As was I, but glad to see you were able to get to it before I was. I had to go drop off a work-truck 1 hr away for repairs.
He hadn't posted in DC or on BL for quite some time or been on Skype. I just glance at some unread Skype shit today, and it happens to be his mom on his account wrote to me "I dont know who you are but this is Michaels mom. He DIED tonight." My thoughts just froze, considering one of my best friends that I had grown up with overdosed on insufflated fent-laced heroin and most likely alprazolam and/or cocaine just a few weeks ago, it was all so much to take in. Dying from this disease of addiction touches very close to home. I know I can say I should NOT be alive today, I've overdosed so many times on multiple sedatives: IV heroin, oxymorphone, fentanyl, methadone and esp combined with high-dose benzo's (i.e. alprazolam, clonazepam, carisoprodol/Soma, nitrazepam)- I honestly don't know how many times I've fallen out through out the last ~5 yrs, whether it be waking up on my hardwood floor with a splitting headache, covered in vomit, blue-tinted lips, and extreme nausea or to a paramedic, in the back of ambulance getting shots of Narcan or a hospital bed in the ER.
I always thought ykm420 might have been one of those individuals that keep on truckin' even though their doses were usually massive and their narcotic cocktails dangerous. If I had access to what ykm did, I'm doubtful I'd be alive honestly. Not to mention using the most powerful RC benzo's/thieno's available (clonazolam) + scripted potent benzos in higher-doses like triazolam/Halcion and clonazepam (I'm sure that doctor will be investigated, prescribing potent, highly-abused amphetamines and benzo's, I wasn't sure triazolam was even obtainable these days via script for a young guy like ykm). Not to mention all the opioids, GABAergics/sedatives, RC's, and K alongside. This is even if his death was correlated with a fatal overdose, which would be my best guess. Suicide or deadly conflict with somebody is also a common end to many of us that go far too hard with heavy drugs. I have constantly been reminded lately that I am far from immortal...
I'll miss his upbeat posts in DC that always left me salivating in jealousy and the goofy, entertaining conversations I got to have with M. Best of vibes to his soul, his family, and his friends. Although I never got to kick it with ykm, I will keep his memory in my heart and try to remind myself to think twice about IVing/plugging/subLing the next cocktail of narcotics, because that shit can wipe out the most tolerant of us.
I look forward to reading any memories or good times with ykm.
RIP MY DUDE YOU WILL BE MISSED
//HYH