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☮ Social ☮ [PD Social General Talk Thread] Observation Tank for Fractallized Redundancy Modules

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It is through animals that I find solace. They continue even though I won't. They play while I am dismayed, they hate while I love, and hate while I love. Will I continue? Who knows... I lost this chance. This chance that could've echoed me into the ethers. I don't know whether I'll use this chance. Oh won't you please tell me? Can't you be me instead of you for a second? To scoure in this pain and dance with dismay? When will it end? With me, and me me it shall!
 
Animals are the greates. <3

I went and played with my Moog tonight, tried things out and then jammed to some recordings of us jamming. I made SO much progress in understanding it and being able to play in a live music situation with it. I'm so excited! :)
 
I'm excited to hear some jams xork! Moogs are certainly nice synths.

To be honest guys the best way to meet people is to go to a cannabis cup. This is what I've heard, I'll find out if it's true on Saturday when I go to the cup. I plan to document the experience as much as possible so I remember it really well, cuz I'm going by myself. I'm fucking excited as hell though
 
Work that networking Sonn! If you don't have business cards keep that cell phone handy. I myself had an incredible convergence with the local 'Awakened Ones' last night. A perk of living in a progressive University town. I foresee great collaboration and Alignment ahead. If I said everything y'all would have goosebumps right now. Science and Magic are Uniting.
 
I agree with that. I've noticed science and "magic" merging for a long time now. Of course magic is just the word we use to describe things we don't understand at all. And then once we understand them it's science.

Ride that wave man. Nothing lasts...

...but nothing is lost. ;)
 
I started getting these weird stomach pains yesterday, like a sharp, twisting feeling sort of pain, that comes in waves. Now today I woke up and they're happening again. :\ Really unpleasant and it makes me wonder why (I am not a person to get stomach pain). I feel like it might have to do with the fact that I've been drinking quite a bit lately with all the band stuff. I have only drank once in the past 5 days though, because independently of this I realized I needed to do it less.
 
If there was ever a time to repent for sins and and strive 100% for a full phisico-mental-spiritual balance, it is now. There are only two ways to go, up or down. Xorkoth, personally, I know you have a lot of work to be done on the ground, and I want to see you around to carry it out. Hope your pains heal well soon enough, however it may come to pass.
 
Sufficiently advanced magic is indistinguishable from technology. Or something like that.
 
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Sufficiently advanced magic is indistinguishable from technology. Or something like that.
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Haha, I hope your not sober to make such a post, thanks for the uplift pal!<3

As far as drinking goes, fuck I wish the world would just make a better commodity. GHB, 1-ethnyl(not that promising but maybe 1-propyl as it could last longer),etc. Shit even 1-propanol is a bit more interesting and SHOULD be a better play. Ethanol is just so dirty and toxic. I mean yeah it has its places and personsoal preference(though I highly doubt most alchys would hate GHB...). I mean yeah sure some people will take it to the edge because they like it so much, but shit so do alcoholics.... Dawrwisim.

It's like in recent days I've just come to think that a lot of us are longed to be this way. It'd be a perfectionist dream to just imagine that the world could congrate, and people could just live as they like. It's like a mirror in a way. Some of us are just more meant to live an exsistence that's tied up in a normal life. Wake up, go to work(what a subjective....?!?), have shedules. The normal sort of hum drum existence. Where normal people get pleasure, other get pain, but if we all just worked together so that those who find others pleasures,....a pain, there would be those that felt others pain...is their pleasure.....

Holy fuck duality......8o:sus::
 
I had a fun night tonight playing with my Moog... I recorded me experimenting with it and also playing piano with my other hand when it resolved into a groove. Interesting stuff. Actually what I was doing before we recorded was better I think. But when it finishes uploading I will post it. I love that thing so much, it's the most fun toy I've ever had. :) And it's not even a toy, it's a bad ass instrument capable of taking our music to the next level.

Last night I had a few hours where I had these stomach pains... it felt a lot like gas except different, I'd get waves of sharp pain in my intestines like someone was grabbing them in a fist and twisting. Well they faded after a while and I slept fine. Then this morning I woke up and about a half hour after that, when I started working, they started again, but this time much more severely. The night before it was a nuisance, but this morning it was literally hell for some moments. Occsaionally it hurt so much I yelled as loud as I could. Sometimes I was in a cold sweat and pale from the pain... some of the most or maybe even the most intense pain I've experienced. It went on ALL day until about 5:30. I bought some tums at like 11 and it didn't seem to help much. Once I got over to my friends' house to play with my synth and hang out, it faded, and it's still gone now but I can feel the edge of it, if that makes sense. I'm really hoping it's gone for good this time, this morning/afternoon I was honestly kinda scared about it. If it hurts like that again tomorrow I think I have to go to the doctor. I've been drinking pretty often (except I have taken a break now, it's been a few days, well I drank one time in the past 6 days). I'm kinda worried about an ulcer, never had one and I don't want one.
 
I have recently gained a new appreciation for alcohol simply because I've been given so much free Jameson recently. Apparently it's just very popular in the Pacific Northwest.

However, alcohol will simply never even hold a candle to GHB. I really don't understand how anyone would prefer alcohol over it. It's really quite a shame it's got such a bad rep


I'll give that track a listen as soon as I'm not around a bunch of sleeping people, xork!
 
I'm quite addicted to alcohol (it's 10:45 am and I'm cracking a beer to help with the headache and tremor from overindulgence the night before ...) and the shit sucks. I think opiates were a better addiction TBH but I've made my bed ... I'd much prefer GHB, in terms of the experience anyway, that was a hell of a fun drug, but I am given to understand the life of a G addict is even more degenerate. Vaguely curious about the various RC-ols but dunno.

I have the day off tomorrow so I'm just going to have a few beers, clean up around the house, and run a few errands. Going 'round the corner for the classic greasy ass NY bacon egg and cheese on a hero ... not a bad start to the day. I'm feeling oddly warm and content this morning. It's one of those rare kind of fuzzy but smiley although still painful hangovers. I wish they were all like this. But no, a hangover is God given, I think, a reminder about overindulgence. A euphoric hangover, on the other hand, is one of those rare seemingly arbitrary blessings of the Almighty. I'll take what I can get :) <3

My old, asthmatic cat is snuggled up next to me purring happily. Animals are indeed the greatest.

Tomorrow, (American) football, hopefully profitable sports wagering (studying up for my 4-way parlay), and more beer. Potential to be called in to work in the afternoon. It would be voluntary but I could use the money (not really, or at least not acutely, but who doesn't like money? Also when I'm away from work I'm always worrying about my patients anyhow. They're basically family to me. A fucked up dysfunctional family but family nonetheless. God knows I spend more time with them than my real family. I haven't called them in a bit but Thanksgiving will make a good occasion.) So should probably not overdo the beeri But I don't have the greatest track record on such matters. Whatevs. Or at least stick to minor amounts of vodka as, you know, maintenance. But what fun would that be and how does that connect to the great American tradition of (American) football and beer and how would it look like to the other alkies at my local at 1pm on a Sunday? :p

One of my meds, not quite sure which one but my money's on Viibryd* gives me vivid dreams almost every night. Not the point of trazodone which actually tends to be disturbingly vivid to the point that I don't like to take it (for sleep, primarily, never took it as an antidepressant), but quite vivid, sometimes disturbing, sometimes not, often fraught with Freudian shit, which I don't believe in, but which happens anyway :p

*vilazodone, a newish SSRI/5HT1A partial agonist and doubtless the best AD I've tried...also a pretty sexy looking molecule

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thanks Cadillac insurance plan

my disciplinary case at work is finally settled to a dollar amount which is not insignificant but is payed in installments so whatever

thanks politically significant union

I put together a bit of cash to invest in "commodities" if the settlement didn't go my way, and thankfully it did, because that was a lifestyle I had no intention to go back to, so instead of letting it lie around and tempt me to get into fuckery I'm gonna write a check to Bluelight and Erowid each cause it's time to give back cause God knows each of them probably saved my life or sanity at least once and let me meet a ton of cool people

also tax writeoffs, although I don't think I'll be going the 501.3(c) route with Bluelight cause MAPS mediates it and I have issues with MAPS (I like Rick but it goes deeper than that)

but yeah

wanna give back

can give back

thanks middle class job and not having to blow all my money on drugs anymore

thanks earth

thanks fire

thanks alan, r.i.p.

thanks PD bros

yeah you know Thanksgiving is coming up

and I've a bit to be thankful for

<3
 
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DXM is honestly too good to me, only drug I've ever done that has me feeling this wonderful the morning after. The trip itself was almost therapeutic.

Most of my trips on other substances leave me like a dead hooker in a ditch.
 
DXM can be extremely therapeutic ime.

I am a bit apprehensive about tomorrow, not only because I have to work, but also because I have to get an affadavit notarized at the bank for my one and only trusted vendor who provides me with my MXE, 5-mapb, and Etizolam. It is a new requirement, and though I think that it is insane, I feel that I am left with no choice as he has been my vendor for years and is the only truly consistent vendor I have ever worked with.

I am nervous because I feel that there will be many questions asked and judgements passed. It looks like I am signing my name in adherence to some kind of strange cult or scientology group. How do you explain that without saying I want to continue buying legal drugs online? Don't get me wrong, I believe in the beliefs expressed, my spiritual life has always been strongly connected to certain drugs. I guess I'll just throw the religious freedom act act them if things get hairy.

I feel that this kind of invades my privacy as a drug user, but also feel that maybe he is just trying to cut down on his clientelle as these unique compounds have become a lot more scarce with the banning of such things in China. I guess I'll be going to the bank first thing after work tomorrow to get this over with so that he will recognize my order. Ugh.

Skl, I too have been falling back into my old ways by indulging in alcohol every single day. I blame a lot of things like the sixty hours a week I work at my six day a week job that I despise and the complete lack of work life balance I have going on, but really would it matter. Hopefully this is not the beginning of yet another downward spiral. But it probably is.
 
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I'm sorry to hear that Cosmic, I know how tough it is to battle with that as well. I just went green instead, ya know what I mean?

And that sounds like quite the process, but sounds like you've got a sweet deal with supplier. I've always wanted to try MXE, but I have no idea how any of that vendor business works.
 
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