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Our show got moved to the 22nd so now we have some time... last night's practice was great, we did a true jam for the first time since the show was scheduled (actually had time to fuck around for fun). We're getting so much better. :)

lol I played RPGs (AD&D, Shadowrun, GURPS, etc) back in the late 80s, early 90s... loved them, but haven't played since. Good times.

I played AD&D too, loved it. Especially when I was the DM (which was always after I did it once).

Edit: Oh, and Millstone decks were the shit. Especially before WotC figured out how to appropriately cost card advantage and control spells... There's a reason almost all the really valuable early cards are spells and not creatures, heh. Early Magic creatures were mostly garbage. But then we had shit like Time Walk. How much should an ENTIRE EXTRA TURN cost? Eh, 2 mana feels fair ;)

They have a planeswalker now where you can regularly take extra turns for no mana cost... my brother made a deck where he ends up taking 2 or 3 turns in a row, regularly. Just stupidly overpowdered IMO. Old-school decks have absolutely no chance over well-designed new decks anymore, except maybe old-school land destruction or discard decks. But yeah, I love my millstone deck (I use grindstone though, it costs 3 to use instead of 2 but only 1 to bring out and if the 2 cards from the library bare the same color, you do another 2, and repeat this process... devastating sometimes against single-color decks)

lol @ Fanta. When I lived in Thailand I couldn't get enough of the Nehi Grape. Nehi is where it's at!

While cleaning out an apartment for a side job, I found a binder with a boatload of Magic cards in it. I'm going to give it to my daughter and see if she wants to learn the game.

I'd look up what's in there... can you tell what editions/sets are in there? If the cards are old you might have found something really valuable.
 
Any of you fellow RPers watch Critical Role? A bunch of professional voice actors playing D&D - great to listen to in the background while doing other things. They stay in character as much as possible, and clearly have a lot of fun with it.
 
I wish I was in northern Europe right now. I've enjoyed your updates solistus :)
 
My new psychiatrist is apparently really into polypharmacy ... I'm taking clonazepam, buproprion, and lamotrigine, which work pretty well together, I came in looking for something for sleep, yes got some Ambien, but he wants to add Saphris (asenapine, a newer faddish atypical) and Viibryd. I'm none too enthused with the idea of taking any atypical and probably won't wind up taking it long term, although I'll give it a try, I mean, I have a bluelight account, who I am not to give drugs a try? Now, Viibryd (vilazodone), on the other hand, is something of an interesting drug:

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It is both an SSRI, a class of drugs of which I'm considerably wary, but is also apparently a 5-HT1A agonist, which not only being interesting eo ipso, should diminish sexual side effects, see my earlier mentions of 5-MeO-MiPT and flibanserin in this context a page or two behind in this thread, but as far as SSRIs go my real fear is the discontinuation syndrome. Again, I'll give it a try but I'd have to see some really positive effects to consider taking it long term.
 
Don't take APs bro, trust me on that. They aint like the others. If you think the discontinuation is bad on SSRIs, APs are on another planet. And thats a lot of drugs man. Most of those aren't just something you can just stop taking. It takes a while to untangle a web like that. Why they need for three more drugs, at the same time, no less. You have no idea what's doing what.

Anyone else watching this shit-show debate?
 
My roommates are watching the debate, all I heard was "It's worth noting that the day Reagan was inducted into office [they] released all of our prisoners" to huge applause, and after that I shut my door.

Guys, I'm feeling so down about this girl who's super amazing that I'm with. She's very growth based, very spiritual like myself and believes that the meaning of life is to spread the light to others, as do I, but I've been having a hard time actually walking that path, and she's been commenting for months that I'm not stimulating her spiritually and "reminding" her, and it kind of came to a head this evening. She said she doesn't know if she can keep on waiting for me to be what she needs, even though she knows I can, because she's brought it up over and over and nothing's changed. I just keep fluctuating between growing and digressing, and generally just haven't had the discipline to keep myself from getting super into growing and then burning out, and cycling. I don't even know. I'm just scared to change, even though I know it's what I have to do and everything will be better. I'm scared.
 
Growing or digressing is irrelevant psy. She needs to accept you as you are regardless of where you are on your path. If someone says she's waiting on me to meet her needs, that conversation usually never goes well with me. Take what I am at face value, I am what I am, I will work towards improving, but don't expect me to be in a relationship that requires me to be a certain way. I'm willing to work towards that kind of thing, but some girls I've been with are all about trying to shape you in some mold...I'm not easily trained and I don't care for rules. However, I am willing to work on some things, if we can work towards them together. It's always a two way street.
 
I agree with the above.

Let's assume you place physical appearance high on your list of values in a potential partner. Do you engage the obese girl, whom you find no attraction to, and wait expectantly for her to become what you want? Even if she somewhat desires the same thing, would you expect her to make such a drastic lifestyle change just to become what you want?


Who do YOU want to be? Be that person. If it's who she's looking for, then woohoo congrats to both of you! However if it's not, why is there question of what you're to do? Again - be who you want to be. Those who resonate with this person will come. There's no use becoming something you don't necessarily want to be, ESPECIALLY if you're being coerced into doing so, just to be with someone you want. Would you rather have her, or yourself?
 
My roommates are watching the debate, all I heard was "It's worth noting that the day Reagan was inducted into office [they] released all of our prisoners" to huge applause, and after that I shut my door.

Guys, I'm feeling so down about this girl who's super amazing that I'm with. She's very growth based, very spiritual like myself and believes that the meaning of life is to spread the light to others, as do I, but I've been having a hard time actually walking that path, and she's been commenting for months that I'm not stimulating her spiritually and "reminding" her, and it kind of came to a head this evening. She said she doesn't know if she can keep on waiting for me to be what she needs, even though she knows I can, because she's brought it up over and over and nothing's changed. I just keep fluctuating between growing and digressing, and generally just haven't had the discipline to keep myself from getting super into growing and then burning out, and cycling. I don't even know. I'm just scared to change, even though I know it's what I have to do and everything will be better. I'm scared.

I think you should be concerned about how you feel about yourself. Independently from what she thinks, do you love who you are? I don't like conditionals when it comes to relationships. How does one measure spiritual growth anyway? Does she want you to be like her? Honestly this smacks of false spirituality to me... "you need to be this way or else you're not evolved enough for me". Who is she to say what is correct for you?

My reaction to this post is that she's full of shit.
 
So those are tartrate crystals in my wine? I've always wondered what the heck that stuff was, I mean, it kinda looks like broken glass (though it isn't sharp in the mouth).

psy said:
Guys, I'm feeling so down about this girl who's super amazing that I'm with. She's very growth based, very spiritual like myself and believes that the meaning of life is to spread the light to others, as do I, but I've been having a hard time actually walking that path, and she's been commenting for months that I'm not stimulating her spiritually and "reminding" her, and it kind of came to a head this evening. She said she doesn't know if she can keep on waiting for me to be what she needs, even though she knows I can, because she's brought it up over and over and nothing's changed. I just keep fluctuating between growing and digressing, and generally just haven't had the discipline to keep myself from getting super into growing and then burning out, and cycling. I don't even know. I'm just scared to change, even though I know it's what I have to do and everything will be better. I'm scared.

I'm trying to read between the lines, am I correct in guessing that there is a dissonance between the spirituality oriented theory that you have about what you should be doing and the practical considerations or emotional exigencies that often dictate how you actually behave? If so, that's a tough one. It is difficult to determine whether one has set up an unreasonable standard for themselves, or whether it is the result of some changeable life circumstance(s).
 
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Say blue light, if I used my dab rig with a nail specifically devoted to vaping chemicals, would that probably still taint my rig pretty bad? Better off just getting a totally separate one?
 
Saw the newest Mad Max film tonight; it was actually really badass. I'd go so far as to say it was better than the old Mel Gibson trilogy was! If y'all haven't seen it, I'd recommend you do so!
 
My only experience with high test cannabis extract was years ago, and it involved taking a drop or two, p.o., at a festival, given to me on a little acid blotter sized paper by a hippie patriarch who's name some of you might recognize, and anyway, I was never much of a pothead, so this would up with me practically catatonic, or at least more or less like I was nodding on heroin. I woke up when the owners of the campsite I was knocked out at returned, and they turned out, by sheer coincidence, to be bluelighters, so I turned them on to some weird research chemical or another and we became fast friends. Good times.
 
Hey SKL, did you see what I said to you? I think I like you, so it might be important.
 
^ re: neuroleptics? Yeah, loud and clear. My day job is actually as a mental health clinician, so I know the picture pretty well, although my clientele is largely lower functioning schizophrenia spectrum pts. But I'm also a "consumer," (I never liked the term TBH) with some depression issues and anxiety issues and bipolarity, exacerbated by years of dedicated and prolific substance abuse. So I figure I owe it to myself to at least explore some of the pharmacological options presented to me. I'll look at it much the same way as I've looked at my past experiments with any number of compounds: does this compound have better-living-through-chemistry potential? I suspect my judgment in this arena has improved since my 20s...but for the better part of my life, pharmacology has played a role. Sometimes it's been LSD, sometimes it's been heroin or speed, most recently, it's been liqour, and sometimes it's been various psych meds. Like a good Bluelighter, I'll try anything twice.

I think I like you too, BTW.
 
I don't presume to know more than you about drugs in general. All I'm giving you is a word of caution that has had almost identical issues as you who has been on stims/benzos/bupe/ and dozens of these drugs. I stopped a bunch and started a bunch with no issues. I've used and abused tons of substances with no issues. I am generally healthy. No medical issues etc. A while ago, I had tried lots of stuff, had minimal issues and stopped and started plenty with no problems. I had an issue with bupe and benzos but that ended rather quickly. I didn't respond very well to lots of drugs. The only thing that really helped my particular type of BP II was zyprexa, the fashionable atypical at the time. It worked actually. I stayed on it for four years. After that, it started messing me with me big time. I am in a drug crisis right now that barely any drugs are capable of. I have been in serious withdrawal for about a year now. It is rough man. Individual biochemistry is everything, but some of these drugs have major consequences the normal drugs of abuse don't have. Just about any one of these things can cause a messed up withdrawal if you have been on it long enough at the right dosage. I've come in contact with a lot of people that have had such bad reactions that I would just say tread very lightly. I know you know what you are doing, just a word of caution.

Good luck man.
 
North Korea is creating its own timezone, this amuses me deeply.

Saw the newest Mad Max film tonight; it was actually really badass. I'd go so far as to say it was better than the old Mel Gibson trilogy was! If y'all haven't seen it, I'd recommend you do so!

Yeah, it was a fantastic action film (lots of practical effects to boot). It's gotta 98% on RT, if anyone cares for that site.

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Amsterdamsels

Lol.

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Hey, I've been assigned to ask my friends what job / career I'd be good at.

I don't know many people with careers, or who are happy with their careers, so it's difficult for me to match a personality type to one. Your assignment is probably long since due as well, but I can vaguely imagine you doing something involving people and creativity.
 
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