Ds
Bluelight Crew
Hey D's, I was just responding to something along these lines over in CD. Here is the thread. I think that what you are feeling probably has more to do with this guy than with the issue. Addiction can be to anything that owns you but certainly there are aspects of particular addictions that are different and should not be overlooked. Is there any kind of help for mediating problems like this where you are? Resentments can really become debilitating when allowed to fester unresolved. Having a counselor or someone help mediate a conversation between you two might be helpful. If that isn't possible just look for ways to let it go. One of the ways I use is to ask myself, "Is this hurting me or helping me to hang onto?" The answer is never the latter. Still, I usually can't let it go.So step #2 is this question," What could I do to diffuse the resentment?" Then I weigh the risks of whatever I answered with. (For instance if it is talking to the person, might this make things worse? Are there ways to help create a better outcome?)
I've heard about other addicts being frustrated over guys who make it so hard to come off weed. I know it's not good to be resentful, but I'd probably feel the same. When you've been through benzo and opiate withdrawal hell, then to hear some doucehbag talk about missing some weed, I'd probably yell "Shut the fuck up!"
Feeling refreshed.
Looking back at my own life, I paused. And thought about the time when I started smoking 'reggie' weed, then moved up to 'mids' then dank/dro, when it wasnt getting me high,started smoking hash, then went from hash to wax and shatter. Went from spending a few bucks to spending damn near a quarter of my paycheck at the time on weed!
So, after looking at it like that I went to my coworker and told him that i understand now, and thanked him. He had the look of an upsidedown question mark on his face lol.
Ive been busy today, working with 2 guys coming from prison, and working with a guy coming from his moms basement, ofcourse they bumped heads. Explained the 'hippa' law to them, and told them how serious it is to talk about others personal program with others.
Gave some consequences to some guys, they have to write the big book& 12x12 of AA, and several other things.