I *was* going to overdose with the next month once I obtain the heroin
As the title says that's my plan. I give up. I'll never have the trust needed from others to gain necessary support to complete activities of daily living or even just to be able to lay in bed, stand up, or at in a chair without aggravating the painful areas. I'm done with all of the lying "professionals" that refuse support on the grounds I am an addict so I need to go become dependent on methadone or Suboxone at doses equivalent to 1-6 grams of morphine just to say that I'm "following a standard treatment plan."
Fuck them, fuck everything, fuck this world, fuck the hustlers, fuck the dealers, fuck the great lie that is the opiod epidemic, and Nich of all fuck my life I want it to end.
Only way this would change is if I was sent 1100$ a month to buy dope for a couple months as I stabalize in my old job. That's not happening nor can I get a script of 40 mg 2x a day at most of oxycodone ER with 5-10 mg oxymorphone IR 4x a day.... The equivalent to 210 mg of morphine through the day. That's at most while the oxycodone could likely start at 20 possibly just 10 mg per dose. Yet nope.... All they say is I'm a drug seeking addict go overdose on methadone. Fuck everything I'm done
As the title says that's my plan. I give up. I'll never have the trust needed from others to gain necessary support to complete activities of daily living or even just to be able to lay in bed, stand up, or at in a chair without aggravating the painful areas. I'm done with all of the lying "professionals" that refuse support on the grounds I am an addict so I need to go become dependent on methadone or Suboxone at doses equivalent to 1-6 grams of morphine just to say that I'm "following a standard treatment plan."
Fuck them, fuck everything, fuck this world, fuck the hustlers, fuck the dealers, fuck the great lie that is the opiod epidemic, and Nich of all fuck my life I want it to end.
Only way this would change is if I was sent 1100$ a month to buy dope for a couple months as I stabalize in my old job. That's not happening nor can I get a script of 40 mg 2x a day at most of oxycodone ER with 5-10 mg oxymorphone IR 4x a day.... The equivalent to 210 mg of morphine through the day. That's at most while the oxycodone could likely start at 20 possibly just 10 mg per dose. Yet nope.... All they say is I'm a drug seeking addict go overdose on methadone. Fuck everything I'm done
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