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I unfortunately really like stimulants. I don't usually have them (besides caffeine which isn't the same at all as dopaminergic stimulants and really just wake me up and gives me energy without making me feel fundamentally different), but at this time I decided to get some 3-MMC and hexen. Overused them, which happens, which is why I usually don't let myself get them. I wanted more from the bH-2C-B, and I thought, well hey, let's do some stims. The 3-MMC was nice, but the hexen fucked it up. Hexen is weird, I don't think I like it anymore. It's similar to coke in that it's pretty short-lived and compulsive, except I can do good coke periodically through a night, fall asleep later, and wake up feeling pretty good. Hexen lasts longer and just keeps making me want to redose, even though it's not super good in the first place. I think the last time I got it (like 2 years ago), it was better quality, because it remember there being a super euphoric rush that I was chasing with diminishing returns, whereas this time the rush was not even that great. Dumb drug. It's only bearable with benzos. As a result I ended up taking etizolam almost every night this past week which is a bad thing. I didn't take it (or hexen) yesterday. I started feeling sick last night before bed and slept really hard and had he weirdest dreams all night, and this morning I feel like I have the flu. I think I actually do though. I ran myself down and didn't sleep enough. I have aches and pains and feel really tired and crappy, but acetaminophne made me feel somewhat better and I don't feel anxious or anything. I was pretty worried at first that I had caught some benzo dependence (never have before) but I doubt it.
I blame hexen (well, myself, but yeah). It's also the only stimulant that has ever made me feel on the edge of psychosis. Though that was actually a really fun and cool experience since I wasn't paranoid and knew i was happening. I have never had such profound and true hallucinations before. They were persisting and the only reason it was possible to tell them apart from regular perceptions was because I knew there was no way a guy was sitting next to me that I couldn't see when I looked straight at him, and I knew that there was no way that strange radio stations were playing from my walls.
Yeah probably. I will try it again sometime relative soon and take more, and probably smoke weed if anything but that's it. I think it takes a long time to get going, too. It's probably pretty dependent on individual chemistry like bk-2C-B, I bet, too. Some people reported incredibly amazing experiences on bk-2C-B, and some never got much, like me. I've read of overwhelming experiences on it from 100-120mg, whereas I took up to 220mg of it and never got fully developed effects. bH-2C-B may be like that for me too, but I don't think I gave it a fair shake yet.
