☮ Social ☮ PD Social Thread: Engage the digital super banana

[I B Profane]

For deep experiences, oral MXE > nasal ketamine > nasal MXE > oral ketamine. IMO

YMMV greatly depending on the quality of the batch.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

Johnstown,PA is the biggest shithole ive ever been in.
i seriously used to buy heroin in nicer projects than the town is here.
Whatever meth ghetto i was in in vegas was better than here too.
NEVER go to fucking johnstown.
its hilarious out here.

 

[jammin83]

I thought you were taking it easy on the drugs and all that bro? Didn't you find a girl and all that?

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

Im in a halfway house dog.
vegas was 2 months ago and i quit doing heroin a while ago.
its been 3 weeks since i shot crystal.
being i went crazy this time after only 2 days running (?????????) its time to leave well enough alone at this point.
Its no fun if i cant be confident i can run for 5-6 days and be relatively fine, relatively speaking for someone on an IV methamphetamine binge.
that rush though when i do a quarter gram.
Bestfeelingevar.

 

[solistus]

I must be turning into old people. Wasn't feeling great yesterday so skipped the L, just rolled for the show. The venue was kind of awful - poor ventilation, no seating or chill-out areas, just one stuffy, sweaty floor and insanely long lines for $5 water bottles. Shit acoustics, too. Ended up leaving pretty early into Thievery Corp's set - I was mostly there to see Beats Antique anyway, the heat/stuffiness was getting to me, and curling up at home with Google Music and a bong bowl sounded a lot better than sticking around there for another hour. It was also already getting pretty cold out, and the thought of spending half an hour trying to score a cab as the whole venue emptied onto the streets was enough to motivate me to leave early.

Still, even without fancy displays and shit, Beats Antique put on a hell of a show. Hearing their Grateful Dead cover live was awesome, and even with shit acoustics I'll listen to Beauty Beats live any time. Not as good as Creature Carnival last year but further proof that, even in the worst case, Beats Antique is always worth seeing live. And I'm feeling a hell of a lot better today, so hopefully I'll be in proper concert-going form for the Dead. Plus, I'll be going with a good friend and my uncle - more proof that I'm turning into old people, perhaps, but being at a concert alone feels really awkward these days.

edit: and llama, I guess we're recovery buddies - I quit H a few months back and meth a couple weeks ago. Never IVed either of them, but railed enough H to make withdrawals a living nightmare. Meth wasn't as bad, it's just left me feeling more lethargic/lazy than usual. I've also been skipping my prescribed amphetamine doses more often than not lately, which I'm sure doesn't help on that front. So fucking sick of living a double/triple/quadruple life though, hiding my hard drug use from most of my friends and making up excuses not to show up places when I ran out for a couple days and got dopesick. Sobriety is a grind, but every part of being an addict other than the hour or so immediately after dosing was pure shit, and I'm trying to remind myself of that every time I feel tempted to slip into old habits.

 

[jammin83]

All good man. Got what you wanted too out of it. I really hate being in over crowded stuffy places and can dig leaving early in that situation, if you were spun you would have probably stayed tho lol. I really enjoy both of those acts and want to see them again fo sho. I entirely missed the second night of a three night bisco run last year and it turned out to be the best night. Got too fucked up night 1. Total rookie mistake. Hope you are good shape for the dead. Ill be waiting for the word after you go.%)

 

[Xorkoth]

Yeah, Beats Antique is amazing. I only saw them at Ceature Carnival but I'll take any chance I can to see them again, if they're nearby. I'd go to a different city for it.

edit: and llama, I guess we're recovery buddies - I quit H a few months back and meth a couple weeks ago. Never IVed either of them, but railed enough H to make withdrawals a living nightmare. Meth wasn't as bad, it's just left me feeling more lethargic/lazy than usual. I've also been skipping my prescribed amphetamine doses more often than not lately, which I'm sure doesn't help on that front. So fucking sick of living a double/triple/quadruple life though, hiding my hard drug use from most of my friends and making up excuses not to show up places when I ran out for a couple days and got dopesick. Sobriety is a grind, but every part of being an addict other than the hour or so immediately after dosing was pure shit, and I'm trying to remind myself of that every time I feel tempted to slip into old habits.

Indeed... everything about being an addict is horrible. You don't even fully realize how fucked up it is until you're out of it either. It's just no way to live at all, constantly obsessed with a feeling and feeling incredible pain when you don't have it. It transforms you into something really sad. It felt like I woke up from a 10 year long nightmare when I finally quit opiates last April.

Since then I've come to love sobriety though I definitely still do plenty of drugs... now I just stick to psychedelics, weed and alcohol, and the occasional experimental empathogen or stimulant. Sobriety is great when your life is going well and you don't have chemical imbalances from drug abuse or recent drug abuse.

 

[jammin83]

About 15 minutes in the first one xor. Very chromatic, I like it. Nice change around the 10 min mark too. Getting interesting.

Definitely staying sober or limiting use of hard drugs is a good thing or has been for me. Those first few months are rough. I just do a little alcohol and weed and I don't even smoke but a couple grams a week. Things are a lot more manageable now for sure. I hope that goes well for both of you guys. Can't let that shit take you out of the game.

Headed an hour south to go hangout out another nearby beach spot with my girl this weekend. Need a mini vacation for sure right now. Have a good fourth for those of you in the land of the free!

 

[Xorkoth]

You too man! Thanks. I'm heading to this great camping spot 2 hours north on the Blue Ridge Parkway tomorrow morning. I might take a quarter of mushrooms tomorrow night with my friend, but we might not. My girl is coming and her ex-boyfriend is visiting her and he's coming too so we'll gauge our comfort level. I'll definitely take something tomorrow though... DOC is the backup plan.

I was stressing yesterday about her ex-boyfriend coming. I didn't think I would. I was able to realize the thoughts were irrational, but it didn't stop them from happening. I was turning over all the little things she said about it and the way she said it. For example she said "don't worry, I won't snuggle with him, because I like you too much. Plus I don't really want to". I started thinking, wait, would you have done so otherwise? Is that what you guys do, hook up when you see each other? What does that mean, you don't REALLY want to? But it's like, does that even matter? I shouldn't be upset about something like that. It's not like I think she's going to do anything now. It was really annoying to experience and it caused me a lot of internal strife. Then last night I remembered that they broke up because the passion was gone... she told me that the main thing for her was she was never actually that attracted to him but she liked him as a person and they were close. That made me feel better and ever since I've been fine. Actually they are coming over here shortly so he can meet me and they're going to help me work on my yard and plant some blueberry bushes. Then they're staying here so we can head out early tomorrow to go camping.

I really didn't expect the flurry of negative emotions I had about it yesterday... it kinda disturbed me. I thought I was past that sort of thing. I mean I respect that they are in each others' lives, he's one of her best friends. I think that's cool. I'm looking forward to meeting the guy though, she has told me that she bets we'd get along really well. It'll be good to put an actual person there in my head instead of some abstract representation.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

I must be turning into old people. Wasn't feeling great yesterday so skipped the L, just rolled for the show. The venue was kind of awful - poor ventilation, no seating or chill-out areas, just one stuffy, sweaty floor and insanely long lines for $5 water bottles. Shit acoustics, too. Ended up leaving pretty early into Thievery Corp's set - I was mostly there to see Beats Antique anyway, the heat/stuffiness was getting to me, and curling up at home with Google Music and a bong bowl sounded a lot better than sticking around there for another hour. It was also already getting pretty cold out, and the thought of spending half an hour trying to score a cab as the whole venue emptied onto the streets was enough to motivate me to leave early.

Still, even without fancy displays and shit, Beats Antique put on a hell of a show. Hearing their Grateful Dead cover live was awesome, and even with shit acoustics I'll listen to Beauty Beats live any time. Not as good as Creature Carnival last year but further proof that, even in the worst case, Beats Antique is always worth seeing live. And I'm feeling a hell of a lot better today, so hopefully I'll be in proper concert-going form for the Dead. Plus, I'll be going with a good friend and my uncle - more proof that I'm turning into old people, perhaps, but being at a concert alone feels really awkward these days.

edit: and llama, I guess we're recovery buddies - I quit H a few months back and meth a couple weeks ago. Never IVed either of them, but railed enough H to make withdrawals a living nightmare. Meth wasn't as bad, it's just left me feeling more lethargic/lazy than usual. I've also been skipping my prescribed amphetamine doses more often than not lately, which I'm sure doesn't help on that front. So fucking sick of living a double/triple/quadruple life though, hiding my hard drug use from most of my friends and making up excuses not to show up places when I ran out for a couple days and got dopesick. Sobriety is a grind, but every part of being an addict other than the hour or so immediately after dosing was pure shit, and I'm trying to remind myself of that every time I feel tempted to slip into old habits.

I havent been bad on drugs for a min.
this shit is easy.
i got this mane.
in other news.
Trozz whats goin on in ya life

 

[yepyepwoah]

Took like 80mg mda, 180mg mama (maybe more. I think I was sorta blacking out at points), who knows how much mxe? 100-200mg??, 10mg 2cb, 20mg dot ( 6 hours jn, don't recall feeling it much)
Sniffed 200-250mg ketamine at the end. Felt just crazy dissociation staring, next thing I know it is 2 hourz later and I haven't moved... Wtf?
Slept like 24 hours straight and still felt fucked off. Don't even know why I do this shit. Don't remember anything about the night really. No good, no baf. Just a blur of wasted time

 

[Just A Guy]

Wow, yep, that is one hell of an experiment. I'd have been floored by the first two (and loving it) -- but you just took the painter's palette and threw it at the canvas. lol Proceed with caution?

Edit: Hey Xorkoth, I'd like to stop by and say hi on my way through to my Mom's in September. I've taken the quickest way, and it's kind of boring, (except through I77 in Virginia, which is lovely); I've taken the middle way, and it was a lot of detours and no cell access through a lot of it (in KY mountains) and yes, even an ol' Scout like me got lost (but also has beautiful VA-I77). But then there's the best way, which cuts through Missouri, the mountains of TN right through Asheville, NC. I'd have an eight year old with me, so it'd be a sober visit, but worth it. But I'll hit you up later, as we talked about this in late 2014.

 

[solistus]

I havent been bad on drugs for a min.
this shit is easy.
i got this mane.
in other news.
Trozz whats goin on in ya life

Heh, I feel ya. I'm going to a SMART meeting in the morning, but mostly just as an excuse to meet my latest crush for breakfast. I never bought into the Narcotics/Alcohol Anonymous line of thinking, once an addict, always an addict... I think I'm less likely to use that shit again than the average poly drug user who has never tried them before. Every passing craving is more than outweighed by clear memories of how shitty it was living as a junkie. Plus, ya know, not wanting to blow my chances with this girl...

 

[Yeetbeat]

I havent been bad on drugs for a min.
this shit is easy.
i got this mane.
in other news.
Trozz whats goin on in ya life

 

[swilow]

^Good neighbours?

 

[Yeetbeat]

They haven't made too many real attempts at writing themselves off on my car yet, so yeah not bad

 

[Xorkoth]

So my girl's ex-boyfriend is a really nice, cool guy. We had a lot of fun yesterday. She was right, we get along quite well.

They know each other really well, they have all these inside jokes and ways of speaking. It's interesting to see, inevitable since they were together/lived together for like 5 years. Neither of us feels like a third wheel though, nothing weird going on there or anything, he told me he was the third wheel but I don't think he actually feels like it. He's good at giving us privacy. Shortly we're going to go camping, everyone else cancelled so it'll just be the 3 of us. I'm pretty excited about it. Now to pack my shit up and make some breakfast before they wake up. I guess they also have sleeping more than me in common.

Took like 80mg mda, 180mg mama (maybe more. I think I was sorta blacking out at points)

Damn man, that's a lot of mama. I'm surprised she didn't chastise you for your dosage patterns, mine would have.

Edit: Hey Xorkoth, I'd like to stop by and say hi on my way through to my Mom's in September. I've taken the quickest way, and it's kind of boring, (except through I77 in Virginia, which is lovely); I've taken the middle way, and it was a lot of detours and no cell access through a lot of it (in KY mountains) and yes, even an ol' Scout like me got lost (but also has beautiful VA-I77). But then there's the best way, which cuts through Missouri, the mountains of TN right through Asheville, NC. I'd have an eight year old with me, so it'd be a sober visit, but worth it. But I'll hit you up later, as we talked about this in late 2014.

Yeah man, that would be awesome. I always love meeting Bluelighters.

You a Boy Scout too? Eagle by chance? I am. Good program there, I loved it, it did a lot for me.

 

[solistus]

Made it to the 9:15 SMART meeting. Impressed with myself, I am. Also ran into another guy there who I knew from the outpatient CBT program I finished last month. That was cool, he seems to be doing better than last time I saw him. Muuuuuch better meeting than the last one I attended.

Anyone doing anything fun for 'Murica day? I'm torn between asking around to find a BBQ/get-together to attend and just going full hermit / cynical commie mode and spend the holiday playing dota and reading a little Zizek or Churchill. Decisions, decisions...

One of these days I really need to make my way to Asheville and meet some of you lovely people. I've only met one BLer, and none of the PD Soc regulars.

 

[TheAppleCore]

Anyone doing anything fun for 'Murica day? I'm torn between asking around to find a BBQ/get-together to attend and just going full hermit / cynical commie mode

I'm gonna do both. Hit up a BBQ, come home, take a bunch of LSD and soul-search. Maybe I'll even get to see some fireworks while tripping; that will be a first for me.

 

[Cream Gravy?]

My neighborhood goes all out for the 4th of July, I'm probably just gonna drink a lot and sit out front of my house. I thought about tripping, but it doesn't honestly sound appealing today.