GUYS HELP ME.
i dont know if this is a part of my withdrawals but i dont like what i feel. just stumbled upon a song on youtube, then came to my realization it was the song that made me lost yet fun a few months ago. BUT I HATE IT. i dont hate the song but i hate the fact that it made me so lost when i think about it i feel ashamed of myself. i danced stupidly and also there was one sober person in the room might be he was judging us for rolling so hard.. this plays in my mind. hope i can throw this memory away! urgh i just hate this feeling. i hate to think that the sober person hated what he saw eventhough he was one of our friends. only addicts understand addicts i might say.
i really forgot the name of the song but i just stumbled upon it and now it plays in my head. when it plays in my head i recall what we have done!
is this my personal problem or only the journey of my recovery? HELP