I can only just handle my life atm. I'll take any advice.
Be you and do what you love. Focus your energy on what fuels you.
3-MeO-PCP is an incredible drug. It made me 'paint' something, something I have never done. I always disliked art classes in school and skipped them. This is getting really interesting.
Yeah it really is, to me it's barely a dissociative in the sense of how I have thought about them before... it's like a brain augmenter, it helps you get "there" (when used right)... functioning optimally in terms of being able to channel the ever-present energy of the flow... otherwise known as art, in all its forms.
Man, I'm really stressed. Big changes in life always stress me out. On Sunday I'm driving 9 hours to the training site for my new job. I get to live there during the 7 weeks of job training, but I need to be hunting for an apartment the whole time. It'll happen, and this is a killer opportunity. But the whole transition, moving 500 miles away and all, definitely has my stress level up.
Yeah transitions are tough. When I moved to where I live now, I knew it would be good, but for a while I was overwhelmed and stressed. Then I adjusted and I couldn't possibly be happier that I made the move, my life is so much groovier because of it.
I just did the biggest goof, and I really ought to know better now.... anyway I was typing a post here and it kept going and going....I selected all and copied many times to keep it in memory but my malfunctioning tablet activated the backspace and I couldn't get back to the writing, and when I went to paste it...it was one sentence that I moved and had forgot about needing it backed up. the writing was unreal, the way words were flying through my vocabularium-imaginarium creating all manners of possible connections, words, tons of hilarious phrases of hyphenated phrases that spontaneously came into existence. Took the most humorous/humourous paths and branched them etc. and the path just kept going and going for 7-10 pages in a new reference peak for lucidity....so.
Now for the million dollar question....there's no way to get it back is there? Maybe is it on the BL server somewhere in a temp file?
I know, I should know better, I have lost dozens of songs, many hours of writing, but this is the first time I started a creative writing that felt super special because I wasn't going to be in that staate of mind for long, and sure enough I feel like a regular fumbling human again, trying to remember as many of the lovel things as I can but the way it all flowed together, that was magic I won't be able to recreate.
At any rate I'm strictly in good docs from here on, for everything
Unfortunately I don't think there's anything that can be done. That sucks! Usually I write long posts in a separate text editor in case something like that happens. Maybe not possible on a tablet, not sure.
Hello fellow PD heads
in case anybody wondered, I moved to a new flat 10 days ago and hadn't had an internet connection yet, hence my absence. but I want to spend less time online anyway and this is kind of a late new years resolution I guess. so I'll be around less than before in order to get things done, especially regarding university.
I hope everybody is well
Hey man, nice to see you drop by, take care of your shit, that's always top priority.
Yes. Focus on university. Plenty of time for messing around when you get your career on path. That way you can spend your Friday afternoons working from home tripping your nuts off on 4-ho-mipt.
Haha, funny you say that, I was just giving that advice last night, while tripping my nuts off on a tryptamine cocktail (including 4-HO-MiPT) and dissociatives and jamming with my great friend and various people over at their band house, channeling music from the aether until 6:30 in the morning, on a weekday, with work at 9am the next morning. I can do things like that because I prioritized school while I was in it and got a computer science degree, and now I work from home, so I can roll up in my office with 2 hours of sleep, looking like I've just spent the night partying with funky psychedelic unicorns and road-weary for it, with no worries.
There's something to be said for setting yourself up well. It's funny, I actually don't really even care about programming anymore, but it's a skill I have that let me build a pretty righteous life for myself here instead of clocking into some job for most of the hours of my days, and I wouldn't be able to do it if I hadn't gotten that degree. They're still worth something... it makes a big difference in your life if you're able to do something to make money with your time that doesn't suck.
