ChemicallyEnhanced
Bluelighter
I'd never taken a drug before. I went in with acute pancreatitis clean and left 10 weeks later addicted (physically and mentally) to morphine, chloridiazapoxide (libruim) and lorazepam and haloperidol they had me on (all the morphine IV, some of the lorazepam IV and all the haloperidol oh and IV phenobarbital sometimes)
I know they were just giving me what I needed, which is why I have never actually tried before, but 7 soul-destroying years later and I really wish they hadn't given so much addictive shit...my life is miserable and ruined. I literally broke my dad. He was the most happy-go-lucky and positive person you could meet/ Now, he's perpetually stress an is extremely depressive and pessimistic - the opposite to what he was. I'm crying now, thinking about it. Imagine sucking every ounce of happiness and hope out of someone. Now imagine it being your dad.
I got sloppy and dropped a percocet on the living room floor when my 18-month niece later picked it up. Luckily, she knew what to do and handed it straight my mum. But still, if she had swallowed it...
Sorry, this is turning into to a reasons-I'm-a-piece-of=human-shit thread.
I just wanted to try to explain what this addict has done to me and people around me.
If anyone here works with the NHS or within a doctors office or a pharmacist I would love to hear from you!
I know they were just giving me what I needed, which is why I have never actually tried before, but 7 soul-destroying years later and I really wish they hadn't given so much addictive shit...my life is miserable and ruined. I literally broke my dad. He was the most happy-go-lucky and positive person you could meet/ Now, he's perpetually stress an is extremely depressive and pessimistic - the opposite to what he was. I'm crying now, thinking about it. Imagine sucking every ounce of happiness and hope out of someone. Now imagine it being your dad.
I got sloppy and dropped a percocet on the living room floor when my 18-month niece later picked it up. Luckily, she knew what to do and handed it straight my mum. But still, if she had swallowed it...
Sorry, this is turning into to a reasons-I'm-a-piece-of=human-shit thread.
I just wanted to try to explain what this addict has done to me and people around me.
If anyone here works with the NHS or within a doctors office or a pharmacist I would love to hear from you!
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