d3athadone
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 29, 2015
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People try to be cool and not put all the blame on us for being addicts, but then they say shit that is just completely soul crushing when they are mad. The way I see it, I caught a serious mental illness when I was in my late teens because I was vulnerable and had a really fucked up life. I've been trying to quit opiates almost since I began. I've made so much effort to quit its astounding. I've gone cold turkey from opiates so many fucking times and I keep giving it just one more go. I've stood in the face of all the madness and fought for truth. Sure I've been out a tthe crossroads completely lost at times. But I've always fought to get myself back together and one peace.
That's why it really sucks when people act like I am not trying. Addiction is a sort of hidden illness. Nobody can figure out what it is unless you have been there. I'd like to see these people navigate the labyrinth which has been my life. I'd like to see them see light in the places I've been. The crazy thing is its fucking smokers and people with eating disorders talking shit to me. Like what the fuck. You can't even fucking quit smoking. YOu know quitting dope is about 100x harder than quitting smoking right? Yet these people who really want to quit smoking cant find the power to quit. Or they quit for a month and go back.
It just really sucks man. So little people actually understand that it hijacks your mind and what that means. Most people think you just don't care enough or your selfish.
Day 8!! Going strong. Not letting any of it get to me. My sobriety has to be for me.
That's why it really sucks when people act like I am not trying. Addiction is a sort of hidden illness. Nobody can figure out what it is unless you have been there. I'd like to see these people navigate the labyrinth which has been my life. I'd like to see them see light in the places I've been. The crazy thing is its fucking smokers and people with eating disorders talking shit to me. Like what the fuck. You can't even fucking quit smoking. YOu know quitting dope is about 100x harder than quitting smoking right? Yet these people who really want to quit smoking cant find the power to quit. Or they quit for a month and go back.
It just really sucks man. So little people actually understand that it hijacks your mind and what that means. Most people think you just don't care enough or your selfish.
Day 8!! Going strong. Not letting any of it get to me. My sobriety has to be for me.