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Share Something Positive About You Day vs. Good Things Happen Everyday

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Finally had the energy to set up a signal chain and start learning a cover song that I really like. My back gave out within half an hour, but it's a start and I really enjoyed my practice. I need to figure out how to deal with that physical agony through some other means if I'm no longer going to use. I used to practice 4 hours a day and have to get back there. That was a year and a half ago and once my addiction got bad it's like I forgot I have two great guitars to play. I don't really get much more enjoyment out of anything else but all I can do is get practicing again and forget about all the time that I wasted.
 
What was the cover song?

Positive for the day: getting excited about going back to South America in January.
 
Cover song I'm working on is I Am The Killer by Thursday. I really like the guitar part and it's not too challenging to help me get back into my music after giving up on it for so long. I really want to record my own album, I had the idea last year when I was taking china white. I started filling a notebook with lyrics, and chord progressions. But my style has changed very much since then - more aggressive. It's just what I'm good at because I am so damn angry all the time =D

Its also good practice for me because it is in the key of D minor if I'm not mistaken. I don't normally play in that key and I need to get a good grip on the fretboard again, start working with flats and sharps, recognizing the patterns again, etc. I'm so frustrated at the skill I have lost, but I also seem to have gained an edge of confidence in my playing that I didn't have before.
 
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So I am reading stuff that I wrote as little as two weeks ago to friends, and it doesn't even sound like me. It's unfathomable to myself how much progress I have made. I feel like a completely different person, my energy has changed in unthinkable ways. I really wasn't myself at all looking back. It's just crazy... it's just crazy... thank fuck I am getting my shit together. It was even worse than I thought it was, looking back. It was a nightmare. An absolute nightmare to have your soul stolen by the devil like that. Waking up is the most wonderful feeling I have ever felt in my life. I will never stop now, looking back at how miserable I was, and how fucking addicted I was. It's just insane. I wouldn't even consider that myself. I feel like people don't even know the real me, who I've met this year. I finally feel like myself again and it's the best feeling there ever could be.
 
Hey I finally conected my house to the internet! So happy about that :) :) :)
 
Can't say it was positive, but I had a strange episode of sleep paralysis when I just fell asleep for a short nap.

I'm still waiting for my first dream to come back. I don't dream the same when I'm high or in withdrawal. They always come back vivid and it's nice (apart from f-ing sleep paralysis...)
 
learned so much from someone and they don't even realize, maybe even reciprocated to a degree. can move on and like feel real good about it. "end on a good note" i like that saying.
 
JoeTheStoner said:
i really think i am super lucky because by and large the interactions i have with people in real life are so gosh darn pleasant.

and shout out to the old ladies that smoke virginia slims. i don't mean that in any negative way, i was buying something at the smoke shop and just had a nice exchange with this woman.
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Joe, my mom smoked these ever since they came out. She finally stopped smoking in her 60's but professed that she would start again at 80 if she still felt like it and was still alive to do it. She was true to her word and started again at 80. I thought she would never quit this time but apparently she just saw a doctor that scared her about COPD and she got a patch that day and quit.....at 87!

Oh, and btw, you have all those great interactions with people because you are so gosh darn pleasant!
 
Got a lot done today and took my ass to the gym. I think my brain has finally leveled out after coming off drugs. It's nice to be sane again. It's so underrated
 
^^ Me too. I missed the day at work but got a lot of thing done.
 
Sunshine and clouds mixed. High 84F.

this really looks like the last bit of warm weather before it cools off for awhile. gonna enjoy it
 
Great work atmosphere. Tought my son to drive, manual old style instead of our automatic. He loved it! :)
 
Today is a good day. I finally joined Blue light which I am really enjoying it here. I have been coming here for a long time to read, but for some reason never joined. My kiddo has a bad cold. He is a very active child and he is just laying around.
 
^Welcome to blue light.

I found the best organic egg nog ever today, and flash cooked a tuna steak just right (leaving it quite raw). Had it in avocado oil with a fresh chopped avocado and cilantro - delectable. I think I am having haddock tonight, just unsure what with. I got some very constructive guitar practice in too. My life is improving a lot and I just have to start making wiser choices.
 
Ended up having my baked haddock with garlic, ginger, cherry tomatoes, cilantro, bell peppers, and avocado oil. Definitely fishier tasting than good old tuna steak but still great. Oh comfort foods. Where would I be without them. One of my few sources of pleasure in life. Kinda feel like a spicy pork chop now... haha.
 
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