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I think the rest are having server busy msgs still. I should ask about that with me giving monthly donation but I don't want them taking it the wrong way n appearing rude. They're all volunteers n am sure are working on it. It is Saturday night n so they may be chilling out with family n stuff :)

On a jokey lighter jokey note I've visions of the posters who suffer drug-paranoia, fists to the screens; "how dare they take away Bluelight I'm being targeted here I'll get those ****** when I'm back on, they just want rid, they want me gone, THEY'RE SPYING ON MEEEEEE" next thing fists through the screenn no way of accessing Bluelight "i'll get them for this!" Meanwhile Bluelight servers are less busy n Bluelight is back on n less irate members n a serene atmosphere. Oh shit FUBAR's wanking again....... Lol

hahahahahahahahaha laughing is good for the soul peeps <3

Evey
 
Eveleivibe said:
I think the rest are having server busy msgs still. I should ask about that with me giving monthly donation but I don't want them taking it the wrong way n appearing rude. They're all volunteers n am sure are working on it. It is Saturday night n so they may be chilling out with family n stuff :)

On a jokey lighter jokey note I've visions of the posters who suffer drug-paranoia, fists to the screens; "how dare they take away Bluelight I'm being targeted here I'll get those ****** when I'm back on, they just want rid, they want me gone, THEY'RE SPYING ON MEEEEEE" next thing fists through the screenn no way of accessing Bluelight "i'll get them for this!" Meanwhile Bluelight servers are less busy n Bluelight is back on n less irate members n a serene atmosphere. Oh shit FUBAR's wanking again....... Lol

hahahahahahahahaha laughing is good for the soul peeps <3

Evey
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Methinks you are now showing classic symptoms of 3fpm intoxication, judging by your posts which are becoming longer and more off the wall. How do you feel?
 
Oh it's started....

This is funny to watch as a fellow 3-Fiend who's currently off the stuff.
Lengthier and pervier.... =D

If any fags are being licked I must offer my service as the resident fa.... no, not again.

<3
 
Mellow. Shit am i annoying. If I'm annoying please tell me. I want people posting here not to drive them out. Sorry people if i'm annoying in any way. Just put me on ignore if I am.
I feel mellow which I've spent my life trying to acheive. I hate feel angry inside n defensive. Far better to get along n have a laugh.

By the way that is my weird sense of humour. I don't use it a lot because in the 2d world it often gets misinterpreted n people think I'm being mean. My okd mate was the same. We used to text each other calling each other names n making light of stuff. I miss her unfortunately she had borderline personality disorder n would pick arguments with me n become abusive. I loved her but i was going through shit myself n I could no longer cope with her manipulation, abuse, shit-stirring n had to cut all ties from her. I miss her n wish her the best. Maybe we could get in contact some day but I'm way to vulnerable to cope with her behaviour as she was.

I guess that makes me a heartless bitch but she was really making me depressed with stuff she'd do, cancelling nights out when a night out is a big thing for a single mam - it has to be planned n i don't like asking family as they're busy n work extremely hard. She's my child n it's my job to look after her, no one else's. But yeah, I wish her all the best but her behaviour was cracking me up. She'd take paracetamol every weekend n call the ambalance it was all attention seeking n she succeeded because I was worried sick. She was bulimic, would cut, burn herself. Seeing your best friend go from someome who worked hard n who everyone relied on to total self destruction was heart breaking to watch. Of course I did what defence mechamisn i knew best - i denied it all but every day I was worried I'd get a call that she was dead. I was extremely anxious over it.

She would not accept she was BPD even though she met most of the criteria n the mental health staff turned on her when they knew she was borderline which was dispuvtable. She only wanted love she was abused by her step father n told to leave the home at 18 to make way for the younger kids, was called for money etc.

Ugh.... I'm rambling now. Where's Raasy? I miss him x

Evey
 
Sprout said:
Oh it's started....

This is funny to watch as a fellow 3-Fiend who's currently off the stuff.
Lengthier and pervier.... =D

If any fags are being licked I must offer my service as the resident fa.... no, not again.

<3
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hahahahsha lets talk virgina slang words. Mine are:

Faj
Pussy
Crack
The brown graas
The hairy hole
Smooth licker
Canal
Kitty
Minge
Fanny
Private

Evey
 
Eveleivibe said:
Mellow. Shit am i annoying. If I'm annoying please tell me. I want people posting here not to drive them out. Sorry people if i'm annoying in any way. Just put me on ignore if I am.
I feel mellow which I've spent my life trying to acheive. I hate feel angry inside n defensive. Far better to get along n have a laugh.

By the way that is my weird sense of humour. I don't use it a lot because in the 2d world it often gets misinterpreted n people think I'm being mean. My okd mate was the same. We used to text each other calling each other names n making light of stuff. I miss her unfortunately she had borderline personality disorder n would pick arguments with me n become abusive. I loved her but i was going through shit myself n I could no longer cope with her manipulation, abuse, shit-stirring n had to cut all ties from her. I miss her n wish her the best. Maybe we could get in contact some day but I'm way to vulnerable to cope with her behaviour as she was.

I guess that makes me a heartless bitch but she was really making me depressed with stuff she'd do, cancelling nights out when a night out is a big thing for a single mam - it has to be planned n i don't like asking family as they're busy n work extremely hard. She's my child n it's my job to look after her, no one else's. But yeah, I wish her all the best but her behaviour was cracking me up. She'd take paracetamol every weekend n call the ambalance it was all attention seeking n she succeeded because I was worried sick. She was bulimic, would cut, burn herself. Seeing your best friend go from someome who worked hard n who everyone relied on to total self destruction was heart breaking to watch. Of course I did what defence mechamisn i knew best - i denied it all but every day I was worried I'd get a call that she was dead. I was extremely anxious over it.

She would not accept she was BPD even though she met most of the criteria n the mental health staff turned on her when they knew she was borderline which was dispuvtable. She only wanted love she was abused by her step father n told to leave the home at 18 to make way for the younger kids, was called for money etc.

Ugh.... I'm rambling now. Where's Raasy? I miss him x

Evey
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Classic! =D

I assure you you're not being anywhere near as annoying as I have been all fuckin day :) its just funny how your posts changed 'colour' right on cue. Oh, and remember me saying you'll tell us everything? I believe it has started. ;)

By the way, its good that you're feeling mellow. That effect is one of the main attractions for me. You might not feel like sleeping much, but just go with the flow, don't fight it.

I predict that within the hour, you'll be flat on your back surrounded by a selection of dildoes, vibrators, anal intruders and porn (don't forget to lick a few fajitas while you're at it).
 
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Sprout said:
Because I have literally nothing aside from that.
My whole identity is that of a piece of shit.
I am nothing and no one aside from such a characteristic and in some way that gives me strength.
I am a Junkie, but at junkie with a heart filled with love.

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I've spent ages trying to find this post. STOP THAT SPROUTY right mow or I'll come there n came your backside (for free see how thoughtful I am =D )

Seriously though you're not a piece of shit or a "junkie." You're a young bloke battling drug addiction. You're a bloody inspiration. I can't even get off the weakest opiate without suboxone n I can't get off that as I like the feeling it gives me. Yet you cold turkeyed of one of the strongest opiates that many people have died trying. You've been off a while(few months?) n you are using your negatives in order to help others. How many people can say that? You're sorting your life out in other way. You've helped tranform EADD into a thriving community that was once dying. You've made a 3-fpm thread, exercise thread, competition thread. You've brough bith new n existing members from elsewhere here.

You're fun, you're intellligent, you're talkable n you research stuff, you're loving n have one of the biggest hearts I'ce ever seen. You even reached out to me n put up with mu BS - that deserves a medal in itself because I exhaust myself with my paranoias, needing to know EVERYTHING, constantly seeking reassurance n needed to know to the miner details of everything that happens. It exhaust s the shit outta me so must frustrate orher.

Pleade don't put yourself down again or I'm going to be upset with you. Seeking recovery is not just about the drugs - you need to work on your self-esteem n self-worth n know you are a good person, you're wortby of happiness n sooooooo much more. Acknowledge your achievements n be proud of them no matter how little they may seem to you; to another it may be the hardest thing in the world n each of our actions affect others. So when you decided to fight your addiction with every bone in your body n grab life by the horns you did not just help yourself. You gave others hope. They're are others, many others, fighting this fight n its upsetting to watch them not try to fight it n continue down a dark. It makes angry because I'm powerless to help them. People like Scotchy n Stee who are good kind people but this disease has them n is fkn with their heads like it does all of us n there's fuck all i can do but stand n watch it all happen n hoe nothing bad happens to them n they one day come out the other side. But you, having gone through 5 years of this so young, gone through stuff I cannot begin to imagine, are fighting this n giving others hope n I'm bloody proud of you. It's an honour to 'know' you n have you as a mod.

You, the latest round of mods, remind me so much of Knock n for that his spirit is still very much alive in this forum. He was into equality, was empathy, compassionate, humourous n our bloody knock. I loved that man. I'd only known him a few months but he became a friend, he welcomed me, was nice about my codeine thread. And you mods remind me so much of him.

Anyway sorry for the lecture or if I appear patronising but you're loved here n it hurts us very much when you put yourself down n refer to yourself as "just a junky," when you're so much more than that n always were so much more than that but didn't have the fait in your own ability to fight the demin n sing with the angels.

Lecture over :D now for your punishment..........

Wait......




Wait still


Waaaaaait (be bloody patient)



OK in gibz for the next 7 days write 5 positive things about yourself. I know its corny but I challenge :)

Evey
 
F.U.B.A.R. said:
Classic! =D

I assure you you're not being anywhere near as annoying as I have been all fuckin day :) its just funny how your posts changed 'colour' right on cue. Oh, and remember me saying you'll tell us everything? I believe it has started. ;)

By the way, its good that you're feeling mellow. That effect is one of the main attractions for me. You might not feel like sleeping much, but just go with the flow, don't fight it.

I predict that within the hour, you'll be flat on your back surrounded by a selection of dildoes, vibrators, anal intruders and porn (don't forget to lick a few fajitas while you're at it).
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I bought this purple vibrator once it was lovely. Big bone i think it was called. Goodness knows where that went. Hopefully someone rammed it up me exes ass :)
But can do fuck all masterbsting on citalopram it really is shit. You get to the bit you're about to orgy and...................

Nothing at all. There should be a law against it :)

Evey
 
^ Too much fucking info!!!


Sorry for having a dump of a big fuck off turd in your thread the other day but hey had to be fucking done =D.
Valhalla!!!!
 
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