your cause.
 
Have one on me matey...

Just a suggestion...of course your $ is your $ but would be an idea if you could somehow use the donations to start something sustainable off for yourself, whatever form that may take (or, if not, then make sure to get the very best weed possible for your buck :)

Sometimes just knowing people care can make the very biggest difference to things...and now you know for sure that people do...

Hoping today feels a bit better than yesterday did. Big Love <3
 
I'm feeling so sad because I also want to help but I cannot.

Because of the Covid-Lockdown I have not earned a single cent since more than 8 weeks and I couldn't even pay my rent - and in addition, this shitty practice owner kicked me out because of ( really nothing) the practice so I'm standing here and want to help you, too, Keif', but I cannot.

I hate it so much because I cannot even donate 10 Euros!!! Normally that's not a fucking problem!!!

Is there anything else you need, anything in my posession that I could send to you instead of money? Please feel free to ask IF I'm having this or that I could give you. You can always PM me.

I hate myself and I'm ashamed because you helped so many hundreds of people, me included, and I can't do NOTHING!!!


JJ
 
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