Morninggloryseed
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I wanna accidentally take too much LSD when attempting to microdose. Sounds wonky. That is my contribution tonight. Hope all is well and all the best.
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Morninggloryseed
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Nice xor. I enjoyed as I bathed. What kinda delay pedal? It sounds very clean (a boss digital? Nah, I can't tell but it can't be a memory man.)
I mean to catch up and get to PMs...emotions and time.
Earlier mention of valerian....bought some myself this week. Good stuff, helped me transition back down to half a valium at night.
Xor...really enjoying the playing, changing of tempos, almost sounds classical w delay pedal! I'm gonna have you play on a worthy track of mine should I produce one this year.
I mean to catch up and get to PMs...emotions and time.
Earlier mention of valerian....bought some myself this week. Good stuff, helped me transition back down to half a valium at night.
Xor...really enjoying the playing, changing of tempos, almost sounds classical w delay pedal! I'm gonna have you play on a worthy track of mine should I produce one this year.
I was just playing around today with my delay pedal and decided to record it because I'm playing particularly well today... thought I'd share. I hope someone enjoys hearing this half as much as I enjoyed playing it.
https://soundcloud.com/user-636222547/e-alone-delay-11-27-17
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Thanks. 
Yeah when I play by myself a lot of the time it sounds classical, because I love that kind of music, plus I learned to play by playing classical. The delay pedal is an Electro-Harmonix Memory Man. I'm real bummed because I left it at the band house last night so I can't play with it today. 
Yeah when I play by myself a lot of the time it sounds classical, because I love that kind of music, plus I learned to play by playing classical. The delay pedal is an Electro-Harmonix Memory Man. I'm real bummed because I left it at the band house last night so I can't play with it today. 
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
I was just playing around today with my delay pedal and decided to record it because I'm playing particularly well today... thought I'd share. I hope someone enjoys hearing this half as much as I enjoyed playing it.
https://soundcloud.com/user-636222547/e-alone-delay-11-27-17
fuck yeah! that was dripping with soul. The surface of mars got splashed some of that funky Xorkoth, damn, he, splashin' them fingers deeep' I just had the craziest 3-MeO-PCP experience and this was a nice finale to it. You get closing score credits with epicness.
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Haha, thanks man, glad you enjoyed it.
ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
Yeah, valerian potentiates and enhances benzos I find, so I can get by on less valium. Maybe I will have some kava tonight. It has been a long and splendid day in this little corner of the universe.
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
What is soul retrieval?
Here's some links:
http://www.sharedwisdom.com/page/soul-retrieval
http://www.sandraingerman.com/soulretrieval.html
https://www.shamanlinks.net/shaman-info/shamanic-healing/soul-retrieval-healing/
Basically, at various times in our existence as a soul, we fragment off pieces of our self as a protection method. Usually due to circumstances of trauma, wounding, etc. These pieces are then left elsewhere, until we realize that fragmentation has occurred, and we would like to retrieve them. In this case, I had fragmented off a warrior aspect of my soul after a rather dramatic sequence of events, and had been living without this piece for many lifetimes / hundreds of years. I had realized I was fragmented when I last tripped on LSD a few months ago, and out of the belief that my abundant psychedelic use had caused the fragmentation, decided to stop tripping for a few years. I'm sure a few of you may remember my posts about this back in August. Going into the healing I had assumed I would be retrieving pieces of me that I had split off during this lifetime due to various causes, psychedelics included of course. In fact, I've never had any experience with anything "past life" or other than "psy997" before. However, when we began the work, it became obvious that the biggest piece that wanted to be retrieved - and had actually found her the day before while we had been conversing, according to her just showing up and saying "Hey! I'm here!", she's extremely well versed and perceptive in all things related to energy and soul-work - was actually from lifetimes ago, and was, as I said, the warrior aspect of my soul.
After we finished, I felt more whole, but couldn't really feel a difference. I had been expecting a massive shift in consciousness and perspective. She said she couldn't see it on my face, either - she can see entire timelines of a soul's existence, and we've been together for many hundreds of lifetimes, before conflict came, we split away from each other, and I fought for many lifetimes, us only now reuniting, so she's very intimate with this piece. However, last night, three days later, I put on an amazing djembe drumming album after smoking a bit of weed, and the piece just flooded in. I've never experienced so much grief, despair, sadness, and anger. I almost completely dissociated from psy997 and became this aspect, feeling like I had been buried alive in a coffin for 500 years, unable to breath, and only now released and able to be alive. I dry heaved for almost an hour, absolutely terrified at now being aware after so long, and in such a different time, space, and body. I had an unimaginable questioning of identity, even greater than that of my DPT trip that shattered me last year, and an overwhelming sense of 'coming to'. I could go into more detail, but I'd rather not at this moment, I'm going to try and connect more deeply and allow the piece through more before my roommate's home. But yea...
I can tell you right now, souls are real, we're not one time living beings, and this shit is deeper than you can imagine. I feel like I've been initiated into the next chapter of my life. Shit is about to get crazy.
http://www.sharedwisdom.com/page/soul-retrieval
http://www.sandraingerman.com/soulretrieval.html
https://www.shamanlinks.net/shaman-info/shamanic-healing/soul-retrieval-healing/
Basically, at various times in our existence as a soul, we fragment off pieces of our self as a protection method. Usually due to circumstances of trauma, wounding, etc. These pieces are then left elsewhere, until we realize that fragmentation has occurred, and we would like to retrieve them. In this case, I had fragmented off a warrior aspect of my soul after a rather dramatic sequence of events, and had been living without this piece for many lifetimes / hundreds of years. I had realized I was fragmented when I last tripped on LSD a few months ago, and out of the belief that my abundant psychedelic use had caused the fragmentation, decided to stop tripping for a few years. I'm sure a few of you may remember my posts about this back in August. Going into the healing I had assumed I would be retrieving pieces of me that I had split off during this lifetime due to various causes, psychedelics included of course. In fact, I've never had any experience with anything "past life" or other than "psy997" before. However, when we began the work, it became obvious that the biggest piece that wanted to be retrieved - and had actually found her the day before while we had been conversing, according to her just showing up and saying "Hey! I'm here!", she's extremely well versed and perceptive in all things related to energy and soul-work - was actually from lifetimes ago, and was, as I said, the warrior aspect of my soul.
After we finished, I felt more whole, but couldn't really feel a difference. I had been expecting a massive shift in consciousness and perspective. She said she couldn't see it on my face, either - she can see entire timelines of a soul's existence, and we've been together for many hundreds of lifetimes, before conflict came, we split away from each other, and I fought for many lifetimes, us only now reuniting, so she's very intimate with this piece. However, last night, three days later, I put on an amazing djembe drumming album after smoking a bit of weed, and the piece just flooded in. I've never experienced so much grief, despair, sadness, and anger. I almost completely dissociated from psy997 and became this aspect, feeling like I had been buried alive in a coffin for 500 years, unable to breath, and only now released and able to be alive. I dry heaved for almost an hour, absolutely terrified at now being aware after so long, and in such a different time, space, and body. I had an unimaginable questioning of identity, even greater than that of my DPT trip that shattered me last year, and an overwhelming sense of 'coming to'. I could go into more detail, but I'd rather not at this moment, I'm going to try and connect more deeply and allow the piece through more before my roommate's home. But yea...
I can tell you right now, souls are real, we're not one time living beings, and this shit is deeper than you can imagine. I feel like I've been initiated into the next chapter of my life. Shit is about to get crazy.
Morninggloryseed
Bluelight Crew
Interesting. Heh, I was way off. Sounded very clean for a memory man then again I probably overload mine, distortion loving I am.
The delay pedal is an Electro-Harmonix Memory Man. I'm real bummed because I left it at the band house last night so I can't play with it today.
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Well my methy friend just tried to get me to give him money after being really mad at me that I didn't believe him and telling me to fuck off a couple days ago, he appealed to me emotionally because he knows exactly how to manipulate me and how much I hate confrontation. I didn't give him money, I tried my best to explain my position to him in the nicest possible way, but after he saw he wouldn't get anything from me he told me I'm now on his list of people who are supposed to love him who don't give a fuck, and blocked me from Facebook.
It's always the same with him lately... he says he has money on (venmo/entropay/etc) and can't get it, but he can send me money from that and I paypal him money. He says he needs cash today, but guess what? Paypal takes a couple days to turn into cash. It never adds up. How fucking dare he try to make me feel like I'm being an uncaring asshole. He's the one trying to scam me, his oldest friend. And he's the one inflicting all manner of pain on loved ones and then when we don't support his psychosis he tells us we're bad friends/family.
Fuck that. God damnit I just spent the last 2 hours of my day on this, now I'm behind at work and I feel like fucking shit. I feel guilty too for some reason. Not to mention the constant underlying anxiety I've been feeling the past few weeks about it. God damn it.
EDIT: Lovely, now he's unblocking and reblocking with messages in between. He couldn't possibly me more disappointed in me, etc. I managed to get one in saying that he's manipulating me and I think that's a pretty asshole thing to do. Not that he reads anything I send, it's always quick reply and a string of 30 messages within 3 seconds of me sending anything, even when it's a thought-out, long reply articulating myself.
It's always the same with him lately... he says he has money on (venmo/entropay/etc) and can't get it, but he can send me money from that and I paypal him money. He says he needs cash today, but guess what? Paypal takes a couple days to turn into cash. It never adds up. How fucking dare he try to make me feel like I'm being an uncaring asshole. He's the one trying to scam me, his oldest friend. And he's the one inflicting all manner of pain on loved ones and then when we don't support his psychosis he tells us we're bad friends/family.
Fuck that. God damnit I just spent the last 2 hours of my day on this, now I'm behind at work and I feel like fucking shit. I feel guilty too for some reason. Not to mention the constant underlying anxiety I've been feeling the past few weeks about it. God damn it.
EDIT: Lovely, now he's unblocking and reblocking with messages in between. He couldn't possibly me more disappointed in me, etc. I managed to get one in saying that he's manipulating me and I think that's a pretty asshole thing to do. Not that he reads anything I send, it's always quick reply and a string of 30 messages within 3 seconds of me sending anything, even when it's a thought-out, long reply articulating myself.
zephyr
Ex-Bluelighter
^ Is this person an old blr? This is very very familiar, might be the same person Im talking to.... hmmm. I dont send any money to anyone unless they are living in their car broke and suicidal
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
No, he's not been to Bluelight before.
I can't send money to him because he's talking about people in his ceiling spying on him, how he learned how to program computers (from being computer illiterate) in weeks and hacked his brother's bank accounts and there was $4M in there, but he didn't take it, but the guy upstairs has cameras in his track lighting and has stolen $100,000 of the $4M so far by recording his keystrokes with a microphone that's also in the track lighting, and it's only because he's never sleeping that it's not all gone. And there are tunnels under his house and someone is in them trying to kill him. Shit like that. He swears he's not doing meth anymore but he's off his rocker. He claims he hates his family but it's just because they realized and stopped giving him money because he was spending it all on drugs.
I can't send money to him because he's talking about people in his ceiling spying on him, how he learned how to program computers (from being computer illiterate) in weeks and hacked his brother's bank accounts and there was $4M in there, but he didn't take it, but the guy upstairs has cameras in his track lighting and has stolen $100,000 of the $4M so far by recording his keystrokes with a microphone that's also in the track lighting, and it's only because he's never sleeping that it's not all gone. And there are tunnels under his house and someone is in them trying to kill him. Shit like that. He swears he's not doing meth anymore but he's off his rocker. He claims he hates his family but it's just because they realized and stopped giving him money because he was spending it all on drugs.
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vortech
Bluelighter
I hate to hear the meth psychosis stories, it breaks my heart. But you did the right thing Xork. These are personal battles, and intervention can only do so much. Only himself can fight the demon.
ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
Man, I've been on 2cc and 2cd for weeks... going on 2c-e now... and reading that made me feel sane. Hope your friend pulls it together that is crazy, never knew a friend with psychosis like that. Man even though he is a long time friend, maybe you should stop talking to him until / if he regains his sanity dude because the dark energy is rubbing off on you. There is nothing you can do man, I'd let go for now you are good at that I bet. I had to do similar things with old friends recently... get toxic people out of my life, no matter how long we had been friends. Since, they started taking out their personal problems on me; I am cool with helping people for nothing in return but when they take it out on me, I am too sensitive for that and it messes with my head. In my case they were mentally ill and / or drug addicts, but without them being in such immediate danger like that I can't imagine how you feel... he seems like a dangerous person at the moment. Should he not be like, checked out mentally or something before he does something fucking crazy?
I have a month of clean time today. Crazy how it went by so fast... soon enough it will be two months. I have changed my life more constructively in this month, than I have in the past several years.
I have been so stoned and high on psychs lately, that I got lost in an area I know like the back of my hand yesterday that is right beside my place. I am so stoned, as for helping a friend out with something finance related I got a backpack full of a beautiful herb plant. Had to trim all day... trimming gets annoying haha. Girl scout cookies... so yeah, I am somewhere up in the sky ^^^^, no longer in my mind, but I have reasons to believe that I somehow have attracted a foxy blonde chicks attention. I understand completely, but I don't. I have just been an acid freak lately and I don't know up from down, but somehow I made this happen. I don't even know how, and I don't know what I am going to say, but we seem to get along quite well. We are meeting up at one of my favourite places, a small stone pub that seems like it is from the past, and out of town that is super chill, with local craft beers and really yummy food. Should be a hot date... if that's what one calls a foxy blonde chick from work and I meeting up for dinner and drinks at a cute little restaurant / pub after chatting for a few weeks. I am considering it a date, even though we are talking about some work stuff, we have plenty in common, we planned it for Friday evening at this place which I would call nice and romantic. I am so stoned and on psychs a lot of the time, that I don't even know what's going on anymore. All I know, is that I am attracting more and more hilarity and positive energy into my life without so much as lifting a finger to try. I only thought hard once about what to say to this chick and it was with my new buddies advice since I don't know wtf I am doing when it comes to making plans, getting numbers... I will do everything, and then forget that part because I am not thinking about it. I haven't been on a date since like June I don't know what the hell I am doing or how I seem to have got one... I like foxy blonde chicks haha.
I have a month of clean time today. Crazy how it went by so fast... soon enough it will be two months. I have changed my life more constructively in this month, than I have in the past several years.
I have been so stoned and high on psychs lately, that I got lost in an area I know like the back of my hand yesterday that is right beside my place. I am so stoned, as for helping a friend out with something finance related I got a backpack full of a beautiful herb plant. Had to trim all day... trimming gets annoying haha. Girl scout cookies... so yeah, I am somewhere up in the sky ^^^^, no longer in my mind, but I have reasons to believe that I somehow have attracted a foxy blonde chicks attention. I understand completely, but I don't. I have just been an acid freak lately and I don't know up from down, but somehow I made this happen. I don't even know how, and I don't know what I am going to say, but we seem to get along quite well. We are meeting up at one of my favourite places, a small stone pub that seems like it is from the past, and out of town that is super chill, with local craft beers and really yummy food. Should be a hot date... if that's what one calls a foxy blonde chick from work and I meeting up for dinner and drinks at a cute little restaurant / pub after chatting for a few weeks. I am considering it a date, even though we are talking about some work stuff, we have plenty in common, we planned it for Friday evening at this place which I would call nice and romantic. I am so stoned and on psychs a lot of the time, that I don't even know what's going on anymore. All I know, is that I am attracting more and more hilarity and positive energy into my life without so much as lifting a finger to try. I only thought hard once about what to say to this chick and it was with my new buddies advice since I don't know wtf I am doing when it comes to making plans, getting numbers... I will do everything, and then forget that part because I am not thinking about it. I haven't been on a date since like June I don't know what the hell I am doing or how I seem to have got one... I like foxy blonde chicks haha.
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Xorkoth
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Dude if you start taking 2C-E like you've been taking 2C-C and 2C-D you're gonna get a lot more out there... just saying. 2C-E is a totally different beast. I think you should probably spend some time not on psychedelics because you're gonna eventually make it impossible to keep all this positivity you've attracted. That's cool you've attracted a nice girl. But if you're gonna have a head full of 2C-E on your date it might not go as well as you think. 2C-C, yeah. 2C-E? Maybe not.
Anyway, my girl is coming home tomorrow! So pumped! I'm gonna pick her up from the airport an hour or so away at 10pm... come back here, gonna get in bed and that's about it til morning. I cannot wait to see that girl.
Also tonight I'm going with friends to see my friend's band open up for an awesome band I also love seeing. I am thinking I might take some AMT. Either that or LSD, but everyone else will probably be taking MDMA. LSD and MDMA is a good combo, but I don't really want to feel slightly drained for the next few days so I am leaning towards AMT instead. AMT fills all the drug needs, trippy and very empathogenic. If I add a little 3-MeO-PCE I don't think I'll be missing anything.
But if you're gonna have a head full of 2C-E on your date it might not go as well as you think. 2C-C, yeah. 2C-E? Maybe not.Anyway, my girl is coming home tomorrow! So pumped! I'm gonna pick her up from the airport an hour or so away at 10pm... come back here, gonna get in bed and that's about it til morning.
I cannot wait to see that girl.Also tonight I'm going with friends to see my friend's band open up for an awesome band I also love seeing. I am thinking I might take some AMT. Either that or LSD, but everyone else will probably be taking MDMA. LSD and MDMA is a good combo, but I don't really want to feel slightly drained for the next few days so I am leaning towards AMT instead. AMT fills all the drug needs, trippy and very empathogenic. If I add a little 3-MeO-PCE I don't think I'll be missing anything.
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third_eye_lasik
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Truth! 2c-e is uber serious business and isn't really for attractiing positive energy or daily experiences. It is a draining but fantastic experience on par with mescaline or 4-aco-dmt. Be safe and always take breaks.Dude if you start taking 2C-E like you've been taking 2C-C and 2C-D you're gonna get a lot more out there... just saying. 2C-E is a totally different beast. I think you should probably spend some time not on psychedelics because you're gonna eventually make it impossible to keep all this positivity you've attracted. That's cool you've attracted a nice girl.
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ShroomySatori
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Dude if you start taking 2C-E like you've been taking 2C-C and 2C-D you're gonna get a lot more out there... just saying. 2C-E is a totally different beast. I think you should probably spend some time not on psychedelics because you're gonna eventually make it impossible to keep all this positivity you've attracted. That's cool you've attracted a nice girl.
Dude... how am I going to handle a date with this fox tonight when I am busy scraping finger hash off my fingers after trimming all morning. My hands are like black with it, I will touch her and leave finger hash stains everywhere. I have set it up well.. very nice romantic location. Def no 2c-E man I need to not use psychs for like a year... and yeah, I think since it is a new month, and I am a month clean today as well, it would be a good time not to use any 2c-c or 2c-d for a while. Maybe I will go to the dinner just stoned tonight, well, I will microdose a little 2c-c because I am pretty much out of it, I may as well finish it and never use it again. I think it is better to do that... when the 2c-c is done just stop. That will be a couple days from now, and it's the only one I can function normally on, so I see myself transitioning back to stonedriety. I'd like to be myself tonight, although, I feel like I am myself on these two phenethylamines at least. I have been meeting her this whole time on them, and she is quite silly and cute, and we have a chill connection. I like blonde foxed lol I have a proclivity for them. I'm already far out enough that I don't know up from down anymore, but I still retain my normal personality somehow. I def won't be being like judged or anything tonight we already know each other well enough to know we like each other... I am going to be my typical silly but smart self... she likes to laugh so that is a plus, as I have been in hysterics pretty much for 2 weeks. She is the type, where I think making her laugh is of vital importance.
I think it is going to be a very fun night lol : ) ... I have never used 2c-e before and don't intend to anytime soon dude. I was kinda joking at the progression... 2c-c... 2c-d... 2c-e... 2c-f... 2c-g... 2c-t-2.... 2c-t-7... haha. Kinda like tylenol... codeine... morphine... hydrocodone... oxycodone... hydromorphone... perhaps oxymorphone but we d'own have nonothat here... heroin.... fentanyl... carfentayl laced fentanyl laced heroin.... down the rabbit hole she goes.
I totally got to go on a hot date on 2c-c man without her knowing. It will be the epitome of my experience with 2c-c (I feel like it'd be a crazy aphrodesiac too... but I am getting ahead of myself). I don't think, that I will dose at all until just as I arrive and sit down with her all nice and cozy. You are def right man I have used the stuff enough, and a month clean of opiates is rather solid. I feel that I no longer require their spiritual protection, except perhaps once a week or two, and dmt is my favourite for more frequent use like that (once every one or two weeks I'd say is frequent... but one acidfreak couple of weeks shouldn't do me too much harm. Just gotta know when to stop, I can sense that I should in fact. You gave me a nice reminder I should probably do that.
Should I expect some brain fryage for a bit? Well, I think it is best not to think about that and just move on and live in the present moment. I will, in fact, likely be brain sizzled for a week or so. Not too worried about that, considering the amount of organic chron I have at my disposal.
I am seeing tonight as a potential serious relationship... I definitely see her that way. I never get nervous but I sort of have butterflies in my stomach... I shouldn't, knowing how we've got to know each other and all. It is because, she really is quite attractive to me and I don't even know how this happened. Just being me and real with her (but not too real... I am not telling her my life story yet she'd likely run the other way). I am just shy of 30 so it isn't for fun and games, but that is just me. Fun and games, I am just going to be myself and not give a fuck. Psychedelics are a part of me as well, and I think it would be nice to tell her one day in the future if this somehow worked out, that I was tripping on our first date. Anyways, that has been my attitude so far and she seems to be digging it as I didn't need to ask her out... she did. I can't ask chicks out haha. Forgetting to get her #... story of my life. I was telling this to my other friend from work and she probably told her that so that is why she asked me out. Getting into tripped out female analysis thought loops that will lead me down the rabbit hole, you see. I'm really just being myself and meeting a (highly damn attractive, like WTF) friend tonight. That is how I see it anyway. Maybe it will work out... she's really chill and I kinda need that, chicks rein me down to earth a little bit from the stars, and she might jive with my hysterical and passionate energy. That is sort of what has been happening so far I feel but tonight is really important... that's why I can't think about it and just smoke a joint on the way, rail a bump of 2cc and not even think about it just talk... engage her... I mean, that's me right now. (shrugs shoulders). At least I'm not sniffing and shooting smack anymore.
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